Chapter 19

Syaoran was serious about all he said to me, and we got married as soon as possible that day. The day he got back from Canberra. I wore the gown that I bought yesterday and he wore the suit and we told Nolee and Machiko and we brought them with us for 'Witnesses'.

We got to the nearest chapel, by a valley in a quiet, peaceful town and the priest noticed that it was Prince Syaoran and he was not going to do it until there was a proper reason why they were getting married so fast. I asked Father Arthur to be alone in a room and it was quiet, I knew he wasn't going to be talking first and I said 'I love him you know, and we just want to be together. I was engaged before but we didn't end up getting married because he died, he was a firefighter. So please do this for me. I beg you father'.

But all he said to me 'Child, being in a marriage is big. You just don't - think about this'.

'I don't need to think about it, please', then he sighed deeply and he smiled 'Thank you father', I said to him and hugged him tightly. Finally we were getting married. Syaoran had been thinking about it all night and he already wrote his vows, his own vow and now we were getting married.

I got changed in the toilets and I looked at my white dress, it was beautiful. I looked at myself and for the first time, I was getting married and I was nervous. I touched my stomach and I was also expecting. My life was never perfect and this was just a part of it. Nolee knocked on the door and asked 'Is everything allright Sakura?'

'Yeah I'm fine', I said, looking at myself in the mirror. I walked out of the room, there was no music, and I started walking down the aisle and I smiled at Syaoran as I was walking towards him. He looked gorgeous as usual and I smiled, I was a happy bride that day. When it was part to say our vows, I was the one who said it first. I said 'I Sakura Kinomoto, take you Syaoran Li to be my husband, my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live'.

Then, he turned to me and smiled at me before he started speaking and saying his vows to me 'I, Syaoran Li, take you, Sakura Kinomoto, to be my friend, my lover, the mother of my children and my wife. I will be yours in times of plenty and in times of want, in times of sickness and in times of health, in times of joy and in times of sorrow, in times of failure and in times of triumph. I promise to cherish and respect you, to care and protect you, to comfort and encourage you, and stay with you, for all eternity'.

Then the priest finished off the wedding and we smiled at each other, and Father Arthur said 'You may now kiss the bride', and Syaoran kissed me passionately. I pulled away from him and looked at Machiko, she was watching and smiling as Nolee was holding her and Syaoran smiled and asked me 'Everything allright?'

'What's going to happen to my friends and my sister?', I was worried about what may happen to them.

'I'll get them a private jet, a big one and you have to contact all your friends and try and get them to the jet, that's the best I could do for you', I smiled and hugged him tightly. I was so scared 'You don't have to be scared, nothing is now going to happen to you'.

'I just love you so much', he hugged me so tightly.

'We're leaving in 2 days', he whispered to my ear.

The moment I got home, Nolee started packing everyone's bag, while I was trying to contact my sister and friends. I was so scared for them. I first called Aiko & Makoto because she came first and then Yuki & Takara, Haruko & Goro, Daisuke & Emi Sujoui, Misaki & Nobu, Yuudai & Umeko, Dennis, Darien, Ramos, and last of all Tomo.

Makoto answered the phone and he said 'Hello?'

'Makoto, its Sakura, I need to talk to my sister'.

'I can't let you … she's currently busy'.

'Its urgent Makoto just give her the phone', then I heard a deep sigh from him.

'I'll just go get her', then he dropped the phone and called Aiko from the garden.

A moment later she picked up the phone and asked 'What's up Sakura?'

'You have to the airport as soon as possible; I'll explain it to you later. Aiko you've got to trust me'.

'Why? You've got to tell me now', she said to me, but I couldn't tell her not yet. It would make her panic and I so didn't want that right now.'

'Please, we're meeting at Sydney Airport in 2 days, at 8am, I've already prepared everything'.

'Okay … I trust you but you better tell me'.

'Cancel your party tonight … you can't go on with it yet'.

'But everything is prepared, do you know how much money I've already spent on it?', she had been planning this for such a long time.

'I'll pay for everything the second round bills for the engagement party and everything Aiko so don't worry', I said to her, then she sighed deeply once again.

'Fine, okay, I'll see you in two days at the airport'.

Then after I called my sister I called each other of my friends. But when I called for Tomo's number, because I still considered him as my friend, he wasn't answering his phone. He usually didn't and I expected it. But I wanted him to answer the phone badly because I needed to get him out of the country.

