What can I find here?
There is nothing here
at least not for me
I can't stand strong
I can't smile
I can't even cry
I scream
No words form
from my mouth
No one can hear my pain
No one knows what happens
I watch as others around me
feel no pain, at least not mine
Left alone for eternity
is not what I wish
but here I am again
crying with no tears
screaming with no sound
There is nothing here for me
I have been here too long
to long to remember life before
this torture or living without happiness
My sad eyes watch the world
falling into a darkness
forever circling terror
but no one else knows this
for my eyes are immortal
my soul cringes
wishing to tear free from
this earth bound cage
My sad hands hang limply at my sides
for there's no one to hold
not anymore
Everything fades away
but I still stand here
wishing the same as my poor soul
I bleed
I can bleed forever
stay in a near death state forever
but still stay clinging to this pitiful life
I want to live
but not like this
I want to live and die
along your side
but it can't happen
not like this
Not with this cross tied to my heart
not with this quilt of lost friends
I tried to forget
to move forward
but I live because of my lost loves heart
and because of my long ago friends greed
Now its only fate
fate that won't meet me at her pearly gates
I know where the people I love are
but with dried blood on my hands
I know I won't see them again
not even in death
For they flew high
like the angels they where
and I will fall
fall into the darkness I see
every waking hour
and met every night
The sky cries my tears
feels my pain
but that's all that will happen
because of what I have become
and of what I have done
I have lived too many years
lived to many lives
to become innocent once more
and to remember what I was before
before my lost love died
before my friend killed in front of my eyes