This chapter will kind of clear up some space so I can get a great chapter on Guardian and Darkness's journey next chapter. Hope you enjoy this chapter, but remember this is just to make the next one amazing.

Chapter 4: Confessions of a Bat, a Father, and a Lover

Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans or anything else in this story

WATCHTOWER

"Let. Me. Go. Now," Raven demanded in her trademark cold way. Not showing the panic attack beginning to take hold of her. Attacks that had begun all those years ago in Titans Tower.

"Raven, please, just put this on your head so I can do an experiment, it won't hurt you or the baby, trust me," Batman told her softly, but his grip tightened.

"No Batman, I don't know what this machine does but I know it has something to do with what I have been sensing around the Watchtower, this machine has an aura of darkness, of evil around it," Raven declared.

"Raven, why can't you trust me? Who was it that helped you investigate Dick Grayson's death? Who was it that found Slade's journal and found out the truth? Who was it that helped you make your peace with that man?" Batman questioned her.

"Don't you dare play that game with me!" Raven snapped in anger, something she wasn't known to do. "Who was it that got you a spot on the Titans? Who was it that kept you on the team after you got drunk that one night? Who allowed Christine in the Tower? If I don't recall Cyborg wanted to drop you, Beast Boy could have cared less, and Starfire wanted you to die," Raven continued coldly. Bringing up Christine always brought bad memories to Batman and was always a touchy subject. The woman who Darkness was named after.

"I thanked you by helping you and how was letting Christine stay in the Tower a good thing you did for me? She died, she died with a child, she died with my child and a happy future I will never have," Batman said sadly.

"Are you saying you haven't moved on? Are you saying you still love her full heartedly despite the fact you are married?" Raven asked him harshly. Starfire had often come to Raven telling her how she felt Batman was distant, not really loving her or his children as completely as he should, how he seemed to be feeling guilty. Starfire always would say it was because Batman never wanted Starfire, he only wanted Christine and he just married her because they were the only two Titans that had anything in common. Raven would shrug it off and tell Star it was his personality and she was just being jealous. Now she saw for herself how right Star was.

Tears escaped Batman's eyes, he was finally going to say it, to let it out, "Yes I love her. I love Christine, I always think about what life would be like if that bastard hadn't killed her, if she were still alive. I love Star too, but not in the same way, God forgive me," Batman said as he wiped away some tears.

"Why can't you move on?" Raven asked him, "And why haven't you ever mentioned this ever?" Raven asked.

"You can never understand the guilt, but, back to business," Batman said as he moved closer.

"Please stop this! You could hurt the baby!" Raven yelled, the panic attack finally took full control.

After a quick struggle the machine was put on Raven's head, after five minutes of erasing her memories of sensing darkness in the Watchtower, of being suspicious of Cyborg and Batman, and finally he erased her memories of the conversation they just had, and of course the machine.

"Raven?" he asked her.

"Huh? Oh sorry, must have spaced out. Why did you call me here?" she asked her voice calm and serious.

"I have some questions on the recent mission you were involved with…" Batman started the conversation, thinking, "It works," with both fear and excitement.

TITANS TOWER

Robin was patrolling the hallways when suddenly the Titans security system began beeping. Robin rushed to the nearest computer to hit the general alarm. Around the Tower all the Titans, minus Guardian and Darkness began preparing for an attack. Kid Flash also wasn't there; he was at the library doing some research.

"Security is never supposed to be breached, Cyborg promised us that," Robin thought as he pulled on his mask, the intruder was apparently everywhere at once, the red dot appearing all over the Tower.

Suddenly, Robin felt something and turned around and was confronted by none other than the Flash.

"Dang, don't you guys have a front door? I had to run around this place like a hundred times before I got in," Flash complained with a cocky grin.

Robin sighed in relief, as did the other Titans who had rushed the room expecting a battle. "So, are you here for Kid Flash?" Robin asked the typically laid back speedster.

"Yeah, actually I am looking for him, where is he?" Flash asked, hiding his anxiety.

"He went to the library, is something going on?" Robin asked after answering the question.

"No, nothings going on, why do you ask?" Flash asked.

"Ever since we had a mission against Jinx he hasn't been the same, a lot more determined to find answers on something," Robin expressed his concern on the speedster's son.

"I don't know what how a mission regarding Jinx could hurt him, but I will find out. I have to ask him something which is why I am here," Flash added. "Thanks for the info, and if you need any help, just call the Justice League!" Flash said as he left the Tower to the library full speed.

JUMP CITY PUBLIC LIBRARY

The library was almost completely empty, not many people went there anymore, people had more important things to worry about. Also the library hadn't gotten a new book in five years; its computers were also very outdated. The only thing updated in the library was its newspaper articles and its organization.

Kid Flash had been searching through all the newspaper articles on his father, Flash, and Jinx.

Suddenly a red whirlwind flew right in front of Kid Flash who had just read every single newspaper made from two years before his own birth, till two years after his birth. He had finished reading every article of every newspaper in California for four years in less than half an hour.

"Hey kiddo," Flash said with a nervous grin, not sure what his son had been researching.

"Hey Dad, I have something to ask you," Kid Flash said through gritted teeth.

"And what is that?" asked Flash.

"Who the hell is my mother?" Kid Flash asked straight out.

"I can't tell you that, not after I explain something to you," Flash said.

"Wrong answer Kid Flash responded as he flew out of the library full speed, with a stack of papers in his hands.

"Damn it," Flash said as he chased after his son, losing sight of him three blocks down, "Damn," he said again, lost.

"Hey it's Flash!" came a cry from a pedestrian.

