Emma's Confession
I gently close the door behind me when I finally find my way back to my room. I close it as gently as I can as I stand in front of my door with my right hand positioning me so that I won't fall. I feel my body shaking uncontrollably as I raise my shaky left hand to brush away loose strands of hair from my face.
I lick my lips and taste the attractive flavor of Emma all over them as I try to control myself from un-pure thoughts about someone that I should not be thinking about in that way. I feel my legs wobble and my core shake and throb, as I can't help but remember every move Emma made.
I force my other hand to place itself against the door as I try to control the physical effect Emma's kisses seemed to have on me. "Emma" I say through a tortured whisper as I resist the urge to relieve myself of the throbbing pulsating arousal that I feel because of her.
I ignore it as best as I can as I try to remind myself that Emma doesn't truly know what she wants, that Emma only thinks she knows what she wants. I try to remember everything I said that night when I was at the bar, but I can't remember anything other then Emma's lips and her tongue as I close my eyes painfully tight as I try to think about anything other then her.
But all I can think about is Emma and how her body sways when she walks, how perfect her breasts look with every shirt she wears. How her smile is so comforting while her eyes look so deeply into mine, and how her touch could mean the difference between a good day and a bad day.
"Stop it Shalimar!" I say out loud with gritted teeth, as my eyes remain closed as a single tear escapes my eyes as more threaten to break through as I try so hard to control myself. I cry harder, not because I'm sad, but because I'm so completely frustrated and lost. I can't understand why my life suddenly has become so difficult, why is this happening to me? Why does it seem that every ounce of control that I had was all destroyed with just one of her sweet kisses?
Shalimar thought to herself as she pushed herself away from her bedroom door and moved to her bathroom where she grabbed a towel off of the towel rack and threw it carelessly to the floor next to the shower. She slowly began to undress herself as she dropped each article of clothing down to the ground, trying to envision each article of her clothing as each worry in the world that infected her mind at the moment.
The water was warm and soothing as Shalimar felt the heat relax her tense muscles as she tried hard not to let the water wet her hair. She expertly avoided the water from wetting her hair as she casually cleaned the salty sweat from her body as she ignored the fact that the bandages on her hands were beginning to come off.
But with each touch of the wet bandages only made her remember the person who lovingly cared for her not fifteen minutes before. It was hard not to think of her, it was strange to Shalimar that she would feel so relaxed and comforted by the thought of Emma when she was feeling the exact opposite of her just fifteen minutes ago.
What's going on with me? Shalimar thought to herself as she rinsed off the last of the soapy residue before turning off the warm water then getting out of the shower. As soon as Shalimar's wet body hit the air outside of the shower curtain, she shivered uncontrollably as she struggled to pick up her towel and dry herself quickly.
Her breasts swayed back and forth as she hurriedly dried herself off before wrapping the towel around her waist as she casually walked to her bathroom door and turned the knob slightly to the left to unlock it before turning it to the right to open the door.
If it wasn't for Shalimar's bandaged hand that blocked her sight as she used her teeth to rip apart the bandage on her left hand as her right hand held onto the door. She could have caught the very aroused and pleased expression on the face of an also very speechless brunet who sat on Shalimar's bed quietly.
"Wow" was all Emma could mutter as her eyes were practically glued to the breasts that hung freely on Shalimar's bare chest as Shalimar stopped dead in her tracks as she moved her eyes to peer on Emma who still didn't remove her eyes from Shalimar.
"SHIT!" Shalimar exclaimed as she turned herself around so fast that she slammed her head right against the doorpost as she moaned in pain, "Fucker!" Emma let out a soft giggle as soon as she was brought back to reality as she got up to move to the injured feral who refused to face her.
"Oh my God Shalimar, are you ok?" Asked Emma as she moved to touch her love interests shoulder but wasn't so surprised when Shalimar moved away from her to get a shirt on. "Yeah, I'm perfect, couldn't be better. Why would you ask?" Shalimar responded as she tried to make sure that her back was to Emma at all times as she rushed through her draws to find a shirt.
Emma giggled in response to Shalimar's obviously embarrassed reaction as she replied, "well, you did hit yourself pretty hard on that doorpost. Are you sure your alright?" When Shalimar finally found a shirt she hurriedly put it on as she moved two steps away from Emma as she tried to ignore the sudden scent of arousal, which she swore was coming from Emma.
