The Letter of True Feelings
Disclaimer: I do not own a Separate Peace or the characters (not that I would really want to mind you).
Okay, for a class project we had to write a letter to either Finny or Gene explaining their true feelings and what the wish to say. I was Finny (I'll write a Gene one later) and if I were him this is what I would want to say.
Dear Gene,
This is the war I have with you. I like you. I really do, but you seem so distant from me. You don't seem like you want to be close with me, to be friends with me. I try to show you a good time, but it always seems like you're pushing me away for studies. Like they are more important to you than me. What am I doing wrong? Why do you hate me so? Am I a bad person for you? Should I vanish? How can I change? Tell me! For once in your life open up and talk to me! Express to me your true feelings! I promise you, you won't regret it. You just don't seem to want to open up to me.
I spend some nights looking out my window and making a wish on the first star I see. And the wish is always the same, but it still hasn't come true. I wish you would actually warm up to me, trust me! I may do dangerous and outrageous things, but that's to get your attention. I just wish we could do things together more often, but you seem afraid. What is there to be afraid of? Your not afraid of me are you? Nah, it couldn't be. You're my best friend, there's nothing to be afraid about. But if you are I want you to know this. No matter what situations I put you in, even if it seems bad, I would never put you in harms way. I care about you too much to lose you. Always remember that. But that still does not excuse the fact that you don't trust me! Remember the time you were falling from that tree next to the lake. Do you remember who saved you? I did. You might have ended up just like me, with a bummed leg and unable to do the things you want to do anymore. But it could have turned for the worse. You could have died, and I would have been very emotional if that happened. You are my best pal, my closets friends. Remember that also, we are friends. I will always care about you. Do you think I would have saved you from that tree if we weren't? What am I kidding? I'm lying to myself. I still would have saved you, because I would have still cared. But still I cannot emphasize this question enough. Why don't you trust me?
Maybe I'm being too selfish. I know I must change to get you to feel the same way about me as I do. I want to make a pack. If I do all these things, I hope you will trust me more. I will be more careful and not do as many wild and crazy things. I'll give you space for you to study, but don't think I will stand by and let you live that boring style you are so accustomed to. I will show you a whole new world with adventure you could never accomplish by yourself behind a book. I'm sorry if I am coming off a bit strong, but this is how I feel. I hope you will read this and understand my true feelings for and that you will accept this agreement. Hope to see you tomorrow and I will wait for all of eternity to end to hear your answer about me.
Love always,
Your true friend Finny