Chapter 5

Today was the funeral for my father. I was now dressed in black to go to the funeral. It was going to be in Tokyo, St. Patrick's Church. I looked at myself. It had been a week ever since this happened, and I stopped eating, and I was now in normal weight. I had lost 10 kilos overall.

The other night when I went in my sister's room, I found pills in her drawer and they looked like one of those dangerous pills that you find in clubs.

Now I was going downstairs and I was going with Syaoran . I was glad he was my friend and I loved him to death because he was always there for me. While my dad was about to get buried, I was in the front row. I watched the coffin and I stared at it. I know soon enough that the will was going to be read. Mr. and Mrs. Li was also there with my mum, they had been so supported of my mother, while my sister was there. My mother found out that my sister had a boyfriend and forced her to break it off. Now the three women of the Kinomoto were crying, for the loss of our dear father.

After the funeral, people were at our house and I was in my bedroom. Syaoran knocked on my bedroom door, and he asked me 'Are you doing allright?'

He came in and closed the door behind him and I said 'No not really', he sat next to me and smiled.

'Sakura, I just want to remind you that I can't stay for long in Australia, I'm leaving in 2 weeks'

'I know and I don't want you to', I hugged him and I looked up at him, we were so close to each other. He slowly bent his head and kissed me passionately. We stayed in a lip lock for a while until I moved away and I stood up 'I don't know why I did that'.

'It was my fault', but I turned around and kissed him and he kissed me back with so much feelings, passion. Then one thing led to another. He was so different from Ryu because when they made love together, there was so much passion in it and he made sure he wasn't hurting me, I eventually slept through the afternoon and a couple of hours later I found myself naked under a layer or silk bed sheet. There was a note in my side table.

I'm sorry I couldn't stay long but I needed to go. I need to start packing up my things so I guess I'll see you around. I hope you get better with this situation and give me a call if you need to talk. I heard about what happened with you and Ryu and I'm so sorry.

I was upset that he didn't even mentioned what just happened. But who could blame him, none of us expected it coming. I mean he was my best friend. I've known him for such a long while now, and us sleeping together would change a lot.

I didn't feel awkward around him anymore, but I only had a week to spend the rest of our time together. We promised each other that we would never talk about what happened and try to forget it. My relationship with Ryu was starting to get better because we were trying to solve things out, but I would never ever in the world tell him that I slept with Syaoran because he would never talk to me. Ryu came to me one PE class begging me back, but I didn't know what to say.

I was just getting out of the girls locker rooms and I heard someone calling out my name, so I turned around and saw Ryu running towards me 'Ryu I told you that we're on a break'

'I know but Sakura, I want you back, I'll do anything', he was so close to me and I took a step back.

'Ryu, you don't have to do anything. I've made up my mind. We can get back together'

'Really?', he sounded so excited and shocked.

'Yes', I smiled at him, then he lifted me up and swirled me around 'Wait, but Syaoran 's leaving in a week, try and be nice to him, I might not see him for years'

'Okay I understand', he bent his head and kissed me. We spent that afternoon together, and since it was Thursday we watched a movie and I cuddled up to him. I could tell that he missed me so much.

2 days before Syaoran was going to leave for Japan, I was spending the whole day with him. I really didn't want him to leave because I had this weird feeling inside of me that I wanted him to stay with me forever. But I couldn't have everything I wanted in life. I knocked on his door and Kin answered the door and said 'Sakura its good to see you, Syaoran is just changing upstairs, he had a class today, so yeah'

'Okay, I'll just wait outside?'

'Yeah come in, can I get you a drink?'

'No thanks', I sat down in the kitchen and most of their stuff was gone because they were leaving in two days. 'I don't want to be nosy, but when do you think you can come back?'

'I don't know probably a couple of months because we have to settle in and Syaoran has to settle in with the school'

Syaoran entered the room and he kissed me in the cheeks and asked 'You ready to go?', I stood up and I followed him out of the door.

We were so happy together just watching an IMAX show. He got me in a boat and I wasn't so scared anymore since Ryu helped me with the weakness. I looked at him, things were going to be different when he was gone and I really wasn't going to have anyone to talk me through anything. He snapped me out of my thoughts by asking me 'Will you write back to me if I write to you?'

'Yeah definitely I would do anything to communicate with you', our hands accidentally touched each others and he looked at me. His eyes were so pretty.

'I wish I could tell you everything Sakura', he stood up and I followed behind him.

'What do you mean?'

'I haven't been telling you why I'm leaving, I could stay here with you but I decided to go on with it'.

'Tell me what you are talking about'

'You'll find out in a couple of days Sakura, trust me'

'Syaoran I want to know now'

'I'm sorry'.

Today was the day Syaoran was leaving for Japan and he was leaving early this morning. I decided to visit him, but I was too late. I cried as I saw the plane go away. I thought that was the plane, but I heard his voice behind me 'Sakura, what are you doing here?'

'I came to say goodbye', he smiled at me and walked towards me and I jumped on him.

'I wish you didn't because it would be easier', I started crying, then he wiped away my tears 'You know I'll always visit you when I can'

'But that could be never'

'Trust me, I promise to visit you', I pulled away from the hug since he had to go now. I waved at him as he looked at me one last time.