"Yeah, I'm fine couldn't be better…How are you?" Shalimar asked out of both embarrassment and anxiety as she struggled to control her shaking body. As Shalimar struggled to think of something elaborate to say to keep the conversation going, Emma replied with a smile on her face, "hmm Shal?"
"Yeah?" Shalimar asked as she turned her head around to see Emma smiling at her wildly with hunger in her eyes. "What?" Shalimar asked as she turned to face Emma and waited cautiously as Emma's smile grew wilder as she moved slowly towards the shaky feral, "nice ass" Emma said in a low voice as Shalimar struggled to control herself.
"What?" Shalimar managed to say as Emma backed away from her with her smile still placed almost permanently on her young features, but it didn't take long before Shalimar realized what Emma meant when she suddenly felt a slight breeze on her backside. Shalimar let her hand graze the area where the breeze was coming from to realize that her towel was parted just enough to reveal her tight tanned ass.
She decided that now would be a good time to get some pants on as she blushed a deep crimson as Emma smirked then licked her lips hungrily as Shalimar tried to ignore the dampness between her thighs as she tried to smile casually,
"Hmmm…could..you..hmm..excuse me…for just…" Shalimar stumbled as she tried so hard to get the words out as Emma smiled seductively at her with a raised eyebrow as she urged the flustered feral to continue. "…uh..minute..please…" Shalimar tried to continue as Emma slowly made her way towards the stumbling feral.
"Shalimar" Emma called to her in a low voice as she literally stood only half an arms length away from the transfixed feral whose eyes followed every step Emma made towards her. "Shalimar" Emma said again as her hands moved to cup the ignorant and transfixed feral who at first tried to resist Emma's calls but soon realized it was useless.
"Shalimar, look at me" Emma commanded in the softest and most comforting voice that made even the ignorant Shalimar break away from her stubbornness to watch the angel eyes in front of her. "Shalimar, listen to me"
Emma said again with the same softness as her thumbs gently caressed Shalimar's smooth cheeks, "I don't know if you've notice yet…" Emma said as she stopped what she was saying to giggle at Shalimar's mesmerized expression as Emma closed the gap between them so that their noses and lips were almost touching.
"…There seems to be this one feral, that seems to have me…falling head over heals, I guess you can say. This one feral…" Emma stopped what she was saying again to listen to Shalimar's soft moan as her breasts pressed softly against the feral's. Emma smiled in delight over Shalimar's suddenly approval of such a jester as she continued,
"…Has me running around in circles it seems…this feral, seems to want something much more then friendship…" Emma stopped what she was saying once again as she nipped playfully at Shalimar's lips as she smiled at the deep sigh that escaped the transfixed feral.
"…But she doesn't seem to be able to admit to her true feelings…why is this feral so scared of something she knows she wants?" Emma asked Shalimar, but was really just stating her own personal question as she watched Shalimar's reaction and her sudden sharp intake of breath when Emma's thigh placed itself between the aroused feral's legs.
Shalimar let her eyes venture downwards as she felt Emma's thigh move to fit between her shaky legs as she resisted the throbbing urge to release her pressure and ride Emma. "…What does this feral want...does she want to be touched?"
Emma asked as she brought her hand down the length of Shalimar's body then moved it under Shalimar's black baggy shirt to rise higher up Shalimar's bare back. Shalimar responded by letting out a soft moan as she felt herself move even closer to Emma when Emma's hand pressed harder on her back and forced her to come closer.
"…Does this feral want to be kissed?" Emma continued as she took a moment to study the seemingly entranced feral whose eyes were closed as she seemed to be enjoying the moment, and also trying to control herself.
Emma smiled as she studied the feral in her arms for a moment longer before leaning in to kiss Shalimar's lips with such tenderness and love. Emma kissed Shalimar with all the patients and love that she held for the feral as she soon felt the stubborn feral respond to her.
They nipped at each other's lips, Emma obviously teasing the feral since every time Shalimar would try to kiss Emma deeper, Emma would back away with a smile on her lips.
