What do you Want?
As I enter the lab with most of the tape still on my hands I see the one and only Emma standing next to Adam. My heart skips a beat as my eyes meet Emma's as I dread the idea that Emma might of have a little chat with Adam.
I keep my silence as I wait for Adam to tell me what he needs to say before I even begin to think about defending myself. While Adam turns his attention back to me he says, "Shalimar, sorry did I interrupt something?" I smile and raise my sweaty and bloody fist in the air as I say, "nope, just working out some stuff the old fashion way."
"Well it's good that your keeping up with boxing, and please don't forget to clean those bloody hands of yours, some of have to eat you know." Adam says to me in his quirky tone as I smile sheepishly at him while playing with the rest of the tape on my hands.
Emma just looks at me occasionally, I know that she's trying to get my attention but I try to ignore her since I suddenly don't feel the urge to work out more of my frustrations out because of her.
So I pay attention to what Adam is trying to tell me as I continue to play with the tape on my hands. After a few moments of partly listening to Adam, I'm brought back to reality when he says, "and so forth, I'm going to need you two to get back into that military base and plant this virus on this disk on the main computer of the facility."
"What!" I practically yell out as I could have sworn that I heard Adam say something about me going on a mission with Emma. I look to Emma who's looking back at me with a weird smile on her face as she says, "didn't you hear the man Shal? It seams that we are going to be working together again."
All of a sudden I feel a strange urge, the urge that I feel is well, I think it's anxiety as I feel like running a marathon after how Emma just said what she just said, and that weird smile on her face didn't help much either.
But being determined to keep things natural around Emma, especially around Adam I quickly respond with a, "Right, gotcha. So why are we going back to the military base?" I ask as I try to avoid the odd look from Adam, while trying to ignore the distracting giggle from Emma.
"Well" Adam responded as he moved to his desk to retrieve a disk from a drawer that had a four digit number written on it, "We need this virus that Jesse just developed to be placed into the hard drive of the major computer in the base so that we can monitor there supplies. See what's going in and what's coming out, with this information it'll be easier to know the location of these classified mutants."
Adam paused for a moment as he typed a few keys into the computer, "another great thing about this virus, is that it's totally undetectable so they won't know that we are in there. And when the opportunity is right, we'll be able to shut down there computer systems and erase everything they have. Which is very bad for them and very good for us."
"Ok great, so when do Shal and I go in there and plant there going away present?" Emma asked as she smiled at Adam's chuckle. "Well, you have about an hour and a half, so if I were you, I'd get ready." "Sure thing" Emma and I both said at the same time as I hurried to leave the lab to go back to my room and think.
But as I was about to leave the lab Adam called out saying, "Emma do me a favor and help Shalimar to clean her boxing wounds up. Just don't want her to forget like she usually does." He said as I closed my eyes and mouthed a very dirty word to myself.
I practically envisioned and felt the smile appear on Emma face as I spun myself around to say, "ah no thank you that won't be necessary" I smiled as I tried to ignore the accusing look on Emma's face as Adam just stood there in puzzlement.
"Now Shalimar, don't be ridiculous. I'm just going to help you get your priorities straight." Emma responded as her arms moved to cross themselves neatly across her chest. "And what's that supposed to mean?" I ask as I wonder what kind of hidden message she's trying to get across to me.
"It means" Emma says as she moves to the cabinet that's only a few steps away from her to retrieve a role of bandages and a tube of antiseptic, "that you need to swallow your pride and let someone take care of you." Emma finishes as Adam looks on with a knowing grin on his face.
I take a deep breath and try to calm myself as my eyes follow the curl of Emma's smile and then the twinkle in her eyes as I finally find the power in me to look away. As I turn around to leave the lab I immediately feel her follow me closely as we walk towards the ledge out-looking the in-door pond.
We site down close to each other while I avoid her eyes and pray that this torture is over soon. I keep my attention on her hands as she grabs my left hand and starts to remove the tape; she's careful and quiet except for her mellow hums as I listen in wonder.
I feel her eyes on me again and I start to feel tiny butterflies in the pit of my stomach as the softness of her hands begin to sooth me but make me anxious as I try to wait patiently. When she's done putting the antiseptic and bandages on my now tape less left hand, she moves to my right as I react to the lose of her touch in my left hand.
After a few moments later when Emma's about to take the last of the tape off of my hands I hear her humming stop. I keep my eyes down as I hear a soft giggle come from Emma's lips before she says, "I've been thinking about you a lot Shalimar." I gulp at this random intrusion as I ask, "why?"
She smiles, and I begin to blush as she then says to me, "I'm not sure if there isn't a reason to be thinking about you." I gulp again as I don't say a word, I'm not sure what to say and all I know is that I don't want her to stop caressing my hand as I now realize that she's finished fixing my hand.
She's been finished for maybe a few moments now and she's now holding my hand in her left hand as her right hand caresses the back of my hand. She smiles at me before she continues, "I just wanted to say that I am truly sorry for invading you. I did something to you that I know was the worst thing that I could have done."
She looks down to my hand in hers for the moment as she continues, "what I did, was something that normal people would go to jail for. I wasn't thinking straight when I did what I did, all I wanted was to feel you again, feel what you felt that night. I needed it, but I should have asked permission, I know that. I should have asked you, should have told you what I wanted, but I thought I knew what you wanted but I guess I don't."
Emma stops talking for a moment as she licks her lips and moves her free hand to lift my chin up so that I'm look at her in the eyes before she asks, "What do you want Shalimar? Tell me, I want and need to know." I'm staring into her eyes and I'm in awe by the deep blue color of her eyes.
She's smiling at me and then whispers the pleading words with the emphasis of her eyes as she asks again, "tell me, please". I'm breathing harder as my eyes drop to her lips as I remember the soft and moist lips against mine whenever I'm alone at night with my thoughts.
She's moved closer to me and I begin to feel overwhelmed as I part my lips to answer, "I don't know". She just looks at me as I can tell that she's studying my facial expression as she lets the tension in the air hang for a moment longer.
With not a moment later I feel her move even closer to me as her lips that I have been staring at move closer to mine. With only a breath away from my lips I feel my heart pump like crazy in my chest, so loud that I swear that Emma can here it to. I still have my lips parted as Emma closes the gab between us and softly kisses my lips.
She sucks softly on both my bottom and top lip as I feel every ounce of my common sense leave me when I respond to her amazing kisses. We start of slowly as out tender kisses test the moment as we go deeper. With Emma's lips parted just enough I guide my tongue into her mouth as my lips latch onto hers, as soon as I taste her and feel her tongue against mine I move my hand to cover her thigh.
After barley a moment later, I realize what I'm doing and I immediately pull away, much to both Emma and apparently my disappointment. Her eyes slowly open as she smiles at me, but her smile disappears when she sees the look on my face. She bows her head and sits very still as I jump back off of the ledge and walk slowly back to my room.