Realizations
Only God
John and Rodney followed the bellhop up to their room. They both had rapidly come to the conclusion that Jack and Daniel had played matchmaker. They now owed Jack and Daniel but they'd figure out how to pay them back later. After the bellhop had left, they cuddled up on the couch together. They just needed to hold each other and bask in each other's presence. "I missed you so much, John." Rodney whispered into John's ear.
"Same," John replied softly, "I may have traveled all over the U.S. and Canada trying to forget you but it failed. No matter where I went nothing could make me forget you."
"I tried working your memory away." Rodney mumbled softly, "But no matter how hard I tried, it just didn't work."
"We were fools weren't we?"
"Yeah."
John leaned back into Rodney and sighed, "You know, no matter where I went, I thought about you. In Arizona, I imagined you beside me overlooking the Grand Canyon. I could hear your snide remarks and everything. I went skiing in the Canadian Rockies and I saw you beside me, complaining about the cold and snow."
"Really?"
"Really."
"Oh," Rodney whispered. He gently turned John's face toward him and gently kissed him. They kissed for several minutes, not wanting to stop. They parted and pressed their foreheads together. "Atlantis just wasn't the same without you."
John chuckled sadly, "We really screwed up our lives didn't we?"
"Yes, but it's not going to happen again." Rodney stated firmly. "Neither of us are going to let it happen again."
"Rodney?"
"Yes, John?"
"Do you really want to stay a week here?"
"Ummmm." Rodney looked around the plush suite and thought about how the Hilton's manager gave them a look of disgust and the barely contained distaste in some of the staff's eyes. "No, I don't think I want to stay here."
"Good." John got up and grabbed his and Rodney's bags. "Let's go!"
Rodney got up and followed him out the door. "So where are we going?"
"I've got an RV. Let's drive down the coast. We can spend time alone together without worrying about people bothering us."
Rodney smiled happily, "Good idea."
They quickly checked out of the Hilton and started driving down the coast of California. Looking for a lonely spot to park and just be together with no disturbances. They found the perfect spot just as twilight fell. They set up camp and John turned on the radio and tuned it to a local country station. Rodney listened to it for a bit, "Your still listening to country, I see."
"Yeah," John sighed. "Come on, dance with me."
He grabbed Rodney and pulled him into his arms. They danced together in silence until one song came on the radio and caught their attention;
We saw the moon in Colorado
We made music in Tennessee
We found the gold of El Dorado
It was so good
Making love you and me
These arms
They will never hold another
This heart
It will always feel like this
Cause only God could stop me from loving you
Only God could tell me not to
He sent you from heaven
Just to make my dreams come true
When he opened the door
That you came walking thru
Only God could stop me loving you
"God, this song," Rodney whispered.
"Yeah," John agreed and they continued to dance to the melody.
Now we struck oil in Oklahoma
We won the Oscar in Hollywood
We climbed the canyons of Arizona
Baby, making love never felt this good
These lips
No other girl will ever kiss
This heart
It will always feel like this
Chorus
There ain't no girl
In the whole wide world
That could take away my heart
And they're ain't no man
To steal your hand and tear us apart
But there is one God
In heaven above
That gave me love
Strong enough to call my heart
Repeat:
Cause only God could stop me from loving you
Only God could tell me not to
After the song was over, Rodney sighed. "The chorus of that song says everything that I feel for you. Only God could stop me from loving you." Rodney chuckled, "That means since I'm an atheist that, that will be forever. Nothing will stop me."
"That was Emerson Drive and Only God (Will Stop Me From Loving You)."
John kissed Rodney's temple, "Yeah, well that song said everything about what I feel for you as well. These lips no other will ever kiss, these arms will never hold another, this heart . . ." he leaned back and looked into Rodney's eyes, "This heart will always feel like this. Always Rodney, I think it's already been proven. Even with out separation I never stopped loving you. Not once."
They leaned their foreheads together and looked into each others eyes. "We're going to have to get a copy of this song." Rodney whispered.
"Yeah," John whispered back and leaned closer to kiss Rodney. This wasn't going to happen again. Neither one of them would let this happen again.
Owari
Author's Note: That's it, that's the end. No more. The angst is over and the sap begins. If anyone wants to write the hot and heavy makeup sex, go ahead. I've tried and failed at writing porn or else I would have done it. If you do, let me know and let me archive it.
Zha'hai'vallv'a!