Confessions of Rika Nonaka (Ruki Makino)

Chapter 2:
>>>>>Ryu Akiyama is a no good, two-faced, hot headed, saucy, conceited, stupid,arrogant, retarded, dumbass, fagtard, damned, shitty, fucking idiot! I wonder why I actually said "yes" to that guy. He maybe my friend, but when it comes to digimon…he will be, and remain forever be, MY ARCH ENEMY!

I mean it about calling him 'perfect' in the digital world. Mainly because he is. But once you get to know him, he is so cocky! He is such a dick head! He saw me only one of his damn whores. I wonder what kept he and Alice strong...

I see him more as a brother than anything really. He sees me as his goddess. I wonder what caused me to think he was perfect. He's not! Ew! I look at him and think back what I said before, I totally regret it! He was able to get through me easily, well I'm not letting that happen ever again.

Everyone was shocked when I first went out with Ryu. He made sure EVERYONE knew. Jeri and Goggle Head congradulated, Kazu and Kenta were shocked, andAlice seemed to not mind. Suzi started crying and ran away. I didn't understand that. Henry completely ignored me for months. I didn't understand that either. But I shoved it off. We started talking again when I bumped into him duringafter school. He offered to walk me home.

"What made you go out with him?" He asked many questions without even bothering to look at me.
"I wanted to see how it would work."
"Seriously?"
"Yeah."
"Oh, is it working out ok so far?"
"I don't know."
"How so?"
"Because he's the one who's making all the decisions."
"Oh, does it bother you?"
"Sometimes. I just hate it when people think they have power over me."
"Do you hate it when people have power over you?"
"I just said..."
"Sorry."
"It's ok..." This conversation was getting weirder and weirder.
"If Takato asked you out, would you go?"
"No! Never that goggle head would ruin my life!" I just said life. I was thinking, do I even have a life?
"So you choose Ryu over him? Even if you knew Takato longer and a lot better than Akiyama?" Henry stared hard at me. Then I went to straight thinking. I know Takato better and longer, it would make sense if I went out with him. Ryu, people might think it would we that fucking love at first sight thing. Ryu treats me like I'm just another girl, so does Henry. Takato just...I don't know how to expalin.
"I don't know." Henry stopped and looked at me. I turned around and stared back at him. It feels like we are spreading farther and farther apart even if we haven't moved an inch.
"So why did you go out with Ryu?"
"I already answered..."
"Was it the truth?" Henry just stared at me right in the eye. I didn't know what to do. It was a cold hard stare but it was filled with concern. It gave me shivers and it truly scared me.
"Henry, why..." We started walking again but he never let me finished my question.
"You know, having a relationship with someone that has a lot in common with you doesn't keep the balance. It normally leads to shit..." Did Henry just cussed? "When you end up going out with someone who maybe doesn't have a lot in common probably totally opposite, it keeps the balance. Though you may have your differences and it leads to a harsh fight, you need to use those differences to help staying together. Just like Yin and Yang..." he stared at me waiting for me to reply.
"Henry, I don't understand." He finally repsonded when we got in front of my house. He was raging.
"How could you not understand!" his yelling ringed in my ears. I started shivering, I finally understand how Suzy feels when he gets mad. "Ryu is being a jerk to you! How can you not see that? You rather go on with him jerking off, trying to get you do things with him! Why can't you see that? Why choose him over m..." He stopped and calmed down. I stared at him as he turned around.
"I'm sorry Rika,I shouldn't have yelled atyou. I'll see you tomorrow."and he walked off. I wanted to go out to him. I was wondering what was he was trying to finish. Choose Ryu over who?

Ryu wanted to had sex with me the next day. That's how our relationship ended. I broke up with him right there. Henry was right, he took advantage of me and I let him. I feel so fucking weak.

Three weeks later, Ryu started going out with Alice. He stared at me trying to get me jealous. It didn't work.

Three years later is now. And right now, I'm going to Ryu's birthday party.

I didn't want to go. I hated parties. Henry had to say those "C'mon Rika, just go, it won't be that bad."

I went just so I don't have to disappoint anyone. The party was wild. Almost everyone at school was there. There was drugs, drinking, random fucking, screaming, yelling, moaning, loud ass music that you could barely hear, mosh... So much for the 'It won't be that bad!'

I wanted to leave. I was thirsty so I decided to get a drink of water. I didn't want to use anything though because I thought everything would be contaminated. I was able to find Henry, who singled me to 'let's get out of here'. I was stopped by Ryu who was drunk as hell. He dragged me by the arm and tried to force me in a bedroom. He was stopped by Henry and Alice. Alice who was furious from him being drunk trying to get advantage of all the girls he can get and Henry was here just for me.

"Rika, you know you want me. Why be with that opposite of yours, Henry? He's nothing compared to me." He pushed Alice aside and went up to me trying to give me his damn slobber. He was stopped by Henry who pretty much threw him across the room.

"He's such a jerk when he's drunk!" Alice cried so hard when we got out of his house. "I thought he was over with you!"
"Do you think he's telling the truth?" I went up to Alice trying to comfort her.
"I love him so much, I don't want to lose him." Fuck that shit. She still loves him and he just fucking...UGH!
"Alice, c'mon. Let's go." Henry walked both of us home.

"Rika, you were right."
"We shouldn't have gone, but its alright. You didn't know..."
"I should have." We got to my house and he did his normal turn around and walk away and say 'see you later'. He's normally unpredictable, but today, his every moved, I seem to know what he was going to do.

The next day, Ryu tried apologizing to all of us. We forgave him too easily. Alice was pretty much our giveaway. I'm still not forgiving him from he has done, but I think he needed reassurement after what happened. I think he is truly sorry. But really, Henry and I were thinking otherwise.

This chapter is not that funny, but whatever. I called it Confessions of Rika Nonaka because Rika is truly really expressing herself here, don't ya think? She is kind of OOC, but not fully.

Kyomona