Title: In A Heartbeat

Author: Lexi Lou Who

Copywrighted Lyrics: 'Goodbye My Lover' by James Blunt

Summary: Everything can change in a single heartbeat…

Warnings: Language, Angst, Slash

Disclaimer: I don't own CSI or the lyrics to 'Goodbye My Lover' by James Blunt

A/N: Hey guys! Sarah here! Well, Here's the next chapter. Enjoy!

Thanks to Sparkleblsmchyld…Kudos to you!

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

He opened his eyes and saw white around him. It made him think that he had died and that he was in heaven, but then beeping sounds and outlines of other objects around him told him that he hadn't died, but was in a hospital. He wondered why. What had happened that had caused him to end up in the hospital? He tried to remember what had happened, but he only got random images shot through his brain.

He remembered loud rock music, darkness surrounded him except for lights in front of him, a blinding flash of light and a tree filling his vision before he hit his head and allowed himself to be taken in by the darkness. It made his head hurt and he winced his pain as he tried to rub his head, but found a cast covering his right wrist, hand and fingers, preventing him from moving them at all.

Greg looked around and saw that he had bandages wrapped around his torso, his ankle in a cast, cuts and bruises all over his body and his head was in so much pain he couldn't bear it. Just what the hell had happened to him? What had caused so much injury to his body and caused his head to pound?

"Greg, good to see you awake." A voice said and cut Greg's thoughts and questions short. Greg turned his head to the voice, causing him to wince in pain. It was Grissom. He was sitting in the chair that was next to Greg's bed. He looked worn out and tired, but a smile had crossed his face as he looked at the young CSI. Greg smiled thinly at his boss. Why was he here and not Nick?

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

"Grissom." He managed to say, his voice unusually hoarse. He tried to clear it, but that only made him cough. Grissom rose, apparently getting ready to get some help, but Greg shook his head and reached for the water beside his bed, to which Grissom gave him. The blonde carefully sat up and took a sip of water before he sighed in relief. Grissom sat back down and looked at Greg.

"How're you feeling, Greg?" He asked carefully, his voice sounding tired, but soft and calm. Greg tried to smile, but it came out as a grimace and he quickly wiped it off of his face.

"Horrible. I feel like shit." He said and once again, attempted and failed, a smile before he looked into Grissom's eyes. "Grissom, what the hell happened to me?" He asked quietly, hoping the truth and not some excuse like 'I'll tell you later' or 'maybe a bit later, when you feel better.' Grissom looked like he didn't want to tell Greg, but finally gave in when he saw the confused and worried look in Greg's eyes. He took a breath.

"You were in a car accident, Greg. Apparently, from what he could piece together, you were driving along when a car headed your way, driving on the wrong side of the road. You swerved to avoid it and hit a tree. You came back from surgery about 6 hours ago and have been sleeping since then." Grissom told him and it caused the memories of the previous night appear before his eyes.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

FLASHBACK

He was driving along the dark road with rock music playing on the radio to try and drown out the thoughts and memories that had plagued him throughout his shift. Luckily, He didn't have to work with Nick on a case, but he had to work with Nick a few times and when they did, no mention was made about what happened the previous night or any apologies spoken between them.

He could still feel the sting of Nick's slap against his cheek and it caused tears to fill his eyes. Why would Nick hurt him? Nick had promised that he would never hurt him, but it had turned out that that was all talk when the Texan had hurt him last night.

He had turned up later that night after he walked out to take his stuff out of Nick's place and go back to his own apartment to stay there until Nick was ready to tell him where their relationship stood. Nick watched him from the doorway of their bedroom as Greg took out a duffel bag and began to pack whatever possessions he had left there.

After Greg was finally done packing, he zipped up the bag, took it and stood in front of Nick, who leaned against the doorway, blocking. Their gaze held for a mere moment and Greg could see many emotions jumbled into Nick's eyes entwined with each other and it made it hard for Greg to know what Nick was feeling. Nick moved out of the way and watched Greg as he headed for the door, half expecting Nick to call his name, apologize for everything and kiss him senseless.

Instead, Nick just watched as Greg opened the front door and left. Greg could swear that he saw tears fall down Nick's face just as he closed the door.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.

With one hand still on the wheel, He wiped his eyes free of tears as the look on Nick's face came through his mind again, then took out his cell phone from his pocket and began to dial Nick's number. He stared at it after he did for a moment before he closed his phone and put it in the passenger seat with a sigh.

His heart was torn. Part of him wanted to call Nick and apologize for walking out like he did and beg for Nick to take him back and head back home, but the other part of him told him not to do it. It was Nick who should apologize for hitting him and begging for Greg to come back home and for Greg to say no, that it was over for good and nothing Nick say would make him come back.

