Neglected Child

Chapter Two

Disclaimer: I don't own CCS or any of its characters [Unless I just made it up]. Don't own so don't sue.

Summary: Syaoran's life is a mess. He is the youngest of 5 children. His father passed away and his mother copes with the pain by drinking. Syaoran is abused physically and emotionally by everyone, so he isolates himself.

A/N: Thanks for everyone reviewing. Thank you LittleWolfGurl, heheangel kisses, and Crystalz Tearz for being so observant and reading into such great detail asking me questions. It makes me feel so... happy! ;; I know I'm weird. You have no idea how overflown with joy I am to see that. That just made me want to update more! Thank you melon-heart, yingyanggirl, and FromDayOne for also reviewing! You guys make me so happy! I'm seriously estaticed. Well, I'll answer all your questions now or attempt to. PS - Thanks to K a w a i i - S y a o r a n for listening to me babble on and on and on...

It was still raining from yesterday. The rain began to come down harder and harder every minute. There were floods all around and the water level was about 3 feet deep. It was about 5 o'clock in the morning. Outside, it was pitch dark and yet, it was going to be morning.

My heavy eyelids slowly opened up. My vision was blurry at first while my eyes adjusted to the surroundings. At first my mind was blank until I remembered.. 'Baba's... gone.'

Sitting up, I looked down at myself. I saw numerous amounts of bruises throughout my small three-year-old body. 'no... I'll never see... baba... again?'

I tried to stand up. Thud. Instead or getting up, I fell down. I fell down hard onto the hard, cold, wooden floor. I pushed myself up with my hands trying to boost myself up. 'Baba...' I wanted to see him again. I need to see him again. I have to see him again.

I struggled to get up. Every time I got up, I fell back down again. I must get back up. I will not quit until I do. 'Baba...? Where's Baba...?'

I finally decided to crawl to Baba's room to look for him. The door was on the other side of my room and I needed to see Baba again... I tried crawled the whole way there, since I couldn't get up. 'Left... Right... Left... Right...'

When I got half way there, I tried to take another step. My body was too weak and I fell down. I lifted my head slightly to see up and i reached out my left hand in front of me and stretched out, the door seems like a million years away. 'Baba... I need you... Baba... please... come back...'

When no one responded, I touched my face. My dried up tears were there. I was crying yesterday night... I flinched when I touched one of my bruises. It hurted badly. I couldn't believe that this happened. It's all some horrible dream. I pinched myself. No, it was not a dream. It was a living nightmare... 'Hahaue (mother) did this to me... why...?'

Then suddenly, everything from yesterday was so clear. I remembered everything that me and baba (father) did together... My thoughts were of: 'Baba's gone... I'll never get to say "Baba" ever again...'

Thinking was hurting my head too much. My eyelids started to get heavy again. I was falling forward into the dark place again.

"Baba... I... need... you..."

My vision blurred completely and I fainted. Thud.

[Dream]

It was pitch black. There was nothing insight until... the picture that I got for my birthday showed up. The pictures of my sisters, Hahaue, Baba and I standing together and smiling. We were at the beach. We were laughing, we were having fun, we were... a family...

It was a sunny day with almost no clouds insight. There was Hahaue and Baba standing there together side-by-side along with my four other sisters. We were all at the beach having fun. I was with my sisters playing around in the water. We were splashing each other with water.

There I was when I was two-years-old. I was smiling, laughing, having fun - things a kid should be able to do. I want to go back and do those things again. I want to smile and laugh. I want to... be a kid again. I was with yee ga jie (second oldest sister) playing in the water. The clear, blue water seem to welcome us, inviting us to play. Di ga jie (oldest sister) and san ga jie (third sister) were building a sand castle as tall as the sky. Hahaue and baba were watching us and talking to each other.

Splash

"Haha, yee ga jie I splashed you!!!" I teased my sister, smiling and laughing at her.

