This is my first fanfic. It is rated pretty high because it has some strong content. If you think it is too strong review and I will change it to be more subtle. flames welcome, but please don't flame because it is a rin sesshoumaru fanfic, because you are taking the time to read it. I will update if I get good reviews

My Immortal Love

By Jonathan Leopold (DarkSephiroth748)

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Caitlin Hartman (InuyoukaiRin)

Chapter 1 Rin's POV (The PoV of asexually frustrated 18year old)

A decade has come to pass. Nine years and 364 sunrises and sunsets disguised as long days and empty nights. Today is day 365, the last day of the 10th year since my Sesshoumaru-sama has brought me back to existence. I don't know why, but I've counted the days as I've grown from a girl into a woman. The top of my head is level with Sesshoumaru-sama's shoulder. My hair is a long silken curtain of raven black tresses that comes to my hips. My body has changed from that of an awkward carefree child to that of a woman. I have longer legs, fuller, wider hips, and blessedly more than ample amount of bosom. Try as I might to get my Lord Sesshoumaru's attention by flaunting them, he remains as passive as ever, seeming to show no interest in any human female. I've even gone as far as to bathe with him, but ever the gentleman that he is, Sesshoumaru-sama just averts his eyes and moves away to give me the very privacy I wish to discard and that thwarts my plans to every extent. To call him beautiful would be an insult, but to call him a god would be appropriate. Inuyasha and Kouga as well as that monk Miroku that have a beauty about them that isn't at all like the feminine beauty he possesses. The feelings that I have go beyond just lust but I have grown to be in love with him. A small part of me says that it's wrong but I just ignore it, for my better half is screaming for him to make love to me, but he can't hear it. I want nothing more than to feel him in my body; for him to feel me and fill me. To take my soul and make his fill this empty void and bring warmth to my heart. I want him to see not the little playful carefree orphan child any more but the woman who loves him and wants him to love her. It seems for the millionth time today these thoughts have crossed my mind as we continue on our unknown path. Jaken-sama is walking beside him in my place. We usually talk, but lately it has been silent. I picked at the sleeves of my kimono, the blue silk shimmering in the bright sun. Sesshoumaru-sama had made for me recently, I believe to show me off to any potential suitors. He is probably trying to get rid of me. Now, whenever we go into a new village or town he sends me ahead of him with Jaken to show me off. However, I know that blue is one of his favorite colors and I wear this kimono for him alone. I can hear a waterfall nearby as we stop and I'm in desperate need of time alone to think and relax due to the current state of arousal I'm experiencing.

"Lord Sesshoumaru, there's a waterfall just beyond those trees and bushes. I'm going to go bathe if it pleases my lord," I said more asking than declaring.

"Very well Rin-chan. Don't wander too far from this Sesshoumaru," he replied, the tone of his voice indifferent.

Leaving him, slightly disappointed, I found my way to the waterfall and stripped off my robes. Sliding into the cool clear blue water, the iciness of the liquid caught me off guard causing my nipples to harden and agitate my arousal even more. It was too late now. I couldn't stop myself from going through with the plan that had just sparked in the hidden depths of my mind. He wouldn't be able to resist me now.

Sesshoumaru's POV

As I take in a deep breath I can smell her intoxicating scent, her sweet arousal. I know what she wants, but I cannot give it to her. She must learn not to tempt this Sesshoumaru in such a manner. The past few years she has done much to try to get my attention, in which she has succeeded, but that I will never let her know, for I myself will not accept her behavior. I settle down when I suddenly hear small moans and whimpers that match the smells that I know are coming from Rin-chan. The girl really is too much. As her arousal begins to peak, her moans turned to screams. That's when the stiffening in my loin began to become apparent to me. Unable to suppress my curiosity, I stand and make my way over to the waterfall where I know that she will be. Already as I get closer, the stiffening begins to get worse as the music of her pleasure reaches my ears. Then I see her. She is sprawled out on a flat smooth black boulder that looks as if it was made for her to be perched upon. Her hair is fanned out beneath her and plastered to her body. The droplets of water glistening on her body make her look like an angel. Her eyes are closed, her left hand roaming over her beautiful body as her right hand fingers plunge in and out of her depths and the stiffening in my loin grows ever more. Even though I say she is beautiful, even that is not enough of a description. She is so gorgeous that words cannot compare and the sight would make any other pathetic demon swoon and fall to his knees with longing. Many would even so much as beg just to be in her presence. This Sesshoumaru, however, is stronger than to fall to her enticement. She is a clever girl, but I Sesshoumaru am more so. Until the scent begins to overwhelm my senses, I manage to keep control. Not only is she fully aroused, she is in heat, the period of time just before she bleeds, and the situation is beginning to annoy me. The girl knows that she cannot have what she wants, and no matter how much she desires it this Sesshoumaru must not give it to her. Yet, I Sesshoumaru cannot seem to be able to deny it to her as she opens her dark eyes and peers over at me seductively and at the same time so sweetly, begging me to come to her. This Sesshoumaru must not. When I do not come to her, she closes her eyes once more and plunges her fingers into herself. I Sesshoumaru must not permit this and I turn to leave the lustful girl.