My husband came up behind me and asked 'Is everything allright?'

'Yeah', I said to him 'I just called up everyone, but I couldn't get through one person'.

'Don't worry …', he hugged me tightly 'I think its time for us to have dinner, you haven't been eating anything all day'.

'Okay', I said to him, I had to take care of myself especially during this time because I'm pregnant.

2 days had passed and I was at the airport and some of my friends were already there. I would be going on a separate plane to Japan because Syaoran wanted me in his sight all flight, so he had his private plane to get us there to Japan. Luckily everyone appeared and everyone was going to safe. I sighed deeply and I started writing in my journal. Yesterday, I bought a thick blank journal for myself, I would have to start writing my thoughts in case anything big changed.

The moment we landed to Japan, it wasn't exactly perfect. Somehow Syaoran didn't want me seeing my friends, not yet anyway. I was sent to a car straight to the palace while he had a talk with Makoto, who was holding Aiko tightly by his arms.

Aiko asked him 'How's she doing Syaoran, she sounded so stress when I was talking with her on the phone'.

'She's not doing so well', he said to the concerned Maiko 'I regret rushing her into the whole situation but I really want her to be safe'.

'I understand that Syaoran, I would do the same thing for Aiko', who kissed Aiko softly by the lips.

'I just don't want her seeing her friends right now knowing that they would be wanting answers from her', even though we were in this shocking situation, he always thought of my feelings first 'Its best to keep her from her friends right now … and thank you so much for doing me this big favor, leading her friends to another safe house'.

'Its allright Syaoran', Aiko said to him 'We're here for you no matter what'.

'I'm sorry about the engagement party', Syaoran said before he entered the black car that was waiting for him.

'Hey you know what people always say, its better to be safe … than you know what', she smiled kindly at Syaoran 'Say hi to my sister for me?', Syaoran nodded and he walked in the car and it drove off, while Makoto and Aiko got in the bus along with everyone else, who were mostly Sakura's friends and they got driven to the safe house in the quiet side of Japan.

At the palace, I was waiting patiently, waiting for Syaoran to come home. He didn't come back to the palace with me since he wanted to talk to my sister alone. I saw him walk in the bedroom and I hugged him tightly 'Finally you're here, I was starting to worry about you'.

'No need to worry about me, now I'm just starting to worry about you, you barely smile nowadays'; he smiled softly at me 'You ought to smile now and then you know'.

'I know but I'm just worried you know'.

'So where's Machiko, I don't hear her, that means she's sleeping?'

'She was exhausted the moment we got here', I said to him 'So are we finally safe?'

'Yeah …', I sat down beside him in the chaise, and he hugged me tightly 'Everything's going to be fine from now on, besides you ought to get settled in the palace any way since your going to be crowned Queen soon'.

'Imagine me Queen Sakura Li', I smiled at him, then I giggled 'Mrs. Li, I have to get used to the sound of that'.

'Yeah … and your going to be mine forever', he kissed me in the forehead and I leaned in his arms 'Sakura, just make me one promise, promise to be truly honest to me no matter what and that will keep me happy. I want to be in a marriage based on truth and love'.

'I will I promise', I looked into his eyes and made an unbreakable promise right there. Then he kissed me passionately and I slowly slept in a light slumber, he gently carried me to the bed and he left and headed downstairs. He would have to be talking to other world leaders in the world about what was happening.

At 10.00 pm the next day we left Australia, Sydney was bombed, and right in the City. Luckily I was already asleep but Syaoran was up all night watching the news and he thank god that he got me and my friends and family as soon as possible because it all so happened quickly. The bombing made world news and there was pictures of the effect the bombs had and how many people was injured. Since the people in Australia had no idea it was coming they weren't prepared.

Upstairs I could hear noises of the television, sounds of crashes and it woke me up straight away. I was wondering where Syaoran was so I looked around for him. I was now at a month pregnant and I would have 8 more months to go. My bump wasn't that big yet and I was glad for that since most of my friends didn't even know that I was expecting.

I looked around the palace walking, and I saw some guards in the hallways and I found Syaoran his office and he was watching TV which was on pretty loud, luckily it didn't wake up Machiko, only me. I knocked on his door and he put the TV lower and he asked 'Did I wake you?'