"Oh yeah? This will mean war!"

Splash

"Ahhhh.. no fair..."

Cough. I started to breathe in water. I started to sink to the bottom. I was fighting with all of my energy to try to float, but it wasn't working.

"Ahhhhh!! Hahaue!! Baba!! Help me!!" I yelled. I started to sink again. Until...

Hahaue and Baba came running to my side. They lifted me up from the waves and patted my back. I coughed out all of the water that I took in. I felt so much better when they were there. "It's okay, Xiao Lang, you'll be fine. You'll be okay." They hugged me and rocked me until I fell sleep with a towel wrapped around me.

I felt so happy until...

They suddenly disappeared and the thoughts of yesterday filled my brain. Hahaue abusing me... hitting me nonstop. She screamed out... 'he's gone now and it's all your fault...' my fault... i did this...My stomach twisted while I heard those words repeat. I remember those eyes of her's. Her eyes filled with hatred, anger and sadness. Her eyes filled with a certain coldness that I can't put my hand on. Her eyes that was so innocent and carefree two days ago. Baba's gone and he's not coming back. I must be the reason for his disappearance. All these words tuned into my mind. I will never forgive myself. Why was I ever born?

[End of Dream]

Suddenly, I woke up with a sudden fear. The fear that I would never be loved again. I, Syaoran will make a promise to myself. I promise that I'll-

At that second, san ga jie opened my door. It was 7 o'clock in the morning, I think. She was still in her purple pajamas. Her face was a mess. Her hair falling in front of her eyes covering them. She looked like she was crying all night. She looked like a doll standing there. Her arms were down and she was looking at the floor. She suddenly lifted her head and stared straight at me. Her stare was so intense, so cold. I didn't know what to do, I was fulled with fear. I was still in the middle of my room, on the floor, in my green pajamas.

"Xiao Lang, baba's gone. It's all your fault!!! Baba's DEAD!!!!" She shrieked. Her voice rising with every word. I never saw san ga jie so mad...

"San ga jie, what's wrong? What happened? Baba's gone? Will baba come back? What do you mean he's "dead"?" I asked her. What's dead? How does it feel to be dead? I was scared. I didn't know what else to say. San ga jie looked at the ceiling. Her hair wasn't covering her eyes anymore. I saw that her eyes were filled with no emotion. 'I... lost san ga jie too.'

I looked down. I didn't want to see her face. She scared me. I didn't know what to say or do. First Hahaue, and now san ga jie. Is everyone turning against me?

All of a sudden, I looked up and I saw a glint. San ga jie pulled something out. My eyes were wide with horror. I can't believe what san ga jie just pulled out. I started to back away into a corner, hoping someone would save me. I pushed myself with my hands up and started to back away into the corner. I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. I was just filled with shock and I was scared.

"Xiao Lang, you don't deserve to live... You killed baba... It's all your fault... I'm going to do this to save you the pain. Don't worry Xiao Lang, you won't feel a thing." She came closer to me. Her expression didn't change. In her hand, there was something sharp. It was something that they used to cut meats. There in her hand, was a knife. The cold, sharp knife that could slice people. The knife that is used to cut our food. The knife that chop things in half. I didn't know what san ga jie was going to do, but I know that it isn't good. I've never seen it used on peoples.

"What do you mean I killed baba? Baba's just gone!!! He'll come back!" I didn't know what to do, but I know one thing. I must keep her far far away from me. I tried to look around for something to help protect me, but there was nothing around that could save me. I looked at my door, but I couldn't go that way. San ga jie was in the way. I was trapped.

A/N- Sorry it took so long to update. I couldn't think of anything to write... And when I did, I had to go out and etc... I know excuses, excuses, excuses... Anyways, thanks for reading and thanks to K a w a i i - S y a o r a n for being the bad manager. lol j/k P.S. YOU'RE A CRAPPY MANAGER!! lol btw, R&R