Chapter 12

He stepped back and he asked 'What?'

'I saw your mother in Australia and she told me that you were having a party'.

He looked straight at me and it was hard for him to say anything to me 'Why'd you come?'

'What do you mean, you don't want me here?'

'I do', he said to me 'There's got to be a reason why you're here'.

'Can't I see a friend?', I asked him, he was saddened by the fact that I only called him a FRIEND, nothing more.

'So what about the things that happened in the past, are we just going to put it all behind us?'

'No – please Ryu don't do this, I just want us to be back to normal, like we were before?'

'We can't do that', he told me 'It will never be the same between us two …'

I started getting angry, regretting that I ever came here 'I don't even know why I cam here Syaoran, your all being stubborn, I'm trying to be nice to you, but all your doing is rejecting me. Remember it wasn't my fault we couldn't be together. YOU had all that time to tell me, then you tell me you love me when I'm with someone else'.

'For god sakes Sakura, we slept together!'

'And it didn't mean anything!', I shouted at him. I just had to let it all out. After I released all my anger at him I walked out of his room, so pissed. I wasn't planning on going to his stupid party anymore after the conversation we just had.

I went back to my hotel room, because I needed to cool down. I was still so angry at him, then someone knocked on my door. I walked towards the door and Nyoko was at the door, I smiled at her and said 'Hello', and I welcomed her in.

She walked towards the balcony and she said to me 'I heard about what happened at the palace today … you are still planning on going tonight right?'

'I don't know anymore, talking to him earlier just got me so angry, its like I did something wrong but I didn't'.

'He still loves you', she said softly.

I asked, since I was so confused 'What?'

'He's still in love with you, ever since you two stop talking to each other it got worst … and maybe him seeing again might make him react different with what you expected'.

'Nyoko, I can't be with him, I'm engaged to Ryu, he just asked me recently, and we have a family together'.

She looked at me in the eye and said 'Ryu isn't the real father of Machiko, I know'.

'How?', I was shocked that she even knew, because we barely talked to each other and now she knew so much about me.

'I just now, I had a feeling that Kado & Sachi forced you to stop seeing Syaoran because it would cause a scandal'.

'I'll try and make it tonight, but no promises', we were by the door and Nyoko hugged me tightly 'I'm glad you came here, I needed the talk'.

'Your welcome dear …'I shut the door and it was only 3pm, and the party was not going to start till 8pm, so I decided to go to a Spa Centre and just relax. I needed it so bad.

Back in the Royal Palace

It was around 5pm, and Syaoran just got back from the City from getting his suit. He was so mad at his mother for not telling him that Sakura was coming. So when he got home, he went to the main office and burst into his mother 'I can't believe you didn't tell me that Sakura was coming!'

'I'm sorry … I wanted it to be a surprise present for you. I just had a talk with and she's engaged'

'With who?'

'With Ryu, they got engaged just before she left for Japan', Syaoran sadly looked at his mother, 'If you really love her you can at least treat her nicely. You weren't very polite this morning'.

'She got me so angry'.

'Well what did you expect? For her to run in your arms again? Remember it was your decision not to see her again, she was probably expecting you back, but you just weren't there'.

'You don't know how much I love her … Right now I would do anything for her'.

'Then why didn't you tell her that?'

'It was just too late.

That night I didn't end up going to the party, so I stayed at my hotel, watching TV, just boringly flicking through the channels. I had nothing else to do. But I still had to stay a week more in Japan to do my job. I noticed that the time was around 8.30 and I decided to go downstairs to have dinner, as I was going out and I was about to open my door, Syaoran was right there. I wondered what he was doing there and I asked 'Why are you doing here, don't you have a party to go on right now?'

'I don't want to be there because your not there', he smiled and said 'I was expecting you there and'.

'You should be there –'.

