The rain… all I hear is the rain… Sanzo sat up. "Dammit…" he said softly. He glanced over at the unmoving lump in the other bed and sighed. It wasn't fair. Why could he sleep while Sanzo was being haunted by the demons of his past? Sanzo had half a mind to go and hit the monkey with his infamous paper fan of doom. Instead, he got up and left the room quietly.

Sanzo walked silently down the hall, the sound of the rain ringing in his ears, bringing unwanted memories back to the surface. He saw the window and went toward it. Seating himself there, he took out a cigarette and lit it. In a few moments, Goku was there with an ashtray that he set softly beside Sanzo. "What are you doing out of bed, saru?"

The young youkai looked back at him with those golden eyes and shifted uneasily. "Looking for you. I can't sleep…"he said softly.

Sanzo sighed inwardly. Baka "Why do you think you need to follow me? I don't need to be looked after. I'm not a child. Go back to bed." He flicked ash from the tip of his cigarette and looked back out the window.

Goku stepped forward. "if ya don't like the rain, then how come ya always go to the window and watch it? If I didn't like rain, I wouldn't watch."

Sanzo was mildly surprised at the monkey's audacity. "Well, it's a good thing that I'm not you, isn't it?" He was becoming irritated with the whole thing. He just wanted solitude.

"I just don't get why ya do this... Every time it rains, you stare out th' stupid window an' sulk! An' ya always get so mean!" He was getting bolder.

"It's none of your business, monkey!" Sanzo was quickly losing patience with the situation, and he gave his voice an edge that said, Don't go any further or you'll regret it.

"I think it is my business! You're my friend whether ya like it or not, an' I care 'bout ya, Sanzo! I don't like seein' ya like this! I just wanna help ya…" Amazing. He was actually begging.

Sanzo hated the begging. Sanzo felt a prick of regret, but shook it off quickly. Softly, he said, "If you want to help so bad, try going away."

"No! I'm not gonna go away! I'm gonna stay here with ya and keep ya company until the rain stops. "Kay, Sanzo?"

Sanzo gave in. "Whatever..." Its not like the baka gives me much of a choice... " Why do you do this?"

Goku looked confused. "Wha-"

"Why do you follow me every where like a lost dog? Why do you always have to be where I am? Why can't you just leave me alone? Why? Do you even know how irritating it is to be constantly seeing you? No matter where I turn, you're there! Can't I have any peace? Ever?" Sanzo took a deep breath. "Do you have to always be up my goddamn ass?"

Goku's eyes were wide and full of hurt at Sanzo's outburst. "Sanzo..." His eyes were filling with tears. "Why...Why do you hate me so much?"

Startlled by the question, Sanzo looked at Goku. Aw, shit... He realized he'd hurt him. The sorrow and regret threatened to suffocate him, but he fought it viciously back, putting his wall of indifference and cynicism upfor protection. " Go away."

Goku looked at him with those stricken golden eyes.

Sanzo felt something in him rebelling, wanting to say he was sorry, wanting to hug the saru and say he hadn't meant it, and he almost gave in, but he snapped instead, saying, "Go! Get out of my sight!"

Goku turned and ran. Sanzo heard the door slam, and something inside him splintered with the sound of the slamming door.