Welcome! After this, two chapters left to our 3rd climax—and the end of this story. I personally like this story. A lot. This is going to be a really fun chapter to type up. Keep in mind here: MAJOR TIME LAPSE.

DISCLAIMER: no. And I don't own MCR, either.

RATED: T for language, mature themes, and slight violence.

Chapter 10

"It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's a F---ing Deathwish"

24-year-old Danny walked through the door of his home. He immediately ran into his room. The second he closed the door, he almost collapsed on the floor…the way Sammy did…pain…

Soon enough, though, rage consumed him, eating away at the man like a manifestation. Seething, his knees almost buckled. His hands, itching, grabbed at the first thing that they could.

"Why—"

The book landed on the wall, sliding onto the floor helplessly.

"Did—"

His briefcase broke apart, its contents crumpled.

"You—"

His fist made contact with the wall, creating a hole, dark and black just like he was after the both of them left him in the dust.

"LEAVE ME!" he screamed. He punched one last time and fell hopelessly on the bed, choking down tears, gasping for air. His voice was cracking.

"Why…?"

His stomach raised and lowered the way Sammy's used to. His arms twitched, not knowing how to act. His legs…he couldn't feel them. Tears blinded him, and all he could see was what he always saw behind life: a blurred mass of colors and events.

At that moment, he swore he could feel cold lips press against his own…just like…that last night he saw her talk. Her.

"Sam…" he muttered, the tears rolling onto the bedsheets. Soon, a figure appeared in front of him, almost completely transparent.

"Shhh…" she murmured, holding him close in an embrace, ruffling his hair the way she did ten years ago. "Shhh…it's okay…"

"No, it's not!" he screamed. "It's not okay…" he began sobbing uncontrollably again. "Why did you leave me?"

"I never did…"

"Sam…I've tried…I've tried my hardest…to…to do it…and lost…lost him." Danny hugged her back. "It isn't temporary anymore…the damage…"

"Sam, I've missed you so much…why did you leave me? WHY?" he shouted, suddenly consumed with rage again. Sam was wearing the same shade of red on her back where she was hit as the shade of red on Danny's walls in splatters. She didn't notice it, but Danny had scars. Not from battle…but intentional ones on his wrists.

"I never did…"

"You…I want you…please!" he cried. Danny stared into her eyes. All that was left of them now was Sam, him, and her now starless eyes. He wanted so badly to have Sam back…he'd give anything…he'd tried to give everything he had.

"I loved you, Sam. I loved you…" he pressed closer to her, protective of his self.

"I still love you, Danny…I still do," she whispered, holding him closer.

"Oh, Sam…" he muttered, his eyes shut and his tears caking on his face, "I wish that that hole…I was put in…was deeper…because somehow…someway…I crawled out…" Danny no longer moved. All Sam could hear was his chest rising, and the beating of his heart. She wanted to have the things he had so badly, so desperately…and yet…

"Danny…shhh…I'll be around…you're running out of places…"

"To hide from me…Sammykins…" he sobbed. "You're all I've cared for…you're my life..."

"It's okay, Danny…be strong…don't listen to anyone…be your own person…" muttered Sam into his ear. Her hair fell onto his face, and he could smell the same Aloe Vera shampoo she used the day she left him on Earth.

"Those lights, Sammy," he cried, dampening her black shirt that had already been cried into, "they were my last saving grace. They didn't tell me…what I needed…they didn't save me…"

"Danny…this is the hardest part…the challenge…take it…because I don't want to see you because you came purposely…"

"Sam…everyone…" He gasped for breath. "In the end…everyone…will fall…apart…just like the leaves…changing color…" He clutched at her desperately.

"It's okay…everything will be okay…it's all a dream…remember that…" she muttered. Danny was clutching ever harder.

"I've…I've lost my fear of falling…this isn't a fashion statement at all, Sammy…it's a freakin' deathwish…my last wish…"

"No, Danny…no, it isn't…" Sam was horrified. This couldn't be Danny. It couldn't be Danny. Her Danny was fine…emotionally stable…but this man. He wanted to go away, disappear from the earth forever.

"Danny…just follow your heart…and everything will be fine," she said, whispering the last part. She leaned in and gave the crying man the last kiss he would ever receive because she wouldn't be able to come back after this.

Just follow your heart and everything will be fine… she had said. Danny stared in awe as his sweetheart melted away into air. He heard the last statement repeated again and again, his lips tingling and his face pained from the tears.

"But what if you don't have one anymore?" he mutte , s resting on the soft bed, wishing he would just sink into it forevermore.

From that moment on, Danny knew what he had to do. He knew his last duty as his saving grace left.

But he wasn't prepared to face it.

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LYRICS TO IT'S NOT A FASHION STATEMENT, IT'S A F---ING DEATHWISH:

Do you remember when we met you told me this gets harder. Well it did. Been holding on forever. Promise me that when I'm gone you'll kill my enemies. The damage you've inflicted. Temporary wounds. I'm coming back from the dead. And I'll take you home with me. I'm taking back the life you stole. We never got that far. This helps me to think all through the night. Bright lights that won't kill me now. Or tell me how. Just you and I your starless eyes remain. Hip hip hooray for me. You talk to me. But would you kill me in my sleep. Lay still like the dead. From the razor to the rosary. We could lose ourselves and paint these walls in pitchfork red. I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take. I'm coming back from the dead. And I'll take you home with me. I'm taking back the life you stole. This whole you put me in…wasn't deep enough and I'm climbing out right now. You're running out of places. To hid from me. When you go, just know that I will remember you. If living was the hardest part, we'll then one day be together and in the end we'll fall apart, just as the leaves change in color. And then I will e with you. I will be there one last time now. When you go. Just know that I will remember you. I've lost my fear of falling…I will be with you.

Chapter 10

Chapter 11: soon, my dears…

Oh, WOW. This has to be the most dialogue in a chapter I've ever written. For you people wondering what this was: this is a mini-climax in itself. The last three sentences have the most meaning in the story. So yes, this story did serve a purpose. It showed what Danny turned into when he lost everyone. Yes.

Next up: Cemetery Drive. Have fun, dearies! I cannot wait until the last chapter! 'Tis my favorite chapter. And ending.