'Yeah …', I looked at him and asked 'What's the news saying?'

'The bombing just happened and its world news', I sat down beside him and I held on his hand tightly as I saw the affects of it 'A lot of people have been severely injured'.

'Oh my god', as the cameras showed a person bleeding and dead bodies on the streets 'They hit the City, and that's the busiest part of town'.

'I know, I can't believe they would do this … those damn terrorists', he started getting angry, thinking about all the innocent lives being lost here for no apparent reason.

'We can't do anything now …', I looked out the window and it was late. Another reason why I woke up in the middle of the night was that I was REALLY HUNGRY, I missed dinner and I only ate a bit of lunch and now I was famished.

Syaoran went to the kitchen with me to keep me company and I knew he was hiding something from me, I could feel this vibe between us, but knowing he was a Prince he would have to keep things from me for the sake of the other countries and I understood that. I smiled at him and said 'Thanks again for making me sandwich, Syao', he sat beside me and he smiled softly.

'Tomo is all right', he said to me, surprisingly. I barely heard Syaoran talk about Tomo and this was the first 'He's in America; he was in America during the bombing happen so he's fine'.

'That's good …', I said to him, I couldn't tell him anything else but that.

'He's coming over in Japan first thing tomorrow', he got up from the chair and he said that to me with his back turned on me 'It seems like he needs to talk to you about something'.

'What do you mean?', I was now confused, what did Tomo want to talk about? Our relationship was over.

'I'm not sure, you ought to talk to him in case its something important …I'm going to bed, I'll see you in the morning?' he kissed me in the cheeks before he left the room and I felt so alone, being alone in the kitchen late at night. Even though I was now married to Syaoran it sure didn't feel like it. After I ate I went back to bed and I slept …

Syaoran woke up early in the morning and even though it was cold he decided to go rowing. He looked at me lying down in bed looking peacefully and he got changed quickly and he went downstairs. He didn't like the fact that Tomo was coming to Japan, he hated being in a love triangle. He got in the boat and started rowing to the lake and it was freezing, but he desperately needed to get away from all this right now …

I woke up to be alone in bed as usual and Syaoran was gone without even telling me what was wrong. It was nearly 11 am, and the maids entered the room opening the blinds and starting up the water for me in the bath-tub. I said 'Thank you', to them and they shut the door close. I started stripping off my clothes and got in the warm water. I closed my eyes and thought about what had been happening and maybe I should do something for Syaoran to keep him happy. I felt like one of those wives with unhappy husbands, but I knew I couldn't blame myself. This marriage was rushed because of the terrorist attacks. I heard the door open and Syaoran came back, he went in the bathroom and I asked him 'Is everything allright?'

He nodded and said 'I'm fine Sakura no need to worry about me … look I don't think I can stand being around Tomo for the whole day. I'm going to visit the others and see how they are doing all right?'

'But Syaoran, I want you to stay …'

'I really can't …I'm sorry Sakura'.

'Syao please I'm begging you just do me this one favor and I'll be so happy … I don't want to be alone with him you know'.

'Okay, but I'm only doing this for you nothing more', I smiled at him and I got out of the bath tub and I kissed him softly in the lips. I was glad Syao was easy to persuade. Luckily I had clothes with me already so I didn't have to go out and shop but for the rest of the day, Syaoran showed me his secret spot and he rowed me there. It was cold but I covered myself with so many layers of clothing.

Syaoran said to me 'I hope we have a boy when the baby is born'.

'What if it isn't? Would it make that big difference to you?'

'No not really but I've always wanted a baby boy … you know teaching a boy to ride his bike and stuff like that'.

'Yeah I can imagine you doing that, your going to be such a great father Syaoran', hugging him tightly 'We're going to be one great family'.

'Yeah, you as a mother, I really regretted the fact that I wasn't there for you when you had Machiko. I feel like I'm going to be a not good enough father you know?'

'Don't worry you have the rest of you life to make it up to her. Its only been 5 years'.

'Yeah your right, and I too want to make it up to you for letting you through all that pain. I loved you but I guess I was too chicken to tell you how I really felt in the first place'.

'Don't worry Syaoran, as long as we're together I'm happy'.

