Mel looked like she was gonna faint so Wyatt gave her a chair. Mel sat down, but she couldn't take her eyes of the diary. "What does it say?" Piper asked, panicking. Could there actually be something more horrible than what she just heard?
Mel took a deep breath. "8.10.2020. Dear Diary. Oh God… oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God… Jason died today… In a car accident. His mother said when she called to tell me that he was driving too fast and he just didn't see that the bridge had been closed… How can someone not see that a bridge has been closed even if they are angry? But the worst part is that I know why he was angry… Oh yeah, I do. He wanted to keep the baby. But I didn't. So yesterday I went to the hospital and did it, the abortion. I can't give a birth twice before I'm seventeen! But I couldn't tell that to Jason so he just snapped. He left with his car calling me with names I won't write in here.
So that's it, I killed Jason. And according to him, I killed our baby, too. But I did the right thing. The baby's life would've been like hell… I'm not okay, I really am not. So if you ask me, stopping the pregnancy now was the better thing than to let the child be born harmed by alcohol. But my decision caused Jason his life! So was it worth it? No, it wasn't. I should've known better, I should've talked with him! But I didn't, I took the matters to my own hands. And because of that Jason will meet his son or daughter in heaven. Or at least I hope so, I don't believe in that stuff anymore. God, how am I suppose to live with my self!"
Mel dropped the book. Her breathing was fast and tears fell down on her face. Leo picked the book up and read it, as if he wanted to make sure that Mel was reading right. "She thinks she killed him… That's why she's so sure we wouldn't love him if we knew", he said. "Oh my Gosh… Oh, honey!" Piper felled to her knees next to Ashley's bed. "It wasn't your fault! How could've you known? You didn't do anything wrong, sweetheart, we love you! We all love you, just please, wake up!"
Everyone gathered around Ashley. "Are you sure she can hear us?" Chris asked with a broken voice. "No…" Piper admitted. "But she has to! We have to wake her up!" "Maybe we can use the spell that we used to get into your mind when you were captured by the source. That way we could go and tell her that we love her", Paige suggested. Wyatt and Chris looked from their mother to Paige, quite confused. "Leo, would that work?" Piper asked. "Maybe… But it's dangerous, if she dies…" "She won't die!" "If she dies", Leo continued. "Then everything in her mind will die, too. Including the ones that go in."
Everyone looked at Leo and somehow they all knew what he was gonna say next. "So that means that I have to go. No, listen to me!" he said, when Piper opened her mouth. "I can't die in there, I'm already dead! And I'm not only her dad, I'm also her whitelighter. She'll listen to me. Just go find the spell!"
Piper looked like she hadn't got her final word, but orbed to the attic with Paige. There she aloud herself to fall to the floor and cry. How, how, how did it come to this?
Ashley watched as her little bit younger self disappeared to a bedroom with a boy. She was drunk. So was the boy, Jason. But no one cared, no one noticed. It was a party, for God's sake, everyone was drunk. Why should they stop Jason and Ashley from having some pleasure that they wouldn't remember in the morning? But they had no idea how well Ashley still remembered this day.
"Ashley?" Ashley turned around. "Dad? What… how?" "We know, Ashley. We know everything! We know about the baby in France, we know about the abortion. And no, we didn't stop loving you!" Ashley closed her eyes and few tears dropped to her cheeks. "He's lying!" Devil said. "He's lying…" "You're lying", Ashley whispered. "No, honey, I'm not! Everyone is so worried about you! Your mom, Chris, Wyatt, Mel, Lisa, Nick, Paige and Richard! They all want you to wake up, I want you to wake up! We want to help!"
"But not your aunt Phoebe. She made you an easy target, she started all this! And that is only the beginning." Ashley shook her head. Her eyes were still closed, and she didn't see how her surroundings suddenly changed. They stood in Memorial hospital. Younger Ashley came out of a hospital room, closely followed by a doctor. "You should rest for a couple of days", the doctor said. Ashley nodded. "Thank you…" "You're welcome, dear."
Leo turned Ashley to face him. "Open your eyes, Ashley", he said gently. Ashley hesitated, but then slowly opened her eyes. "I love you! We all love you! Phoebe loves you, she was just angry and crossed the line. Come back to us! Please, we just want to help." Ashley didn't even noticed the smile that appeared to her face. She felt warmer than she had in two years.
"NO! This is not over!" Devil yelled and changed the place again. Ashley was forced to watch as Jason's car fell from the bridge and exploded. She screamed. It was even more horrible than she had imagined. Leo wrapped his arms around her. "It wasn't your fault, Ashley! You couldn't know. It wasn't your fault!" Ashley buried her head in Leo's chest and cried. She cried harder than ever in her whole entire life. "That's it, sweetie. Let it all out…"