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Chapter 10: Remember me forever

AN: Thanks for all the reviews. Red eyes, you were right, the guy who plays Kwest was also in the movie "seventeen again." Anyways, read on!

"You do?" Tommy asked me.

"I think I do, love him I mean," I replied.

He looked down at the floor, disappointed. "But, Jude, what about us?"

I gave a sympathetic smile. "Tommy, there is no 'us'. You were right to break up with me, we don't belong together. I think that we are much better together as friends only, you know?"

"I guess…"

"We are."

"But what if…"

"What?"

"What if I love you? What if I care for you as much as you care for Kwest? That means that we can't always get what we want!"

"Tommy! You didn't want me, and trust me you don't now. But I love Kwest, and there is no changing that. I'm sorry."

"I guess, if I love you as much as I think I do, then I would want you to be happy, even if you're not with me."

"Thank you, Tommy." I gave him a hug before exiting G Major. I dialed Kwest's number on my cell and waited for his voicemail. "Hey, Kwest, I just wanted to talk to you. There's something that I wanted to tell you, and I don't feel like telling it to you in your voicemail. So I'm just going wait for your call. Alright, bye." I walked home. I missed him; he was always so sweet to me. He had tried to warn me about when Tommy was coming to get me, he knew me.

I entered my house quietly and walked up the stairs into my room. "Kwest doesn't want me with him, he probably doesn't want me around at all." I found a duffel bag under my bed and started filling it with clothes. I left my house, without leaving any indication of where I was going (not like I knew anyways).

As I walked towards the outskirts of the city, I took out my cell phone and called Kwest again. I waited for his voicemail again. "Kwest, it's Jude again. This is the last time I'm going to call for now. I'm still not going to say what is really important. There's something else I need to say. I just want you to remember me forever, no matter what happens. I guess this is good-bye. Thank you for everything, Kwest." I hung up the phone and continued towards the outskirts of the city.

Three hours later I had made it into the next town and I was busy trying to find some place to get a little something to eat. I didn't have much money so a bag of chips from a gas station would have to do.

After I had gotten my food, I checked my voice mail messages.

"Jude," one message started, "it's me, Kwest. I sat here for hours wondering if I should call you back, wondering if what you had to say was worthwhile. But then I heard your second message and I became confused, so I knew I had to call you, I had to know what you needed to say. Jude, I will always remember you, no matter what. But I'm still confused, why are you saying good-bye? Please, if you call, I will answer. Talk to you later, Jude."

I took the phone away from my ear. I stared down at it in my hand. Should I call him? Was it too late to tell him that I love him? I was miles away from home, and I was just supposed to call him up and tell him I have feelings for him? I don't think so. But, I had to say something. I had to call I back.

And with the press of a button, I was waiting for him to answer.

"Hello?" I heard him say.

I opened my mouth to say something but I couldn't speak.

"Hello?" He said again, impatiently.

"I- I…" I stammered.

"Jude? Is that you?"

And that's when I started crying. I have no idea why I cried, but tears started to fall from my eyes. "Yes, it's me."

"I'm not sure where to start: why you said good-bye or what you needed to tell me."

"I don't know where to start either, both are just as weird to me."

"Okay, how about what you needed to tell me since you sent me that message first."

"Tommy kissed me, the feeling wasn't mutual. That song I recorded was for you and when I chewed him out for being so stupid, something came out into the open."

"What was it?"

"I told Tommy that I love you."

"Um…"

"Look, I don't expect you to say anything. 'Cause it took me a while to even realize this for myself so I don't expect anything. Let's just get to the good-bye thing."

"Jude-"

"I left town."

"You did? Where are you?"

"I'm not even sure. I've been walking for three hours straight, so I'm definitely out of town."

"But why?"

"I guess I just felt I needed to leave, maybe clear my head. I don't know."

"So that's what the good-bye was for, you running away?"

"I don't know, Kwest! I just needed to get away!"

"What direction did you go? I'm going to get you!"

"No! Let me be!"

"Ju-" I hung up. I didn't know what I was thinking, calling him. I should've known that he wouldn't feel the same. I was so stupid.

AN: Kwest didn't get to say something that he really wanted to say. I wonder what it was… hmm. Anyways, R&R!