Disclaimer: Don't own Gilmore Girls
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As soon as I say it I hang up but I don't get out. I can't. I start crying harder. He gets out of his car and walks towards mine. I lock all the doors. He taps on the glass over and over again. The tapping stops for awhile and I look up he's still there.
He mouths something. I can't really make it out. I rolled down the window.
"What" I ask.
"Was that payback for me walking away when I told you I loved you" he asked.
"No that's me trying to save myself from this" I said.
"What"
"You I didn't want to hear about how I was terrible to you and how you don't love me anymore about how you've probably already moved on"
"Rory would I have kissed you today if I had moved on" he asked. "Would I have driven 4 hours to go to a place I don't really like if I didn't still love you?"
"I don't know Jess" I whined.
"I love you Ror I always will but you need to figure everything out before we pick up where we left off"
"I thought I had figured everything out" I smiled.
"Really Rory where are you going to live" he asked.
"School's almost over I could just stay here until school gets out then look for an apartment over the summer"
"Did you really lie" he asked.
"Yes" I whispered.
"Then tell me why"
"I don't know" I shook my head.
He nodded. "I'll help you with your stuff tomorrow" he backed up and walked into the diner.
I had to get out of this car. I didn't want to go home not just yet. I got out and walked quickly to the one place I always felt at home. I sat down on the edge of the bridge taking off my shoes and setting them down dangling my legs over the edge. I found some rocks and I threw them angrily at the water. They didn't skip they just sunk. As I watched them sink I felt like I was too. Why did I lie? I had been lying for so long. Lying to Logan to myself to everyone but at the time I didn't know that I was lying. I wasn't sure that I didn't feel anything for Logan until I saw Jess, until I finally felt something real again, something almost tangible. So then why did I continue lying. I love him I know I do so why didn't I tell him in the bookstore. I hear footsteps and I look up to see a girl around 16 crying.
"Are you ok" I ask the girl who looked a lot like me at that age. Brown hair with blue eyes she was even wearing a school uniform. Why at this time of night she would wear a school uniform I'm not sure but she was.
She nodded and collapsed on to the bridge crying harder.
"You don't seem ok" I said.
"Oh no really I'm fine just a little upset" she smiled weakly.
"You want to talk about it" I asked.
"Well I'm going out with this guy and I think I love him well at least I say I do I'm not really sure" she said "anyways there's this other guy he's mysterious and gorgeous and he likes all the same things I do unlike my boyfriend who likes sports and cars"
"So you like this other guy" I asked.
"Yea I do" she said "he's gone now though I went to see him I doubt he'll come back even though asked him to well indirectly."
"He'll come back" I said laughing at the familiarity of this situation.
"How do you know" she asked.
"I just do" I said.
"I really like Jess"
Coincidence right there are lot's of Jess's in the world right.
"But I'm afraid of getting hurt" she said.
"You really like him" I asked.
"Yea I can't think when I'm around him and I hate when he's not around and he always makes me laugh."
"Sounds like love" I smiled.
"Yea I guess it is."
"Don't worry about getting hurt" I told her.
"Thanks" she smiled and got up to leave.
"What's your name" I asked.
"Rory" she left.