Fruits Basket Fanfic!
Disclaimer:-I don't own Furuba, nor any of its anime or manga rights! They are owned by FUNimation and Natsuki Takaya-Sensei!
A/N:-I just read Chapter 126 (well, I saw the scans! ) of Furuba yesterday, and decided to do a fic on my lovely Kyon-chan!
B.T.W. this issues cover of 'Hana to Yume' magazine had the most goergeous cover of…wait for it…KYO AND TOHRU IN WEDDING CLOTHES! Aaaaaaaaah! Sooooooo CUTE! Phweeeee! I so happy!
Ahem…hysterics over now, please review this lil' one-shot I did of Kyo's feelings at the end of the chapter!
Spoilers Ahead, so Beware!
'I'm sorry'-A Furuba Fanfic by Akari Kazuki!
'Know, I know. Saying it isn't enough.'
'It's not like you can hear me, can you? Or…maybe you can. Maybe my feelings will reach you, wherever you may be, Tohru. I…want to apologise. I'm so sorry for everything.'
I walk slowly, dejectedly, my thoughts blurred, and my mind hazy with the many memories. My feet half turn toward the hospital. I lose my nerve at the last second. I can't, won't, see you now.
'What in Hell's name would I say to her!' I question myself. I touch my cheek where a bruise is forming from that man's blow. That man, that bast-! My so-called…real 'father'
I learned something more about him today. He is a filthy, stinking coward. A liar.
'Mom,' I remember her, her light brown hair, her gentle voice. Even though she'd never once accepted or really saw me for what I really was, a mother is still…a mother. She went through Hell with that guy, every single day, and just…for me. And in the end, it killed her. Another life weighing down on my shoulders.
Tohru. How did you react to knowing it was me who'd caused your own mothers' death too? How could you just stand there silently and still insist that you-that you still cared for me. Loved me. How can anyone be so--?
I put my hands in my pockets. Withdraw them, Kisa's handerchief clutched in my right hand. I remember her innocence, so much like you, and her concerned eyes as she handed it to me before walking off with Hiro again.
I saw you, through her, Tohru. I…miss you. I can't come to you just yet. I'm not ready to forgive myself. When you told me to 'carry on walking' after you'd regained conciousness after falling from that cliff, I understood, but I still can't bring myself to act upon it. I'm not like you. I'm not made for such things.
Forgiveness. One word, yet it means so much. I want your forgiveness. I'm sorry, Tohru. I'm so sorry.
I'm…not worth your love. You deserve so much better than me, the one who caused you so much unhappiness. It's such a…disillusion. Why does this always happen…!
Why can't I get it together…! It's not that my feelings are gone. Far from it. In fact, I still love you, even more now than ever before. I do. I really do.
I really love you, Tohru, but…I just can't be with you. Not yet. I have to make myself into someone who is worthy of you. Worthy of your forgiveness.
Tohru, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. But…I still love you. I love you so much…
Fin.
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