Chapter 3

2 months had passed and still my dad was still in hospital. My mum had been around more and more, but she was so sad about the whole situation. Meanwhile, my friendship with Syaoran has gone back on track and Ryu and me had an amazing relationship. He just told me that he loved me a couple of days ago when we were on a date. I don't know how I felt about him though, well I did like him, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to say the four letter word yet to him.

Syaoran tried out in the soccer team as one of the players got kicked out for having marijuana at school, which was against the rule. Syaoran eventually got in and it was allright for me now that Ryu and Syaoran was in the same team. I always thought that they got along, but I guessed wrong, but to prevent anything from getting bad, they stayed away from each other. Ryu got to be captain of the team and I was happy for him, but inside me I always got jealous because he was always surrounded by popular girls.

I was doing great at school and everything was allright. It was around April now and yesterday I realized that I lost 10 kilos from the beginning of this year. I was happy for myself. During lunch I was sitting with Syaoran and I could see Ryu with his other friends talking, laughing and goofing around. I could hear Syaoran saying to me 'You want to go out and watch that new Date Movie?', but I wasn't listening to him properly. I was watching Ryu and the girl next to him and she looked like she was flirting, that girls name was Oki, she was a cheerleader. I looked at Syaoran and he asked me 'What's wrong?'

'I hate Ryu having to be in the soccer team, he's always surrounded by those slutty girls', he laughed and I looked at Syaoran .

'Come on Sakura its not like he doesn't get jealous when I'm around you or when your surrounded by gorgeous guys', he was right, in my Math class I was always surrounded by hot guys but Ryu just never said anything about it, he was always quiet about those stuff. I stood up and he asked 'Where are you going?'

'I just need to go to the toilet', he stood up and looked at me and asked 'Are you sure you're allright?'

'Yeah I'm just, I'm fine', I started walking towards the girls bathroom, and I looked at myself. I asked myself 'What if I'm not good enough for him? He's always surrounded with those gorgeous girls? What if he's playing me, god I look like a fool', I saw someone come in the bathroom and it was Oki and she gave me a dirty as she started putting on more eyeliner. I walked out of there getting pissed at myself. Then I thought to myself 'What am I doing? I promised myself I wouldn't do this? Remember Sakura you don't care about what anyone says' Then I saw Ryu walking to me so I started walking to my lockers and he jogged after me.

'What's wrong? Have I done anything wrong?', that was the first couple of questions he asked me when he catched up with me.

'You've done nothing wrong'

'Tell me why your angry at me', he faced me then he knew what I was feeling 'Nothing is going on between me and Oki'

'What makes you ask that question?'

'I saw you looking at Oki and me at the corner of my eye. You can trust me, nothing happened'

'Okay', I felt him hug him and I hugged him back weakly, then I unconsciously asked 'Can you come to my place tonight, no-one's home?'

'Okay, what time?'

'Anytime', he knew what she might be planning and he was wondering why she was rushing all this. He was glad to wait because he wanted the moment to be special for both of them.

He tried making an excuse to get out of it 'I actually am going to a show with my parents Sakura, I'm sorry'

'Okay, I have to go'

'Allright, I'll see you after school', kissing her passionately before letting her leave.

That night I was alone in the house. My mum had stayed in the hospital and my sister was at camp and I had nothing to do. I already ate dinner but I was yearning for something to do, so I just watched the TV. It was thundering outside so I got the chimney to work and it was warm in the room and it gave this perfect lighting. Suddenly my doorbell rang and I went to the door and I saw Ryu who was dripping wet from the rain and he said 'I changed my mind'

I smiled at him since he looked to adorable wet 'Come in, I don't want you to get sick now'

He came in and he asked 'Have you got any dry clothes?'

'Uh yeah upstairs, just sit by the fire I'll be back'

'Okay'

I went upstairs trying to find some dry clothes for Ryu and when I went downstairs I saw him, he looked sexy by the fire, I sat next to him and gave him the clothes, but when he looked at me, I knew something was going to happen that night. He kissed me passionately but there was something about that kiss, it was different, then he got on top of me and we started making out right there. I was nervous about this, then he started unbuttoning my shirt revealing my breasts, then I said to him 'Take your clothes off, its wet'

So he did and he started taking off his shirt, his pants and left his boxers on, then he started kissing me by the neck and I thought to myself 'I don't want this to hurt', then I closed my eyes and he stopped, we were finally naked under that blanket that we were both in.

