Chapter 21
The Enigma
AN: Okay so your reviews have convinced me to continue on with the story. I thought that perhaps just exploring the whole situation with these two getting together was enough, but obviously you guys want more! I was so happy to hear that and read those reviews! So thank you…all of you for your support. There is more to this story and of course I'd love to keep writing!
This chappy's short and a bit different. We begin with taking a read through Kaoru's personal diary. I left it relatively short just because I wanted to quickly post something so you guys know that I mean to keep this story alive a bit longer.
------- Diary of Kaoru Kamiya ---------
So since when did I decide to start a diary? I don't even know. Honestly, it feels a bit weird to actually put all my thoughts down on paper. But sometimes, I just want to vent and I guess writing it down is much easier than telling someone.
I mean I have such wonderful friends like Misao and even Sano. Even more, I have a dedicated and wonderful boyfriend, Kenshin. He treats me like a princess, calls me to see how I am, and cares about me in a way that completely leaves me breathless! It's been nearly 6 months since we started going out. Steadily things have gotten more and more serious. I knew shortly into the start of our relationship that I was falling hard for him. I mean look at how lucky I am? He's smart, funny, HOT, but more importantly, a genuinely sweet guy! He won't let me cry saying that he just can't stand to see me so sad. And even with all the problems at home, he's always there. It does get annoying sometimes because he can be so damn stubborn. He'll constantly make me look into those beautiful eyes when all I want to do is bury my head into his chest and cry my heart out. Dad has, argh, regressed into his old habits. It's so painful to see him revert back to drinking day and night and not give a shit about the rest of us. It's like it doesn't matter to him that just a few months ago he was teetering between life and death in the hospital. He just doesn't fucking care about anyone but himself. But I don't even wanna think about that right now!
I never realized how much I needed someone like Kenshin in my life. Even though I told him in the beginning that I wanted to take things slowly, but he's completely intoxicating! I just can't say no to anything he asks of me, not that he even asks for a lot. God how do I even put into words everything we've shared together? I've given him my heart, soul, body and mind completely. I just offered it up to him even after imagining that I would save it for after marriage. Was that stupid of me? But he never even forced it or even demanded it. I can't describe his delicate touches, his sweet kisses, and his skin…god I melt even at the thought of it. Just writing about him now is making me miss him so much. I wonder if he thinks about me as much as I think about him? I think I was shy for a few minutes, but he so gentle and perfect. I'm ashamed to even write the details, and I feel so close to him. Afterwards he had me wrapped in his arms and whispered something along the lines of "everything that I need in this world is right here in my arms". How could I not melt? What girl wouldn't want someone like that in her life?
The only thing is that I wish I knew more about his family. Aside from hearing about his mom and the fact that he doesn't really get along with his dad, he just doesn't divulge too much information. I don't know if he just doesn't trust me or if he just doesn't want to talk about it. He's so thorough when he asks me about my family…asks all sorts of questions and just goes on and on with the probing. I mean its good to know that he actually cares that much, but sometimes it does get a bit annoying. Sometimes all I want to do is be with him and forget about all this shit at home. So bringing it up constantly really doesn't help. It pisses me off even more that when I ask him about his dad, he just clams up.
Then one day when we were hanging out in his room, at his house I came across a photo album. Could you believe that it was an album of one of his ex-girlfriends? I mean I was so pissed off! I asked him why the hell he would still have something like that. The truth is that I've never been in a relationship before Kenshin, so maybe I just don't know the protocol of keeping or throwing away memorabilia of ex's. But I mean I just wouldn't leave it lying around. Well actually it was in a dresser, but that's not important. He saw me looking through it and didn't really get mad. I dunno' the whole thing was pretty stupid. Point is I got pretty jealous and argued with him. He actually got so upset over me getting so mad that he ended throwing the damn album in the garbage. Then...ah…well we made up!
But I can't stop thinking about the fact that the only reason he wants to…fool around is when I start asking some serious questions. Like about his father or his ex's, or even his past. He gives very vague facts and stuff, but nothing too deep. I can't help but wonder what he's hiding.
Getting back to the stupid photo album, his ex was actually very pretty. I didn't linger too long because I was getting blinded by anger and jealousy, but from what I can remember she had red hair, tan skin, dark-brown eyes, and was fairly petite. I guess she was pretty, whatever. Sometimes I can't help but wonder what someone like Kenshin is doing with me.
Damn I can't even make the mistake of leaving this diary in my room. From what happened last time with the cell phone, it's just not safe! Oh and nothing's really changed with dad accepting Kenshin and me being together. He still hates Kenshin, still hates the fact that I'm with him. Mom has been an angel though. I am happy to say that I tell her every time I'm about to go and hang out with him. But I obviously don't tell everything…you know EVERYTHING! God I feel like a bit of a…no not a slut, just completely despicable for keeping such a big secret from her. MY MOM! But then again, there's no way I could every really sit down and just tell her out right. Argh…my brain just keeps skipping from one topic to the next. From one issue to the other. Sometimes I just wish time could stand still when I'm with Kenshin. God I sound so damn attached and pitiful eh?
