A/N: Just wanted to thank you for the reviews. Luv you guys:)

01-05-06

Tuesday

Finally some action. First we had to stop a bank robbery. The robbers didn't prove to be much of a challenge so we were done with them in a couple of minutes. Just as we got back into the tower we were alerted to a jewelry store at the far side of the city. However when we arrived nothing was wrong. No sign of criminals, the store wasn't robbed and the people haven't seen anything suspicious either. Strange.

The rest of the day was calm. As much as our afternoons can be called calm. First Starfire went to the "mall-of-shopping". A couple of minutes later Robin left on his motorcycle. If they are trying to hide the fact they're a couple they're not good at it. So I spent the rest of the day with Cyborg and Beast Boy. Well, actually, I spent most of the time with Beast Boy as Cyborg went to work on the T-car again (I know how he feels about that car, but this seems to be getting sick).

Beast Boy was surprisingly serious. No stupid jokes, no comments about my "creepiness"… I wonder if he's all right. I could feel that he was bothered by something, but he wouldn't say anything and I didn't want to pry. He didn't even answer when I asked him what was wrong. He just kept telling "I just don't wanna talk about it right now". The only thing that bothers me more than his jokes is when he behaves like this. Doesn't he know how much that worries me…I mean us, as the Teen Titans? He's my teammate and (although it doesn't seem to be true) my friend as well.

I just worry too much. I'm sure tomorrow he'll be okay again. He's just tired or something like that. Speaking of which, I need to sleep as well. It's almost midnight. Goodnight.

01-06-06

Wednesday

2:31 A.M.

I'm awake. I had a nightmare again. About my father of course. I saw him standing in front of me, his hands bloody. We were in the city (I can't recall where exactly) and the sky was black, yet it wasn't night as I could see him and everything else perfectly. Buildings were burning, cars exploding and I could hear screams. But my attention was fixed on something else. On the body which lay at the feet of my father. It was Beast Boy. I don't know what this means, but I'm sure I won't fall asleep again today. I can feel my heart pounding so hard it almost hurts. Let's see…a mirror was broken and there are some new cracks on my new window (Cyborg's going to kill me if he finds out).

5:24 A.M.

I'm still awake, though I feel sleepy. I should've tried to rest at least. My head hurts again. I'm getting dizzy as well. What's wrong with me? I'll try and sleep a bit.

10:11 P.M.

I feel as I if I'd be dying. I'm in the infirmary. The others told me they'd found me unconscious, lying next to my bed and shivering in the morning. I was immediately brought here and was given some pills. Cyborg said I had a fever. I feel so cold. I'm glad Starfire brought me my diary so I can write this down. Maybe I won't have another chance. Maybe I really am dying. In that case:

I'd like to say goodbye to you all. Starfire, Beast Boy, Cyborg, and Robin…you were like a family to me. If you're reading this I'm probably dead (if I'm not dead and you're reading this without my permission I'll kill you personally!). I just wanted to apologize for the way I'd behaved so many times. All the things I've said and done…I never meant to hurt you in any way. Don't mourn me, as I don't deserve it. I hope you'll find a good replacement for me. That's all I wanted to say. Goodbye.

Raven

P.S.: I was happy to spend all these years with you.