Chapter 10

Tomorrow night was the 19th of October, they day I would be leaving and right now, I was in Ryu's arms having a rest just after we made love. Earlier tonight Ryu's parents came over and we had dinner altogether and it was amazing. I actually felt like I was in a real family, then it made me start to think about my mother. I haven't seen her in months, it wasn't my choice not to see her but she blocked us out of her life. Ryu had been so amazing to me because he kept giving me all these gifts and he just wanted me to be happy, but I had a feeling that he was doing this to try and prevent what was going to happen in Japan. I woke up in his arms and he was already awake, he kissed me good morning and said 'Good morning sleepy head'.

I smiled up at him and said 'Good morning to you too, how long have you been up?'

'Just now – I know your leaving now but I want us to go out for breakfast before you go to the airport allright?'

'Is everything okay?', I asked, he seemed like he was hiding something.

'Nothings up, just want to have breakfast with you'.

'Okay …', I got out of bed and went to the bathroom and started turning on the water on the bath-tub and he came up behind me.

'Your so beautiful do you know that?'

'No, tell me why Ryu', I was teasing him and I could see him looking down my naked body.

'Because you've got these perfect boobs, amazingly sexy bottom', he squeezed my bum 'And your just one of a kind', he kissed me passionately by my neck and he said 'I don't know what I would do without you'.

'Well, I'm going to be gone for a week, try and survive'.

'I though you were only staying for a couple of days?'

'I want to look around, so that doesn't matter right?', I went in the bath-tub and he came in with me a couple of moments later, I enjoyed my time with him and we faced each other talking about our deepest secret. But there would be one secret I would never ever tell a soul, and it was that I might still have feelings for Syaoran . I couldn't bear tell anyone because once Ryu hears it from someone else it would break his heart, and he was SERIOUSLY in love with me.

He took me out for breakfast and Machiko was there eating her baby food. Having a family was the most amazing gift I could ever get. Sometimes it made me think, what life would be if I never met Ryu, never fell in love with Syaoran and Ryu and if I had an abortion. My life would never be the same. Going to this party would mean I would be missing out on a week of work but that was allright because I was new, and Darien wanted me to look at the fashion in Japan while I was there.

I looked into Ryu's eyes, they weren't a boy's eyes anymore, it was a man's eyes and the way he looked at me now & then made me blush 'Ryu, there's something in your cheeks', I stood up my from my chair and removed it ketchup on his face. Even though he was a man now, he was still a young kid, there was a part of him I would never forget, the way he loved me through the though situations we've been through.

We were now at the airport and I was hugging him tightly, I needed to go if I wasn't going to leave any soon, but my daughter Machiko didn't want to go. Her first words to me was Mum and it was so adorable. Then it was Ryu's turn, I hugged him tightly and I said 'I'm going to miss you so much'.

'I'm going to miss you too', he said softly to me 'But I want you to have fun there and tell Syaoran and his parents that I said hi'.

'I will', I knew that inside of him, he wanted me to promise that nothing was going to happen while I was Japan but I couldn't control that.