His thoughts were suddenly ended when a bright flash of light blinded him, preventing him from seeing anything at all. His eyes widened as he jerked the wheel sideways to try and avoid the lights, but the wheel was jerked out of his hands and a tree filled his vision before he closed his eyes and felt himself being thrown around the car like a chew toy in a dog's mouth before he hit his head and his world turned black.

END FLASHBACK

Greg just laid there, stunned into silence by the memory that flashed through his mind and closed his eyes, wincing as another sharp pain shot through his head. Grissom looked at him, a bit worried by the look on the young CSI's face.

"Greg? Are you alright?" Grissom asked Greg. He opened his eyes and nodded gently; finally giving Grissom enough of a smile to try and assure the supervisor that he was fine.

"Griss…Is Nick here?" He asked quietly as the pain in his head steadily grew worse and it bugged him so much. Grissom nodded, but before he spoke, a familiar, scared voice interrupted him.

"Greg, you're okay." A voice said. Grissom stood up and looked towards the voice to find Nick standing in the doorway, his eyes shining with unshed tears as he looked at the state Greg was in. Greg smiled weakly and attempted to wave at his lover.

I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

"Hey Nicky." He said smiling. Nick didn't respond. Instead, he walked over to the side of Greg's bed and passed Grissom, who stood back to allow Nick to see Greg. Nick touched Greg's cheek and rubbed his thumb gently across his cheek.

"You okay?" Greg asked quietly as Nick stood beside him, unshed tears in the Texan's eyes as Nick's hand remained on Greg's cheek and it made Greg smile softly, happy. Nick didn't answer. Instead, he took Greg's uninjured hand and kissed it.

"I'm glad you're okay, Greg. I don't know what I would've done without you." Nick said. Greg's heart beat a little faster. If Nick knew Grissom was in the room, he obviously didn't care because in his next move, he bent down and kissed Greg gently on the mouth.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Greg didn't know what to do except close his eyes and enjoy the kiss for just a mere moment before a sharp pain in his head, worse than before, made Greg wince and caused Nick to break away, still holding Greg's hand and squeezed it slightly, being careful not to cause more pain to his lover.

"Greggy, are you okay?" Nick asked, worried. Greg looked at Nick and suddenly felt the energy from his body go. 'No, No, No. Please don't let me die.' He thought, trying to fight against the blackness that was trying to swallow him. Another pain shot through his whole body and he yelled in pain, squeezing Nick's hand. Nick's face turned to worry and he looked at Grissom.

"Griss, get a doctor!" He ordered. Grissom nodded and walked as fast as he could from the room, leaving Greg to drown in pain and Nick to worry about him. Nick looked at Greg and sat on the bed next to Greg.

He felt so tired. The pain was sapping him off all of his energy faster and faster and it was killing him. It was getting colder as he grew more tired and tired with each shot of pain that went through him, which was getting to be one after the other. Nick looked at him, worried and held Greg's hand tighter, as if Greg would die if he let go.

"Hold on, G'. The doctors are gonna be here any second and everything'll be okay. You have to stay with me, babe, kay?" He said, pleading with Greg. Greg nodded softly, but he knew that he couldn't hang any longer. He was so tired…All he wanted to do was sleep. He closed his eyes, but snapped them back open when he heard Nick plead to stay with him, to keep his eyes open.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
when I'm kneeling at your feet.

"Nick…I can't…I wanna sleep." Greg said quietly, his voice begging. Now, he could see that tears were falling out of Nick's eyes and that he made no attempt to hide them or cover them. Nick smiled softly and kissed Greg's hand.

"I know you are, Greggo…but you'll be able to get a chance to sleep once the doctors fixed you, okay? Promise." He said and that only reminded Greg of how Nick never kept his promises. After all, he promised to never hurt Greg and look what happened. He wanted to sleep now. Forget Nick.

"Nick, I'm sorry…For fighting with you." He said. Nick shook his head quickly.

"No, Greg…it's not your fault, honest." Nick said, but Greg acted as if he never heard Nick as he continued.

"Just… remember that I love you. Always." Greg said. Nick shook his eyes as horror and udder sadness took over his eyes and face.

"No, No…Greg, You can't leave me here alone. You can't, damnit!" He yelled as a doctor and some nurses rushed into the room. Just as Nick was pulled away, their connection with their hands broke and Greg said one more thing before he gave in to the pain and the darkness that was ready to greet him:

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.

"Goodbye, Nicky. Don't forget to remember me."

You have been the one for me.

A/N: Well? What'd you think? Please R&R!