"Shalimar" Emma chanted again in a loving and pleased voice as she smiled at the feral's wondering eyes as they seemed to be more interested in Emma's shirt, or what's inside her shirt then what Emma was saying.
"Tell me…does this feral want to be loved?" Emma asked in a low whisper as Shalimar stayed completely still as the question entered her mind and stayed there without an answer as Emma stood there waiting. Emma held Shalimar even closer to her as she moved her right hand down south to meet Shalimar's hips as she began to remind Shalimar of the thigh between her legs.
With the unforgettable persuasion from Emma's right hand, Shalimar's hips began to move slowing in time with Emma's caresses against her thigh. Emma smirked leaving a tender kiss on the aroused feral's lips as she began to kiss her deeper.
Before Shalimar could react, she found herself pinned against her bedroom wall as Emma attacked her lips furiously with hers. Kiss after kiss, Shalimar could feel herself loosing all of her needed control as she felt Emma remove her lips from hers to plant them against her pulse point as she began to suck, lick, and kiss the sensitive area.
Shalimar held Emma closer as she panted and moaned in response to Emma's sudden change in priorities as Emma nibbled at her ear lob before whispering. "You're a liar if you think that you don't feel at least the slightest bit attracted to me Shalimar. You've got me bent over backwards…" Emma stopped for a moment to kiss the feral furiously as she began to notice Shalimar's lips parting to argue something meaningless to her.
Emma moved her left hand down south to Shalimar's cunt as she caressed it knowingly as she listened to Shalimar's reaction to the touch. As soon as Emma removed her lips from the now bucking Shalimar she continued her speech as she moved to whisper into Shalimar's ear. "…Making me feel so unwanted, unloved, unattractive, while you walk around ignoring me and what you feel. This is you Shalimar…" Emma almost yelled into Shalimar ear as she forced more pressure against Shalimar's cunt.
"Ahhhh…" Shalimar responded as she tried to ignore Emma's clearly true statements as she tried to keep her hands to herself as Emma continued, "I love you Shalimar Fox!" Emma yelled into Shalimar's ear as she nibbled hungrily on Shalimar's earlobe. Shalimar was ready to explode as she felt her eyes turn yellow, as she couldn't help but imagine a naked Emma screaming her name.
"I know you love me to…let me tell you something Shalimar…I won't stop until I have you permanently in my arms, and when that time comes Shalimar…you'll admit to me that you loved me this whole time. You'll tell me you love me because sooner or later Shal, you're gunna swallow that feral pride you use to defend yourself with from reality. You'll tell me you love me, because that's what you feel; it's who you are that's trying to get itself free. But as always Shalimar, you always hide the best part of you; I won't play nice to get what I know you want." Emma stated as she licked lovingly on the now bruised love bite on Shalimar's pulse point
Shalimar looked out into space as she tried to digest what exactly Emma said to her, but before she could continue she felt the soft, gentle, and seductive kiss on her lips. She followed the tenderness of the kiss as she tried to reach out and touch Emma, trying to pull her closer to deepen the kiss. But before she knew it, Emma ripped herself out of Shalimar's grasp as she slowly walked backwards towards Shalimar's bedroom door.
"When we go on our mission Shalimar, I want you to imagine the kind of frustration, anger, and attraction I felt towards you. How every look I sent you was spat back in my face, I want you to consider my feelings for you…even if you don't come around and tell me you love me, or if you don't willingly be with me...I want you to think about how I felt instead of how you felt…I love you Shalimar, even though you hurt me so badly. I guess that's why they call it love, we always hurt the ones we love. Even when we're not with them." Emma said with a small smile as tears began to flood her powerful blue eyes.
After a few moments of awkward silence, Emma opened Shalimar's bedroom door and walked through it without a second glance or word to the feral she would die for. Shalimar slumped to the floor and stared into space as she tried to digest all that had happened as she tried to forget the effects of Emma obvious pain, as it seemed to be taking an affect on her.
To Be Continued…
Authors Note: Sorry for not updating in a while, I've been REALLY busy with school
lately. I hope that this very dramatic, funny, angsty chapter redeems myself, lol. I'm working on the next chapter right now, so it should be up soon, I know I usually post two chapters at a time, but I seriously need to update my other stories! lol. ENJOY!