Sick With Worry

Silver Dragon Youkai- I still don't know if I responded to these things…… thank you anyway!

Nekosune- Sorry! I couldn't find the book I had the next chapter written in. Well I finally found it, and hopefully the next chapter will contain more of the characters from the anime, this is the last pre-written chapter.

D-Chan: I'm gonna be busy updating this and Put it Where the Money's at, I still need to write the final chapter to DYL.

H-Chan: we are sincerely sorry for not updating sooner, instead of going on forever here's the story.

(Blaine's P.O.V)

I enter my apartment holding back the tears I know are coming. My tears immediately dry up as I see Cass sitting on the couch. She looks up and then stands "I'm sorry I don't mean to intrude, your roommate let me in, she said you'd been gone since early yesterday, but that, that wasn't unusual for you, she said I could wait here if I wanted, I'm sorry, should I leave?"

I shake my head "No, it's alright, did you get my present?" Cass nods smiling "It was a great present thank you, I forgave you along ago." I look at her with much hurt and sadness "That's not what I was apologizing for."

She looks confused. "Sit down," I say "and listen." She sits down. I fully enter the living room "The day of your birthday, I wasn't just there for your birthday." I look away "I gave you that present because you burned your copy right after they had the picture taken, I knew you've matured since then, do you know what I do for a living?"

She nods and smiles "You're the secretary of the vice-president of the Corswater Estates and Foundation." I snort and shake my head "I'm his bodyguard, I take out people involved in dirty dealings that there not comfortable with anymore, Cass, Cormac was my latest victim."

Cass' eyes widen. I sit across from her "that's why I'm sorry." I let the tears fall "You can hate me now if you want."

(Flash Back)

I duck out the door, running from the yells of Dooley. I let the tears run down my face as I run towards the church. I run past the park, the drug-store, through the Barlette's back yard, through another park. I throw open the doors of the church.

I let my hair cover my face as I cry. Father Liam looks up from reading the bible "Can I help you young Miss.? I shakily let out a breath "I have a confession father."

He smiles kindly "would it be better for you to speak in private?" I nod. He puts his hands on my shoulders and leads me to his bed room/office. I sniffle and sit on his bed "Father Liam?" "Yes child?" he asks as he pulls his chair from his desk to sit at.

I finally look up "I miss you father, and I know of your only mistake."

(End Flashback)

I let the tears flow freely as Cass tries to comfort me. "I've made a lot of mistakes I wish I hadn't, even if my trade is to do them, I killed people, innocent people, that's only mistake was…. was." I break down in her arms.

When I wake up, I see white walls, and smell ammonia. I lean over the side of the bed and begin to throw up. I sit up and wipe my mouth to see a doctor standing in the doorway with a chart.

"Why am I here?" I ask. He smiles reassuringly "You had an emotional breakdown, you worried yourself sick, and to top it all off, you have severe sleep deprivation, let me get someone to clean this up." He gets a custodian to clean it up "oh, and you have a Mr. Corswater and a Mr. Dooley here to see you." I sigh "Send them in." He blinks "together?" I nod "Together."

A few minutes later the fighting men walk into the room, still yelling at one another. My anger grows "Will you two just grow up already, it's your fault I'm sick, I hate you, I hate you both, all you'se want to do anymore is fight, you don't care how I'm doing, all you'se care about are your lame fights, I hate you I really do!" I scream in frustration.

I lean over my bed and throw up once again; soon I pass out falling from the bed and into the mess on the floor. (ewwwwwww……)

(Flash Back)

"What mistake child?" I wipe my tears away "A Father and a nun." I do a symbol of god "A love forbidden by god." I do a motion for death "A child born without gods praise, a mistake, I am your only mistake Father."

Father Liam raises an eyebrow "you?" I nod "Father, you are my real father, I was born of you and my mother Sister Calm, I'm Blaine, Dooley told me' I'm your child, a nun and a priests, a mistake against god and myself." I sneer.

"Why are you here?" Father Liam asks. I stand pulling out a small dagger. I wipe away the final tears on my face "I'm here to kill those who have sinned against god." I slam the dagger into his stomach and jerk it back.

I drop the dagger as he falls. I drop to my knees beside him, my eyes begin to tear but I hold them back. I lay my head on his chest; he brings a hand up running it through my hair, wheezing "I'm so sorry, my daughter, my only child, I loved you so dearly, but if it got out…"he breaks off into a fit of coughing, blood appears on his lips.

"I'm so sorry!" I cry into his chest. I finally stand picking up the dagger. Sister Colm walks in "what's going on here?" I look at her sadly "I'm sorry mother." I dive at her.

(End flashback)

I slowly open my eye's to hear Dooley and Jimmy fighting in harsh whispers, I begin to outright sob. I cry myself back to sleep. When I wake up from that I see the doctor. "I took the chance to send those two men away; they were doing more harm then good."

I try to speak but can't my throat constricting and feeling like sand was poured down it. The Doctor sits me up and helps me drink a glass of water. "I figured it would help for them to realize what this is doing to me, but it only seems to make things worse."

The Doctor nods "Do you not want them to visit anymore?" I nod. The Doctor writes something down on his clip board. "What's your name?" I ask. He smiles "Irvine. (Irvine means Handsome in Irish.)" I smile back "I know you know it already, but I'm Blaine." Irvine nods "Nice to meet you Blaine." A doctor walks in and sneers "Stay away from my patient, any patient of yours usually ends up dead."

I laugh bitterly "Looks like we have something in common." The other man scowls "Good morning Miss. Blaine, I have a few questions for you, what's your last name?" He looks down at his clip board, ready to fill it out. "I don't have one." He looks up "Alright, parent's names?" I roll my eye's "Dead, I'm an orphan you idiot."

He looks surprised, and begins to write "Oh, um how old are you, and when is your birthday?" "I'm 16, my birthday is December 16th." "Any living relatives, adoptive parents?" "No and yes." "Well, who are they?" "I haven't seen them in four years because I ran away, but Piran, my adoptive mother, and Cass her daughter know I'm alive, but Cormac the father, was killed recently."

The doctor nods and writes this all down "I'll give them a call then." "They already know, Cass is the one who brought me in, we just recently… heh today, got in touch." The doctor nods "Well I'm Doctor Doherty." (Means Harmful in Irish.) I shrug "So?" He flushes "I will be your doctor who checks in on you."

I sigh "Whatever." He flushes even more with anger and quickly leaves. Irvine snickers knowing that, that was my intention all along. He soon leaves. A nurse comes in about thirty minutes later "You have a visitor, they're not on your visitor chart but they're not those two men from earlier." I nod my approval. She sends them in. All I see is a flash of orange and gold before I pass out once again.