Well one thing I can talk about that's relatively safe is college! Yup, that time is getting closer and closer. Actually, we already made out all of our college applications right at the beginning of the school year. Now it's just a matter of keeping up the grades, applying for scholarships, and gearing up for the end! I didn't even consider applying for the same college as Kenshin. I'm pre-med and he's law! But as if fate wants at least ONE thing to go right my life, our colleges are only minutes apart. The only problem, it's about 3 hours from here…home! I told mom that I applied to a bunch of places, including colleges around here, but I really want to go to Aichi Medical School. It's really a great university and I've done all the research. Meanwhile, Kenshin is all set and ready to attend Aichi Daigaku Law School. We really didn't plan to be going to schools so close together, but I'm sure as hell glad for it. But how to tell mom that I want to go away for college? Driving back and fourth that distance everyday is out of the question, and I really don't want to go anywhere else! I've had my heart set on that place for the past two years now.
I have to tell her sometime, but I have no clue how. One thing I learned though from the whole ordeal with dad finding out about me and Kenshin was that it's just best to be honest with her. Now I just have to sit her down and tell her right? RIIIIGHT! Easier said than done!
The weekend went by so quickly. We went out to the movies, dinner, and then he took me back to the beach. It was wonderful! No more details needed. In the mean time I think I'll try and write more entries…but no promises!
-KK
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"Kenshin?" Kaoru whispered while resting her head on his bare chest. They were comfortably lying down in his spacious bedroom. After another intense school day, Kenshin had decided to take off the stress of exams by preparing a supper just for them. Afterwards they settled in his room and watched some TV. But before long other activities had taken their attention away from the programming. Now they both laid still, Kaoru resting over his and his arm wrapped around her, their bodies covered lightly in sweat and sheets, resting peacefully.
"Hmmm" he hummed back, not opening his eyes. His hand gently massaged her scalp and she struggled to not fall back asleep.
"Don't fall asleep" she warned and then promptly yawned. "I have to get home soon. Mom isn't too crazy about me being late you know."
He let out a heavy sigh, and pulled her up towards him quite easily. She was on top of him, her hands resting on the warm flesh of his chest. Gently he caressed her hair and admired the glow that was left behind on her face. "I can't wait for the time when I don't have to take you home, when you're always with me".
She could do nothing but smile and dip her head down towards his and reward him with a passionate kiss. "Me neither" she giggled as he gently stroked her back, sending her quivering under his touch.
After getting dressed, the two walked down the staircase and made their way to the front door. Kaoru fussed with her hair and getting it back into a pristine pony tail as they walked up to the door. Just as Kenshin was about to reach out and grab the handle, the lock clicked open and the door swung open before them.
A tall man with black hair, streaked in places with gray, and piercing amber eyes stared back at them. Kaoru's breath hitched in her throat and she looked like a deer in headlights.
Kenshin meanwhile, simply gave the man a harsh look and acknowledged his entrance.
The man wore a tailored business suit and looked so professional that Kaoru was immediately sure he was Kenshin's father.
"Ah well hello!" he greeted them. His tone was surprisingly pleasant and that shocked Kaoru even more. "I thought he would be some sort of huge jerk" she thought considering everything that Kenshin had told her about him. "But then again, he really hasn't told me much."
"Well son, aren't you going to introduce me to your friend?" he asked his son.
"Dad this is Kaoru Kamiya, Kaoru this is my dad" his tone was quick and without much emotion. "Can we go?" he added looking at Kaoru.
"Ah…nice to meet you Mr. Himura" Kaoru politely replied a bit flustered by Kenshin's rudeness towards his own father.
"Well what a pleasant name Kaoru! What's the hurry you two?" he looked at Kenshin and Kaoru could just sense the tension building. He then turned his shiny white smile back on Kaoru, "Please join me for some supper Kaoru."
"We've already eaten" Kenshin curtly replied.
"Than please" he turned to his son again, this smile disappearing, "join me for some tea. I'd love to catch up with you and your new friend."
"Oookay, this is awkward" Kaoru thought nervously. Father and son obviously had some unsettled emotions between them, and for the moment she was caught there as well. "But maybe now I can finally get some more insight into Kenshin's past."
"Umm…well sure Mr. Himura, I guess we can stay for some tea" she responded cheerily.
"Excellent! Let me just get washed up. I will join you shortly" he walked past them.
Kaoru could feel the glare Kenshin was giving her and she assured him as best she could. "I can't be rude to your dad the first time he meets me Kenshin. Please?" she pleaded.
His glare subsided and was replaced by defeat. "20 minutes! Tops!" he warned. She smiled brightly and inched up to give him a kiss.
"This should be interesting" she thought while walking hand in hand with Kenshin towards the sitting room.
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Well I know it's short, but I think it's time to explore the entity we know as Kenshin! LOL…please do review and I hope to update shortly! You guys are really very inspiring!
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