Flash gave the pedestrian his trademark smile, waved then went on his way. He rushed to an alley and was confronted by a set of eyes he thought he would never see again. Pink eyes, a strange color that had intoxicated the hero all those years ago. "Jinx, I want you to stay away from the boy," Flash quickly pulled himself together and made his demand.

"So she is my mother," Kid Flash's voice came as he took off the black cloak he had used to hide himself and his face as he looked at his father with his natural eye color.

Flash backed up in surprise at how he was tricked. "Listen," he began.

"Save it, you have been lying to me for so long I don't think I will believe what you have to say now. Are you ashamed of me? Is that why you changed my eye color? My hair color? Was I a mistake? Was I a shame for you, a symbol of how you succumbed to a villain?" Kid Flash began demanding as he stepped forward.

"No, I wasn't ashamed of you son, I was never ashamed of you. I was ashamed of myself, ashamed that I never changed her, ashamed that I lost her. Your eyes, your hair, reminded me so much of her, I couldn't live with myself, which is why I raised you as a hero, as a symbol of success," Flash tried to explain.

"So why did you use her? Why did you? You said you wanted to change her but instead you slept with her, gave her a baby, and then took me from her, how was that trying to change her? You probably made her even more bitter," Kid Flash pointedly stated.

"You see, I was a very wild teenager. I was eighteen, young, handsome, invincible. Being super fast meant I could go to all the party cities around the world, I can't even count how many dates I had, how many girls I got simply by mentioning my name and showing off," Flash began explaining. He paused then.

"What? Nothing else, you didn't even answer my question at all, why her?" Kid Flash demanded from his father.

"Jinx, she was a girl I had known for several years, a villain I always tried to reach. I never was able to, but I would always try. Anyways, that night, I was in Jump City, at a club, as usual, when I spotted her. She was wearing this very beautiful dress, her hair well made, and she actually seemed happy to see me. So, we, we had a bit too much to drink and too much other stuff. If you catch my drift, and I, no, we lost control to raw human emotions," Flash tried to explain.

"You drank and you did drugs?" Kid Flash asked in disgust.

Flash turned away, "I was going through a phase, a time when I was being pressured to take my mentors mantle, and a time where I wanted to be a kid. I was invincible, drugs and alcohol hurts normal people, but I felt I was a God, a superhero, drugs and alcohol couldn't hurt me. But you know what, it did," Flash said sadly.

"Why? Why didn't you ever tell me?" Kid Flash demanded. In a dark alley, in the darkest city on earth, a son was getting answers from a now shamed father.

FOURTEEN YEARS EARLIER

"Midnight, party never stops until the morning light!" yelled the club owner to his esteemed guest. The speedster known as Kid Flash.

Kid Flash just smiled as he entered the club, the atmosphere was stunning, the music booming, the club was amazing, as were the women. However, one girl quickly caught the eye of the young hero. She had pink hair, those eyes enchanted him as did her dress, not something he had ever seen her in.

He didn't hesitate as he used his powers and ran right up to her.

"Kid Flash?" Jinx asked in surprise and slight embarrassment. She hadn't expected to be spotted at this club, especially not by Kid Flash.

"Jinxy, how's it going?" Kid Flash asked with his trademark grin.

"Quit the small talk, lets just dance," Jinx said as she grabbed Kid Flash and took him to the dance floor. She wasn't in the mood for a conversation, she was here for some fun, regardless of who was with her.

The temperature quickly rose as Jinx moved with Kid Flash to the beat of the music. Kid Flash saw, through the strobe lights, how tight Jinx's body was. How tight that sexy dress she was wearing actually was. Kid Flash couldn't stop staring at her.

He couldn't take it anymore, he grabbed a drink from a waiter and chugged it, he couldn't take it anymore as he moved towards her.

ANNA'S APARTMENT

Anna entered her apartment with a bag of groceries before immediately dropping them at the sight Kili sitting on her couch waiting with a cold set of eyes.

"Kili, you scared the hell out of me," Anna said as she went down to pick up the groceries she dropped. Kili not bothering to get up and help.

"Why did you lie to me Anna?" he asked her coldly. He lifted up the medical files he had taken from Anna's doctor's office.

Anna froze, didn't say a word, she slowly picked up the bag and then said calmly; "Lie about what?"

Now she was scared, Kili exploded and grabbed her by the throat as he slammed her against the door. "Lie about what! How dare you lie to me like that! I know about the miscarriage! When were you planning on telling me?" Kili asked.

"I-I-I was ju-jus-just wait-waiting for the ri-r-right t-t-time," she gasped.

"Right time?" Kili asked, his grip loosening, but his anger not.

"Yes, right time," she replied as she felt the air slowly coming back.

"Why were you lying to me for so long," Kili asked her coldly.

"I, I didn't want to lose your love, I thought you would get mad," Anna replied quietly.

"Your right, I am mad, I hate you. Yeah, I hate you for what you have been putting me through," Kili answered.

"What?" Anna asked, "Please, it's not my fault, I couldn't take care of the baby. I couldn't physically do it, that's what the doctor told me. Please don't hate me or leave me. It's not my fault!" she yelled in frustration, not knowing how to satisfy Kili.

"Good bye Anna," Kili said sternly as he stormed out of the room, leaving a crying Anna on the floor.

This chapter was there just to clear up some space for the next chapter. The next chapter will fix quite a few plot holes about the whole massive series and will exclusively be focused on the three days Guardian and Darkness will have together. Characters next chapter will include, more of Guardian's family and Darkness's family. I know you all will enjoy it, just try to be patient, finals are coming up, so the next update will come in a week or a week and a half. Thanks for all the support guys and don't forget:
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