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A/N: I'd like to thank everyone who reviewed. A few people said it was confusing so I hope it's less confusing now.

Rory's POV

"Why did he say good bye" I cried on my mother's shoulder.

"When are you going to understand that all he does is hurt you" she asked.

"I really like him mom"

"Honey you're 12 you have plenty of time to like many other guys"

"I'll be 13 soon!"

"Rory"

"I know I know but when he came back I thought that maybe it was I don't know I just want to be alone please"

She nodded and walked out of my room closing the door behind her.

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Jess's POV

You screwed up big time. I told myself over and over and over again. I hurt her again just like I always do. When did I start caring. I didn't. I don't care about her. Except I do.

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Rory's POV

Why do I let him get into my head? Why do I care so much about whom he's with or where? I shouldn't. I never cared about some stupid guy. Lane was always obsessed over guys. I think it's because she thinks it's a big deal because her mom won't let her even look a guy in the eye. I on the other hand never get jealous of some slut because she's with a guy I like. I don't want to like him. He's rude to everyone. No one likes him. Except me.

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Jess's POV

"I'm sorry" Rory and I said at the same time.

"No I'm sorry" we did it again.

"You first" we did it yet again. People are going to think we rehearse. She motioned towards me.

"I shouldn't have been so I don't know but I shouldn't have brought her there I didn't know you'd react the way you did" I thought about the way she reacted and found myself getting mad "although you really had no reason to react like that it's not like you own the bridge and you certainly don't own me."

"Whoa I'm sorry I overreacted you have every right to be with whoever you want to be with do what ever you want to do wherever you want to do it" she apologized.

"Come on we better go the bus should be here any minute you getting on here right" I asked.

"Yea there's no way I can get home in time"

"Come on" I led her out of the diner.

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Rory's POV

The last bell rang and the three of us walked out of the building. It was raining. I loved the rain. It was refreshing. It was just all around great. I used to be scared of lightning. I got over it. I loved the rain too much to let a little bolt of electricity spoil it for me. Lane hated the rain she ran to catch the bus instead of walking to Luke's with us after school like usual. For awhile last year we walked to school it's only 3.2 miles but we were too tired in the morning so we just took the bus. Now we only walk after school when we have slightly more energy. Jess liked the rain too and had no problem walking.

"Shit I forgot my homework oh well" he shrugged. I turned around and walked back into the school. I knew exactly where his locker was. I opened it. He had told me the combination after much begging on my part and asking why on his. I got out his homework and turned around and he was gone. I looked around the corner and saw him and Shane.

"Whoa" I shielded my eyes.

"Hey little miss good girl" Shane smiled.

"Hey future pregnant high school drop out" I smiled and walked away to a stairwell I knew led to the roof.

Jess followed me as Shane told him to leave it alone that I wasn't worth his time. She was probably right. Jess caught up with me and grabbed my arm spinning me around to face him.

"What could you possibly see in her" I fought back tears.

"Rory"

"I know it's not my business but Jess you could do so much better the Slutty Shane"

"The girl I like doesn't like me"

"Ever asked her have you ever went up to her and told her you liked her" I asked "have you even thought about and if you did how close did you get to going through with your plan did you get there just to find him with someone else"

"Her"

"What"

"You said him which leads me to believe that we're no longer talking about me is everything ok"

"We're still talking about you let's just leave it at that" I said.

"Rory I think I…" I kissed him. Softly at first barely touching but then he pulled me closer slipping his arms around my waist. The rain pounded on our heads drowning out all other noises. Thankfully the school was away from the town so there was no risk of anyone seeing us. We were lost in the kiss for what seemed like half a second but was really a couple minutes. I pulled away and just looked at him for a couple seconds before letting my gaze fall to my shoes.

"This doesn't change anything" he walked through the door. A minute later I saw him walking out the door and away from the school. I fell to the ground. My salty tears mixed with the cool crisp rain. I didn't even know which drops were my own tears or the sky's. Eventually I got cold not really knowing whether it was because of the cold rain or the icy feeling I got when Jess left so quickly. Why do we always walk out on each other?

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Jess's POV

Why do I always walk away? Why do I screw up? Why do I try so hard not to care when I really do? I stop. I'm not far. I can still turn back. But I won't. I go over it in my mind then decide it's not worth it. I can have any girl in that school I want why go after what I can't have but I'll stand here until I can't stare at this wall anymore. I'm under a cover protected from the rain no risk of getting sick so why leave. I hear foot steps and look to see who's they are. She's standing there. She has no jacket and she's soaking wet coughing, shivering, and rubbing her arms. I take off my jacket and hand it to her. She instantly wraps it around her small cold body. She's still shivering but not as bad. She stares at me wondering how anyone could possibly run so hot and cold no doubt.

"Bipolar" she mumbles. All I could do is smirk. I didn't say a word. I just stood there giving her my famous smirk.

"You have a cell" I asked.

She nods.

"Why don't you call your mom ask her to come pick you up" I suggest.

"And you?"

"No I'm fine to walk"

"You'll get sick"

"Maybe but I'm ok I don't have a birthday party coming up I can afford to get a little cold"

"I really want you to be there"

"Your grandparents…"

"Are old and won't remember in a few years"

"Your grandmother is only 54"

"They'll get over it"

"They're Gilmores"

"Llama"

"That was brutal you ripped its head off because it made you fall Burgermeister Meisterburger"

"You're comparing me to a fictional character that banned toys"

"Yes"

"Call your mom Rory"

She called her mom. They had a very brief conversation by their standards. She stared at me after she had hung up the phone. It was empty. Yet it was so full. You could see hurt and anger, confusion and distrust, and something else I couldn't identify something I know I had never seen in anyone else's eyes.