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Rin's POV

I open my eyes to find Sesshoumaru-sama watching me from the bank of the river that feeds the waterfall. As ever, his face remains an expressionless mask that I've tried numerous times to remove. I knew that my moans would eventually draw him to me. I close my eyes as I feel a serpent of fire coiling in my stomach, tighter and tighter. My Lord Sesshoumaru just continues to stand there watching me, I know because I can always feel his presence when he is near me. I can't bare him just viewing my pleasure. I want him to be part of it; no, I want him to be all of it. Again I open my eyes to see him turning away from me. I cannot let him leave. Anything but that. I want him, I need him. He can't leave me now. I plunge my fingers into my depths harder and faster, causing the serpent of fire in my abdomen to coil ever tighter. When it seems that I will go insane, it explodes sending shivers of delight through every inch of my body and a scream of pleasure escapes my lips as my eyes roll into the back of my head. The wave of fire from my body clashes with the cold as I feel myself slipping off of the boulder into the cool clear blue water. This wasn't part of the plan, but it works well enough. I feel myself being lifted out of the water by a pair of powerful arms (Lord Sesshoumaru having reclaimed his left arm from his father's grave where it was discarded) and the warmth of another naked body against my own. My Sesshoumaru-sama carries me out of the water and I open my eyes to discover his mirroring my gaze, only his expression is void of any feeling whatsoever.

Sesshoumaru's POV

Her eyes open and she stares into my own. All of her emotions shine from them like a beacon and the silent plea in her gaze is almost overwhelming. If they were a sea, I'd be drowning in her gaze. Why can't she understand that I cannot do this to her? She is still a child. Yes, she has grown, that I'll admit, but she is still a child nonetheless. Staring at her, I realize how much she has grown. Perhaps she has become a young lady, but I cannot see her as anything other than that. Rin-chan is not a woman, she will be soon, but until then she is still a girl. A very lustful, horny and enticing one, but still a girl nonetheless, and a human one at that. Even for a human though, she has succeeded in catching my attention and causing me to have an erection. Her body alone is quite alluring and her personality is just as charming. My Rin is a special girl. Beauty seems to radiate from her. She is glorious and part of me longs to have her as my own. I can't stop the feral growl that escapes my lips as she stares up at me longingly. The tightening of my loin intensifies once more and I feel my youki raising. This Sesshoumaru must not lose control. I must stop this at once. I put her in the grass and begin to walk away when I hear her whimper and smell the tears beginning to form in her eyes.

Rin's POV

Right when I think I've got him, he goes and does something like this. Can't he see that I need him? Why won't he admit that he wants me as well? I could feel his hard erection against me as he held me in his arms. All I want is for him to love me and to have him inside me. How could he do this to me? I feel the hot tears forming in my eyes as he turns from me and begins to walk away. I call out to him with as much control over my voice as I can gather.

"Sesshoumaru-sama," I cry, "Please . . . don't go . . . don't leave me. I need you."

He turns around once more and looks at me. I cannot bare to face him with these pitiful tears running down my cheeks. I don't want him to do this out of pity, but the tears will not cease. When I finally look up at him, he is staring at me. The expression on his face clearly telling me that he is deep in thought.

"I need you," I repeated in hopes of getting him to understand, begging him, "Please Sesshoumaru-sama, take me. I wish to have you and only you."

