Jei stared at the carnage around him. Why did it have to be them? Why did they have to die? Why did God not save them? Where were the angels and their miracles? Why couldn't they take him too? Seeing a knife he took it against himself. Finally after a long time of pain and blood, he collapsed onto the ground and cried until he was unconscious.
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
I lay dieing
Jei woke and looked once again upon his slaughtered family. He knew that it was his fault that they were dead. It was because he had been sinful. It was because he had lost salvation.
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Jei looked at the motionless faces wondering if they would remember him now that they were gone.
Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me
Jei looked down at himself. He was covered in blood. It was beautiful, now he looked like them. Taking up the knife again, he brought it up to his face.
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Jei looked up as the men came into the house. He smiled slightly at them. They were there to see that he would be with his family. They would pray for him so he could be with them forever.
My wound cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ?
Tourniquet
My suicide
Across town a group was kneeling in prayer. They were praying for souls of a family. They were praying for the son who had killed them and then had turned a knife upon himself. He had been found smiling over the bodies. There had been blood everywhere.
This story will have Sailor Moon characters in it in the next couple of chapters.