When we got back to the palace, I quickly got changed in a dress and Syaoran dressed up semi-formal, tonight was going to be a formal dinner. The maid came in the room and told me 'Madam, Tomo had arrived, and he brought a girl with him'

'A girl?' I asked, shocked that Tomo was with a girl in the first place. I never thought he would actually move on but I obviously thought wrong. I felt weird inside, then a flashback of memories of the times me and Tomo spent time together … by my penthouse making love all day. He was not the same anymore. Tomo was growing into a man.

'Yeah and she looks like she's expecting soon?'

'Soon?'

'Madam, they are waiting downstairs, dinner will be served soon'.

'Okay thanks, Nolee', she closed the door and I started getting changed. Syaoran was already downstairs, but knowing him he wasn't going to be entertaining the guests, so I quickly got changed then I rushed downstairs. Nolee was right, this girl with Tomo was expecting.

Tomo walked over to me and hugged me tightly and there was this awkward feeling between us two 'Sakura its great to see you again, I'm glad you weren't busy for today …', I looked at the girl making me wonder who was she 'Oh, this beautiful girl is Minami Jasons, I met her in Hollywood at a party'.

The girl stepped forward towards me and I shook her hand 'Its nice to meet you Minami'.

'It's also great to see you Mrs. Li, it's a pleasure meeting you after Tomo couldn't stop talking about you', she was cute and she was also around Tomo's age which was good. Luckily Syaoran broke the silence by coming in the room and thank god for that.

He walked over to me and kissed me and whispered to me 'They're here'.

'Syaoran this is Minami Jasons, she's -?'

'We're not engaged or anything, I'm way to young for that', said Tomo. But now I was confused what their relationship was 'Minami is my long time girlfriend'.

'Long time girlfriend?', I repeated those words.

There was something weird about Minami, maybe because it was the fact that she was terribly quiet, so during dinner I asked her questions to make her talk. I felt that she probably thought I was looking down at her for being pregnant, but I wasn't. Its just that their relationship really didn't make sense, it was odd. While Tomo was visiting Machiko to give her something, I asked Minami to take a walk with me, 'Tomo you don't mind if I take Minami for a walk right?'

'No not at all', he smiled at me and Minami.

While we were taking a walk through the halls of the palace, I asked her 'How pregnant are you Minami?'

'You can call me Mina if you want and I'm 6 months pregnant', she smiled at me, though I knew she felt awkward around me.

'So you and Tomo have been together for how long now?'

'6 months'.

'So you mean to say you got pregnant when you first slept together?'

'It's not his child', I was shocked by his confession.

'What do you mean he is not the father, does he know that?'

'Yeah he knows, and he loves me too much as a friend to let me go through this alone. For now, he wants everyone to think its his child and he's willing to support me', I took in everything she was saying but it was hard to believe all that.

'So how long have you known him?'

'We've been close friends ever since we were little kids, if you want to know who got me pregnant your free to ask me'.

'So who did?', I asked her softly but at the same time being sympathetic.

'His best friend Saburo, then when Saburo found out he was pregnant he clearly told me that he didn't want the baby and he wasn't going to be helping me in anyway. Sakura you are really lucky to have Tomo as a friend, he's amazing and he does amazing things for people'.

'I know he's amazing, I was with him and I felt complete for the first time in my life after my fiancée died, but I knew we couldn't, there's just something about Tomo that …'

'I know what you mean, I fell in love with him, and I told him my feelings and he heard me out and he just …oh I lost track of time. I should start going with Tomo, thank you for having me as a guest in your house'.

'No thank you, and good luck'.

'You too'

'You know I'm pregnant?'

'Yeah you know I was like that once your going to love it'.

'I know I will', I smiled.

3 months later

Aiko and Makoto got married in a private ceremony in Japan and it was beautiful. It was spring and the weather was perfect. Everything was beautiful and that day, my friends and family knew that I was pregnant. Everyone was happy that day including me. That time everyone in the party got in this group photo including all the people important in my life. Tomo was still in Japan and he had managed to make it there but Mina couldn't make it, she was back in America, and she just got in labor just then, and she had a baby boy which she named Yori. I was going to be a godmother for Yori and I was glad.

Straight after my sister's wedding, Yuki and Takara got married, Haruko Toyo got married to her long time boyfriend Goro.

A couple of weeks after that Daisuke married Kenta Sujoui. Straight after the wedding of Daisuke Yuudai married Umeko.

