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4. Don't leave me
Kirsten was sitting at the edge of the tub holding it in her hands. She had locked the door in case Sandy would come home earlier. What if the stripe would turn blue? How could she tell Sandy? She didn't know. He was already suspicious. They hadn't had sex since almost three months ago and he was still worried, because she didn't tell him why. One minute. Sixty seconds. She was scared of what was happening. She hadn't told Sandy about that terrible experience almost three months ago. She just couldn't tell anyone. Sandy would freak out and her boys would maybe kill Marty. She didn't want that to happen. Why did she have to have the flu three months ago? Without the antibiotics the pill would have taken effect but now… It was too late to undo it.
Kirsten looked at the stripe. The minute was over and she had to face the truth. It had turned blue. Positive. She was pregnant.
"No, no." She cried. She slid down on the floor and pulled her knees to her chest. She couldn't deal with it. Or with Sandy. If she told him he would leave her. She knew that. And being pregnant from somebody else than Sandy was not the only problem. Kirsten was almost forty which would make her pregnancy much more complicated. She had decided to have the baby before she had made the test. She couldn't kill such a little person. Not a second time.
Dinner. Kirsten and Sandy hadn't talked to each other about it yet. Kirsten had decided to tell him after dinner when the boys would be busy with homework, girls or PlayStation. The four of them were sitting at the table. Sandy had wanted a family dinner on Fridays. Today was Friday. The whole morning Kirsten had been thinking about how to tell Sandy. She was afraid of his reaction and the fact that she was sick didn't make her feel better.
"So, you're ready? Then go boys, do whatever you planned to do. Your father and I have to talk about something." Kirsten's lower lip trembled at the thought of telling the truth. She didn't want to, but she had to. Sandy and all of the other Newpsies would find out anyway. Unfortunately a pregnancy is something you can't hide. They'll see in a few months. Kirsten reminded herself and took a deep breath.
"Honey, are you okay? I mean, you look a little pale. Why don't you go to sleep, I'll take care of the dishes. We can talk sometime later." Sandy said worried. Of course, he had recognized his wife changing. How could he not? They hadn't had sex for three months. And Kirsten wasn't at her best. He could see that. And hear it. Every morning for maybe two weeks. He was really concerned about his wife.
"No, I'm fine. It's just – it's something serious and I gotta tell you now. It's really important to me and –" Kirsten stopped. Tears ran down her face and she couldn't silence her sobs. Neither could Sandy.
"Oh, honey. It's okay. Just tell me. I'm here for you. I'll stand by you. You don't have to face this alone, but please tell me." Sandy took Kirsten's wrists and pulled her to his chest. She looked up and stepped back again.
"I – I – please promise me you won't freak out." Sandy nodded. His wife was upset and he couldn't help her.
"Okay, I promise. But why should I freak out, huh? I'm your husband, remember. You can tell me everything." He wondered about Kirsten's behavior. He had never seen her like that before. Scared off and crying her eyes out wasn't something he was used to. She always seemed so strong and now she was almost breaking down in his arms.
"I – I – I'm pregnant." Now it was out.
"What? But that's something good, isn't it. So why do you cry, honey?" Sandy tried to hug Kirsten but she stepped back. That's not everything. She thought.
"There's something more. It – it – it might not be your child." She stared into Sandy's eyes, waiting for a reaction. A reaction that would tell her that he was okay. She knew that she had made a mistake by not telling him why it might not be his child. But she couldn't do it. Sandy would blame himself, he would freak out and he would pity her. And that was definitely not what she wanted. She didn't want the pity of other people.
"What! I don't believe this! You don't tell me, that you cheated on me! I – I – goodbye! You'll never see me again!" Sandy screamed in anger and rushed out of the house. Kirsten ran after him, trying to clear up the situation. I should have told him in the first place.
"Sandy! Please stay, I – I love you! Please don't go." Kirsten shouted after him, but he already headed the street in his car. "Please, don't go." Kirsten whispered, when Ryan and Seth came to the front door.
"Mom? Is everything alright? We heard you two fighting and – Mom?" Kirsten looked at Seth and Ryan with expressionless eyes.
"Your father is gone, Seth." She whispered and went to the bedroom. Ryan and Seth stared after her. Seth wanted to follow his mother, but Ryan stopped him.
"Don't. She won't talk to you, bro." He grabbed Seth's arm and held him back.