His gaze met my own once more; in his eyes the tiniest flicker of worry and true concern for me that I think I probably imagined it as he answered my pleas. "Are you absolutely sure that this is what you desire? Once it is done it may never be taken back. Do you truly want this Sesshoumaru here and now?"

"I need you" was all I needed to say as I looked up at him determination and need shining from my eyes. As he scooped me up in his arms I could feel him pressed against me and I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist.

"You're sure?" he asked once more.

I pushed against him trying to get him inside of me as a response. As if by instinct he gently thrust into me and I buried my face in his chest to allay the tears suddenly produced by the wake of pain it had caused. I quiver inside, my virginity being taken by the only man I would ever willing give it to. He rests inside me, waiting for me to get used to him, but I've waited too long for this and don't want to waste any time. I buck my hips up to him showing him the urgent need that is coursing through my body. He immediately responds thrusting himself deeper into me. As I grow more used to him, he thrusts faster and harder. At this point I'm screaming with the pleasure of him. My Sesshoumaru-sama's pleasure is growing as well, though it is hard to tell as he is still wearing that cold expressionless mask, showing no emotion towards me whatsoever. The serpent of fire is stirring in the pit of my stomach once more making me buck against him more wildly in desperate urgency and need. I know that he is close to his release as well.

Sesshoumaru's POV

She is gripping my shoulders for dear life, her fingernails digging into my flesh as my claws draw blood from her hips. She is near her climax, her orgasm. I can already feel her tightening around me. Her screams and scent are intoxicating to my youkia blood and heighten every sensation I feel with her. My own release is near. I thrust into her once more and she climaxes. The wetness and heat cause my own and I find myself coming inside of her. We ride through our mutual climax and she collapses against me. Her body is covered in our sweat and her hips have trickles of blood running down them. My shoulders are bleeding from where her nails bit into my skin, but I feel no pain from the wounds. To be honest they are practically healed. I pick her up and carry her into the water once more.

Rin's POV

I feel cool water around me arousing me from the nearly unconscious state that I was momentarily experiencing. I open my eyes and look up at my Lord. As always, his face is unreadable. He lays me down on the rock where he had originally found me. He then walked away, put his clothes on, and left me by myself. My hot, slick body still pulses, throbs with the pleasure of him. I can't move yet, but I know that if I do I will lose this feeling. I don't want to, not yet. There is some pain, but the pleasure overwhelms it by a great margin. I lay there for what seems like hours, then finally I raise myself up on my elbows. I sit up just taking in the feelings my body is experiencing; the pleasure is fading and the pain is taking over fast. I lower my sweat soaked body into the cool clear water. The mixture of my heat and the cool water spikes my arousal again but I choose to ignore it. I bathe myself to make me decent for my Lord, as I cannot return to him looking as I did; my body slick with sweat, hair plastered to my body. I brush my hair out with the brush Sesshoumaru-sama bought for me. When I am finally satisfied, I put on my kimono and brush my hair one final time before I start to walk back to him. Walking hurts, I realize and I am very sore. I manage to hide how much pain I am in as I walk back to where he is. Jaken-sama is staring at me.

"GIRL! What have you done, seducing Sesshoumaru-sama in such a manner? It's not right and you should be ashamed of yourself. You are not some whore from the side of the road," he snaps at me glaring all the while.

Could it be true? Is what I did wrong?

"Jaken, be quiet. Rin has done nothing wrong," Sesshoumaru says his voice clear and calm, "And don't you dare compare her to such trash."

Jaken started, "Yes me-lord."

I move up and walk with Sesshoumaru-sama. I ask him, "My lord, do you truly feel nothing, or is it merely a charade, a mask you put on?"

"Rin, you already know the answer to that question, so why do you bother to ask this Sesshoumaru such a thing?"

"I am sorry Sesshoumaru-sama. I should not ask such foolish questions. Of course my lord has feelings, all beings do," I responded feeling silly. He has feelings, but does he have feelings for me? Does he love me as I love him? I have to know. I walked out in front of my lord and stop in front of him. He stops and looks down at me.

"What is it Rin?" he asks the slightest glow in his eyes so concealed, you would have to carefully look to notice it.

I can't do it. I can't ask him. . . . No, I have to. I gathered myself up and said, "Sesshoumaru-sama . . ."

Oh no... what is Rin doing, what's going to happen? Review and I will post more.