"Why do we always do that" she asked.

"Do what?"

"We fight then one of us walks away and then everything is fine again a little while later but still nothing is resolved and we end up fighting about the same thing again" she stated our pattern.

"It's a vicious cycle" I half joked.

Her mom pulled up and she walked towards the jeep. I stayed put and she grabbed my hand half pulling me into the car.

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Emily's POV

I've counted 61 there should only be 60. Him that boy in the corner he shouldn't be here. His jeans are ripped and his hair is messy. He must be crashing. I walked up to the young man and stood next to him for a moment hoping he would catch on and leave. He didn't. Not a very bright one.

"I'm going to have to ask you to leave"

"Come on it's not like I spiked the whole bowl and I got permission" the boy ran his hand through his hair.

"I don't know what you're talking about but this is a private party and you were not invited"

"Yes I was"

"I'm sorry"

"Rory invited me"

"I told Rory only one friend"

"Yes which I think is sort of strange considering there's got to be at least 50 people here"

"There should be 60 there are 61"

"Don't you think it's sort of unfair that Rory only gets to invite 1 person out of 60 to her own birthday?"

"The rest of the guests are people she needs to meet for when she goes to Chilton"

"Right Chilton well Rory isn't here she's upstairs where I was headed before you came over here now if you'll excuse me"

"You will not go upstairs I will go up and bring my granddaughter down here it's very rude of her not to be down here you will leave never come back and certainly never talk to my granddaughter you are not of her class" I walked upstairs.

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Jess's POV

"What was that about" Lorelai walked over to me from where she was standing in the middle of the room.

"She thought I crashed the party"

"Well normally I'd say that's enough reason for another shot but you probably need to be somewhat sober now that she's suspicious"

"Are we getting along" I asked.

She nodded then looked scared and walked away.

"I hate this" I heard Rory yell "I don't know anyone and that DuGray kid is getting on my last nerve"

There was a pause probably where her grandmother was talking "No I don't want to hear about status" another pause "Jess is my friend" another longer pause "I don't want this life I'm not going to be the new and improved Lorelai I'm not going to make up for everything my mom never did"

"Don't you talk to me like that young lady you apologize" her grandmother was now yelling."

"Hell no"

There was a crash and Mrs. Gilmore came down the stairs I ran up the stairs ignoring her calling for me to come back down. I looked around for the room she was in. I heard a noise and opened a door. Rory was on the floor crying surrounded my glass. She looked up and saw me and pulled a lamp shade over her head. It was hard not to laugh.

"What happened?"

"She knocked over a lamp"

I raised my eyebrows.

"Don't ask" she added.

She put one hand down on the floor then gasped ad picked it up holding it tightly with the other hand.

I went into the bathroom inside the room and got a towel to wrap around her hand. I went back into the room and tried to take her hand but she pulled it away.

"Ror" I coaxed.

She shook her head.

"Trust me" she gave me her hand and I wrapped the wet cloth around it.

"Thank you"

"I'm going to look for a band aid or something there's no glass in your skin it just cut it" I went to look for a band aid. I found one and put in on the cut.

Rory stood up and opened a drawer she pulled out a frog box and took out two twenties.

"Come on" she opened a window and began to climb out. I followed.

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Rory's POV

I walked along the unfamiliar street. In Stars Hollow I always know where I was going. Here I have no clue. Jess is silently walking next to me. I want to talk. I want to tell him exactly what I need to tell him but I can't. I can't get my mouth to move. Even if I could I don't think I'd trust my voice.

"Say something"

"Taxi" I wave at the little yellow car. It stops and I ask if he takes credit cards he nods and I tell him to go to Stars Hollow. He looks at me and smiles. He used to live there but left one day about ten years ago and hasn't gone back since now he has a reason to go back.

The car stops in front of Luke's and we get out. As I hand him the credit card he says it's on the house and thanks us for giving him a reason to go home and I thank him in my head for bringing me home because in that taxi hearing his story of how he left after losing someone he cared about I knew I couldn't let that happen to me.

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Jess's POV

I opened the door to the diner and walked in Rory followed me I was thinking about the cabby's story. It was pathetic yet for some reason it made sense. I walked behind the counter and started a pot of coffee Rory sat at the counter with her head on it. She looked amazing. I had never seen her in a dress. This wasn't just a dress either it looked like a wedding dress but it was blue. I had instantly regretted wearing jeans and an old t-shirt when I saw her. The door opened and Shane walked in.

"Jesse" she squealed then looked at Rory "what is she doing here?"

"Nice to see you again Shane… oh thanks…we really need to catch up… I've been great and you" Rory rolled her eyes.

"What a freak" Shane mumbled. I laughed. She smiled thinking I was laughing at what she said when I was really laughing with Rory who was practically on the floor behind her flipping her hair and acting like Shane.

"Jesse where have you been I called but you didn't answer"

"I have a life" I told her.

"And a name that doesn't end in an E" Rory stated.

"Duh it ends in a Y which is sometimes a vowel" Shane said proudly. Rory laughed.

"Shane I'll call you tomorrow I'm busy"

"The only person here is little miss good girl" Shane laughed.

"I seriously hope they don't ban abortions in this state for your sake" she looked at me then at Shane "Not hers"

"She deserves it" she added quietly and walked out.