8 ½ months have passed and it was just great for everyone. I was soon to give birth to my son Kichiro Kyo Li. Lately I haven't been in good health but I wasn't telling anyone about it because if I told Syaoran it would just him worry and I didn't want that right now. I was just keeping quiet.

Tonight nothing much was happening, Syaoran was out at a party for Royalties and I decided not to go with him, and I was sitting by the gazebo at the back of the palace, by the gardens looking at the stars, this was now a peaceful moment and I just looked at it. Suddenly pain struck my lower body and the pain was strong and I wondered what was going on, I screamed for Nolee 'Nolee! Help!', but no-one was coming out because it was late. I screamed in pain bringing me down since it was so painful.

Suddenly one of the gardeners the was about to leave heard me screaming for help and he instantly came for me, Joseph was the gardener at night and he helped me up then he ran into the palace and called for Nolee. I shut my eyes tight since the pain was unbearable, Nolee came out of the palace and helped Joseph carry me, I said to her 'I'm having the baby now Nolee, I can't take it'.

'Okay –', she called for a doctor and Joseph carefully took me upstairs.

I was left in the room alone for a second and I knew having this baby was going to be big and it wasn't like my first birth. It wasn't going to be the same. Nolee came in with towels to help me cool down since my skin felt scorching hot for no reason, she said to me 'I couldn't contact Syaoran, he's out of range'.

'Okay, I'm sure he's coming soon though', but I didn't know how wrong I was. After 5 minutes my doctor came and he helped me deliver the baby. I was draining out of energy fast, though I pushed hard as I was suppose to. I heard the baby's cries and I smiled, then I started getting weak fast, then everything just blacked out.

As soon as I passed out, Dr. Jacobs called out for help from Nolee and Joseph. 'Nolee call an ambulance at once Mrs. Li is unconscious and I don't know why!'

Nolee panicked looking at the unconscious body on the bed then she went to the phone and dialed for an ambulance, she couldn't believe this was happening and especially when Syaoran wasn't around.

Dr. Jacobs 'She just passed out after the baby came out … oh god, this is terrible'.

'Is there a chance for her to wake up?'

'I don't think so …'.

Downstairs Syaoran just came back having no idea what had been happening lately and he went upstairs as usual, and when he opened the door, he found a Doctor and he looked at the bed and there was Sakura in the bed unconscious and there was blood all over the bed. 'What happened?', rushing over to Sakura's side.

'She's unconscious, she just gave out after the baby boy came out …'

'What do you mean?'

Dr. Jacobs said to poor Syaoran 'An ambulance is coming sir, but I don't think there's a big chance of your dear wife surviving …'

'When did all this started?'

Joseph stepped forward and said 'I found her in pain by the gazebo and she didn't look like she was in labour she was just in pain'.

'She never told me anything about her feeling pain … Oh god, where the hell is the ambulance?'

The ambulance staff came in taking the body of Sakura and was brought to the car, Syaoran entered the car and he held her hand tightly and prayed for her 'Please God please let her be alive still, I love her too much to lose her'.

As soon as the ambulance got to the hospital, she was rushed to the Emergency Room to try and get her to have a pulse and the doctors were rushing in the ER doing everything they could do to save the Queen. Outside was Syaoran freaking the hell out because he didn't know what was going on and he wanted to. Syaoran paced around the waiting room, waiting till someone came out and told him what happened. Suddenly Dr. Jacobs came out of the ER and he looked at Syaoran disappointedly then Syao knew that she wasn't alive anymore, first he got angry from shock then he ran out of the hospital because he couldn't take this. He took a taxi to the a lake and he looked at the lake early that morning since he had been up all night. He looked at the lake and how calm it was then warm tears started dropping down his face. He had lost Sakura forever and its all his fault, and he wasn't even there for her.

'I wasn't even there for her when she was in pain and I didn't notice the fact that she was in pain. She didn't trust me or didn't want me to worry about it …I can't believe this, Sakura'.

His phone rang but he missed it, right now he didn't want to be disturbed and he sure didn't feel like talking to anyone.

What was he going to do now? Right now he had two choices, he could run away from this, run away from the life that Sakura built for him or take care of the kids alone, he knew he couldn't remarry again not ever because NO-ONE would ever replace her.

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I'm making a new story too.