Apology and Jealousy

I'm back at sanctuary and ready for the worst as I enter the lab to see Adam and give him my excuses as to where I was last night. I go through the lab doors and see Adam as he is apparently running some tests on the lab equipments; I stand near the door and clear my throat to get his attention. He rises from his concentration and gives me a worried glance as he shakes his head and says, "Well, good morning Shalimar", I look back at him and reply calmly "the same to you Adam." He keeps his eyes fastened to mine for a moment before returning his attention back to the computer monitor, "I'm sorry for not coming home last night. I was with a friend and lost track of time, it was late and I didn't want to bother anyone so I stayed at a hotel for the night. I'm sorry for not telling anyone" I look to the ground and wait for Adam to respond.

I hear a few taping sounds coming from Adam as he taps at the keyboard, he keeps his eyes to the screen before saying "I trust that what ever is bothering you, that you'll tell me what it is. So I wont press this matter further, if you want to tell me what exactly is going on with you then please tell me." He stands to his full height and folds his arms loosely across his chest before continuing, "and as for your apology, I except. Just please me more careful the next time you decide to fly solo for a while." And with that I have heard enough, I give him a weak smile and I leave the lab.

I make my way to my room, when I get there I open the door and close it behind me as I turn around I'm surprised to see Emma sitting calmly on my bed looking up at me. She gives me a look of concern, her shoulders are bunched up and I can tell that she's moved from calm to worried. I look away from her for a moment and try to gather my scattering thoughts, I know I want her to leave, but a part of me wants her to stay. But I know that I can't let her stay, I can't talk about this right now, so I force myself to look back at her and ask her "why are you here Emma?" she looks at me and I can tell that she's trying to read my cold expression instead of using her powers.

"Where were you Shalimar, we were so worried", I try not to feel bad but I can't help it I walk towards my dresser to pull out my workout clothes. I have my back to her since for some reason looking at her right now makes me feel vulnerable, like I'm hiding from her but she finds me anyways. "I was out with a friend, I lost track of time-","what friend?" she interrupts as I hear her burst off of my bed so fast that I was beginning to feel alarmed, her tone had changed for the moment it was as if she was trying to accuse me of something.

My back is still turned away from her and for some reason I feel myself imagine what she looks like right now, how her hand is brushing through her hair. How her face and eyes are directed at me, how her voice is demanding to hear what I was trying to forget. I doubt she knows about the drinking, and like hell if I'm gunna admit to it, it's none of her business anyways.

I pull out a black sleeveless shirt and hold it in my hands as if it will give me some sort of security, I feel her get closer to me and I know that I better tell her what she wants to know, but I lie anyways. "My friend Tara from high school, I met up with her last night and we stayed up together", I feel the air grow with intensity as Emma says nothing but I can already tell what she's thinking. The mood has changed and I can literally feel the jealously reeking out of her veins.

The feeling is so strong that I'm convinced that it's from Emma; she must not realize that she's letting me feel that emotion. I don't want to say anything because I don't want to embarrass her so I just stand there looking for a pair of pants to go with the work out outfit. She's trying to calm herself and when she finally does say something she says "and what did you guys do last night?" I smirk and spin myself around to see Emma who is desperately trying to hide the fact that she's jealous and worries that I spent the night screwing this 'Tara' girl.

I feel that guilt again and I hate it with a passion, I look at her and try to reassure her that nothing like what she's thinking happened. "Emma, we just talked for a bit, it got late so I left to go to a hotel room buy my self and sleep the few hours left of the night off". She looks at me and I can tell that she desperately wants to believe me that she needs to believe that I'm telling the truth, that nothing happened. "Ok Shalimar, I just want to make sure that you were safe. I didn't want to think that you were drinking and passed out only to wake up in a hotel room, that wouldn't be stupid!" and I try to hide the smirk on my lips because she's just so cute when she says things like that.

I turn around and try to hide my smirk but I hear her call out to me "Shal? Where you drinking last night?" "No Emma, I was with a friend while being completely sober. You've got nothing to worry about" I think I said that a little to fast. I turn around to see Emma with her arms crossed and a raised eyebrow, she can't help but think I'm lying. I really need to work on my lying.

"Relax Em, I wasn't drinking, now if you can excuse me I would like to get changed" and with that Emma gets up shines me a little to loving of a smile and leaves my room. I'm a little shocked but I force it out of my mind since I'm keen on not being involved or even considering being with my best friend in a more than friendly way. So I get changed and make my way to the Dojo for a well needed workout.