Realizations
Heart Hush
"Rodney, you're going on this vacation! That's an order." Elizabeth stated firmly. "It's just not from me but the SGC as well."
"But I have too much to do . . ." Rodney started.
"Radek will be able to handle what needs to be done. There is no negotiation. You're going!" Elizabeth interrupted.
"But . . ."
"You're going. In fact you're leaving right now." Elizabeth smirked at him. "Stargate Command has already bought you new clothes for your vacation and they're waiting for you at the Mountain."
With that statement, the gate whooshed open and Rodney was quickly hustled through the gate and to Cheyenne Mountain. Daniel was waiting for him at the foot of the ramp. Rodney glared at him and hissed, "This vacation is all your idea isn't it? How could you do this to me?"
"Easy," Daniel replied with a smug smirk. "You need a vacation. Time away from Atlantis will be good for you. Now, let's go! The helicopter is waiting for you up at the top to take you to San Francisco."
Daniel grabbed Rodney's arm and quickly ushered him out of the room and to the elevator. "Daniel," Rodney whined. "I don't want to go."
"I don't care! You're going." Daniel said quietly.
"But . . ."
"No buts!"
Rodney walked into the Hilton, grumbling to himself about the high handedness of certain genius archeologists. A glimpse of messy, black hair out of the corner of his eye made him look up sharply into a pair of hazel eyes. Rodney's breath hitched as he looked into the face of the man he had not seen in almost a year. John then began to walk toward him. John's eyes were locked on his and Rodney couldn't look away. Rodney took a deep breath and waited. John stopped in front of him and smiled, "Hello, Rodney."
Rodney smiled back and stuck out his hand. "Hello, John."
Rodney couldn't believe that he was shaking John's hand like they were just old acquaintances who hadn't seen each other for awhile. He just couldn't believe it; at one time they were lovers. They were married and he had thought that they were soul mates. "So Rodney, how have you been?" John asked him.
"Good. I've been good. I have been very busy at work and you?" Rodney responded, forcing a jovial tone.
"I've been good." John stated, an easy going smile on his face. "I've bee traveling all around the U.S., seeing the sites, ya know?"
"Yes, yes," Rodney mumbled. He still couldn't believe that he was standing here with John, the love of his life, talking about inconsequential things. He remembered passion filled nights and sneaking around Atlantis for the occasional quickie when they were hiding their relationship and even sneaking around even more when their relationship was out in the open. As he stood there talking to John, he had to restrain himself from wanting to hold John one more time. It was over.
He had to remember that it was over. He kept telling himself that John was gone and not to look down that empty road. He had to remember not to say anything stupid. His heart though paid no head to his intellect. It cried out for John and Rodney mentally screamed. It's over! You can't have him, so heart just hush. After a while, he started to look down at his watch like he needed to be somewhere soon and then smiled at John. "It's good to see you again but I need to go check in. I'm supposed to be joining a tour group soon." He said, lying through his teeth, needing to get away from John.
John looked at him intently and then stepped forward. He cupped Rodney's face in both hands and kissed him tenderly. Rodney's eyes fluttered close and he kissed John back. John leaned back from the kiss and whispered, "Are you really joining a tour group?"
"No," Rodney whispered back, hope welling in his heart.
"Good, I think we need to talk." John stated softly, rubbing his thumb along Rodney's lower lip.
"Ok," Rodney replied happily and John smiled at him.
TBC
Heart Hush
Reba McEntire
His head turned and my heart jumped
When I saw that it was him
After two long years the love of my life
And I just held my breath here
Standing there smiling with his eyes locked on mine
He couldn't hear me screaming on the inside
Chorus:
When I said tear don't you fall
He's gone let him go
Eyes don't look back
Down that empty road
And lips you may move
But don't you say too much
And please, please heart hush
I said something stupid
And reached out my hand
After making love and movin' earth
We were shaking hands
A million sweet memories pinballed through my brain
The want to hold him one more time
Ran through my veins
Chorus
I kept lookn' at my watch
Like I had somewhere to be
Then he stopped talkn'
And kissed me tenderly
Chorus
Zha'hai'vallv'a