'Are you sure you want to go through with this Sakura, I don't want to do anything you don't want to do?'

'Yeah, and wait use a condom'

'Okay', he got one out of his wallet and went back under the blanket, put it on quickly and he was entering me and I groaned in pain and he stopped.

'Maybe I should be at the top?'

'Okay', he moved me up and I was on top of him now and I slowly entered him, and when I fully did I closed my eyes shut. It was so painful, then we swapped places then he started thrusting, slowly the pain started going away and I was starting to enjoy my time with him.

The next morning, I found myself in his arms and he was still asleep. I made the slightest move and that woke him up, he asked me 'You allright?'

'I just woke up, don't you have to go somewhere today?', I was wondering because it was Saturday and he usually has soccer practice.

'No not today, are you parents going to be home soon, I don't want to get stuck in an awkward moment?'

'No your safe, so was last night good?'

'It was great, really it was'

'I'm glad', he stood up and quickly got changed and I watched him. He had a nice cute butt.

'You know we're suppose to be going out today, so if you don't want to go anymore I'm fine with it'

I stood up enthusiastically and said 'Just wait I need to take a quick shower', then someone knocked on the door and I got worried, I whispered to Ryu 'Hide in the closet in case its my mum'

He quickly ran there and I quickly cleaned up the things on the floor, then I opened the door. It was Syaoran , 'Syaoran what are you doing here?'

'We were suppose to watch a movie remember?', coming in the house and something felt different 'Is anyone else here?'

'Ryu you can come out', then he came out of the closet 'Syaoran I forgot about that'

'Its allright we can go next Thursday if you want?'

'No I made you a promise we can go, so we're going Syaoran . Ryu you wouldn't mind right, I promised Syaoran ?'

Ryu looked at me weirdly before answering me 'Yeah its fine, besides we can go out tomorrow afternoon, remember the wedding?'

'Okay, I'll see you around', he kissed me passionately in front of Syaoran and when he left I just stood next to Syaoran .

'Did anything happen?'

'What do you mean?'

'If you guys had sex or anything?'

'Why would you want to know that?'

'Because he stayed over Sakura, you just don't invite people like that'

'He's the one that came over, lets just go'

While we were walking around Blacktown, I now felt weird around him. He was always annoying me about it. Its like he can't mind his own business. Then he finally said to me 'Okay I'll butt out of it Sakura, but I'm just worried about you, what if you get pregnant? Or if your parents find out, you know they're full against it?'

'I won't get pregnant we used protection'

'Sakura girls like you get pregnant for all reasons, I just want to take care of you'

'Don't worry about me'

'I worry about you because you're my friend and imagine if something bad happens to you, I just can't take it'

We watched a movie together and it was actually good I liked it. Today it was April 18, it felt like the year was going really slowly this year, but that's just me. I didn't know that the afternoon wouldn't go so well. Syaoran had to tell me something. He looked at me while we were eating lunch.

'I have something really important to tell you'

'What is it?'

'I'm moving', I could see that he was waiting for me to react.

'What? What do you mean your moving?'

'My dad got accepted in his dream job and we're moving'

'Why?' I was shocked by all this 'Why do you have to go, why can't you stay?'

'Sakura you know my dad, when he makes up his mind, its hard to change so please don't make this any harder'

'Why, you know your better than this Syaoran , what about what you want?'

'I don't want to go but there's nothing I can do about it'

'You can stay at my house, I just don't want you to go'

'I can't Sakura, I'll visit you some time I promise'

'When are you going?', I wanted to know, what if he was leaving tomorrow, I couldn't take that.

'In a month, my dad just told me yesterday and I knew I had to tell you'. I looked at him. I was really hurt about this 'I'm so sorry, but I wanted you to know'

'Its not your fault, where are you going?'

'Back to Japan, my dad wants to you know … learn there and his job is there'

'Are you sure that's all?'

'I'm sure, you know I would never keep anything from you', he looked into my eyes as if he was about to say something but he stopped.

'Syaoran I have to visit my dad this afternoon, can you come with me?'

'Yeah sure', he looked at me and he picked up all the rubbish and threw it away. I felt weird, as if I desperately didn't want him to go, but there was nothing I could do now. He was right about what he said earlier. When his dad makes up his mind, its hard to change. So I stayed quiet thinking of some ways to spend the rest of the month with him.