'Sakura I love you, please give me another chance', he stood so close to me that I started stepping back. I closed the door behind me and he looked at me 'I'll do anything, please, give me another chance', I leaned against the wall and he slowly bent his head to kiss me but I turned away.

'We can't do this … - I don't want to do this to Ryu, I love him'.

'But its not the same love you feel for me …', he kissed me passionately and started pushing me towards the wall and I wrapped my leg around his waist as he pulled me up, his hands supporting my weight.

'Syaoran – ', I moaned, as he started kissing towards my neck and going down. He moved me to the bed and with him on top of me then he slowly, started taking off my clothes, watching me as he was doing it. Again, he kissed me in my neck and I was already naked under him and I thought to myself "Please don't let this be a bad decision", then I made love with Syaoran that night. Over and over again because he missed me so much, but I didn't know how to feel.

When we were finished, I was lying in his arms and I looked at my fingers, the ring on my wedding finger, I was breaking the trust I had with Ryu. I couldn't face him anymore now that I slept with Syaoran even though I was already engaged. I slowly turned the other way so my back was facing Syaoran's face and we talked.

'Syaoran I don't think we did the right thing', I said to him, I was ashamed of what I have done, but it had filled in the missing pieces of my life I've been looking for, for months 'What if the same thing happens again?'

'What do you mean the same thing? Were you pregnant with my child?'

'Her name is Machiko, and yes she's your child'.

'Why didn't you tell me?', I stood up and wrapped the bed sheets around my petite body. 'You already knew it, you knew it inside, and that's why you made me make the choice because you know we couldn't raise it together'.

'Sakura … lets leave now, right now', he stood behind me and hugged me tightly. These moments I was having with him was beautiful and I don't think I could ever forget it. 'Let's elope, just us two … I don't care about my throne anymore', I smiled at what he was saying, Nyoko was right all along, Syaoran still had feelings for me and it would never go away. I was starting to think if I should leave Ryu, but I loved him, but at the same time I loved Syaoran. Now all of the sudden my life was going to get more complicated than usual.

We made love once more before we finally slept peacefully together and the next morning, I found myself naked, under the sheets and Syaoran was already out of bed. I couldn't believe this, he left this morning without even leaving me any sort of note. I felt like I was just a one night stand Syaoran just had, but he was a better person than that. I took a shower and when I finished changing I started packing up my things, I was leaving Tokyo today, and I was going to Kyoto to look around there, maybe stay there for a day then go back home. But just as I was leaving that morning to get my tickets in the airport, I turned on the television and it wasn't going so well back in Australia. There were news reports that there was a big fire in NSW and it was quickly spreading South and now, the fire was leading into the Beach area, and that's where I lived. I quickly panicked and I dialed the home number and no-one was answering. I started panicking; Ryu and Machiko could be seriously hurt.

I decided that for now Ryu and Machiko was going to come first, so I quickly took the first flight back to Australia, and it was long. I sat in the plane wondering, and sick worried on how Ryu and Machiko was, then I remembered. Ryu was a firefighter and he would have to leave to help bring down the fire, and I started getting so worried. I got the Sydney, Airport and it was hectic there, tourists wanted to get out of the country before the situation got worst and I got in a cab and I got driven straight to the North Shores. When I got to the house, Nolee, baby Machiko, Taro and Mai was in there and I hugged my baby and I asked Mai 'Where's Ryu?'

'He's doing he's work, he's out there'.

'Is it safe to be here?', I looked around they haven't started moving.

'Yeah, the wind doesn't blow our away and its pretty far away from where the fire is', Taro answered.

'How long have Ryu been working?'

'Ever since the fire started, I think that's the reason why Machiko started getting sick because of the change of air', Nolee answered.

'Can you contact him?'

'No-one has been able to contact him for days, but he's fine', I looked out the window and the sky was so dark now, it was just starting to darken up. I decided to stay all night because I couldn't stop thinking about Ryu, wondering if he was allright. I couldn't handle it if he was hurt in anyway.