Chapter Three
7:30: Tommy's Room-
Tommy sat on his bed staring at his cell phone, trying to muster up the courage to call Kat. He knew it wasn't going to be an easy call, but he at least hoped that she felt the same way he did, that they weren't meant to be together. He knew he loved her, but only as a friend. Maybe there was a point in there relationship where he cared more for her, but that was no longer the case, and it wasn't fair on Kat to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't love you the way he should in a relationship.
Kat had been there for him during his lowest moments, and he would always be grateful for her, but their lives were heading in different directions. She would be off to London, and who knows where he'd be by the end of the month. There were other factors in his decision, one of them being his mystery girl. For some reason, he was attracted to her, and he hadn't even seen her face. His was responding to her in ways he's never responded to Kat, and that was a problem. If he was more attracted to a girl he's only seen from behind then is own girlfriend, there was no denying that he was doing the right thing.
He was supposed to meet Mark in his room at 8:00, they were going to check out local bars, see if they could find his mystery girl. Taking a deep breath, he dialed Kat's number and waited for her to pick up.
"Hello?"
"Hi Kat."
"Oh my, Tommy, two calls already, a girl could get used to this." She laughed.
He sighed, this is not going to be easy, he thought. "Ya. How are you?"
"Better now, it's been a long day," she said tiredly
Crap, "I'm sorry to hear that."
"So to what to I owe the pleasure of this call?" She asked.
He sighed, "I need to talk to you about something."
"Ok, shoot." She said
"It's about us."
"Ok, what about us?" she asked.
"Um, I think, with things the way they are, that you and I should..."
"We should what?" He could hear the nervousness in her voice.
"I think we should break up." he said finally.
"WHAT?" she yelled.
"I think we should..."
"I heard what you said, I just don't understand." She interrupted.
"It's just that, you're leaving for London, and I'm going to be all over the place. We are both going to be to busy to carry on a long distance relationship." He said.
"You think I'm going to pull a Kim, don't you. How dare you Tommy, I'm not her." She said angrily.
"Trust me Kat, I know your not." He said out loud.
"And what is that supposed to mean?" She demanded.
"Nothing. I don't confuse the two of you, you always think I do, but despite what you think, I am very capable of telling the difference between you and Kim, Kat." He answered.
"Then why do you want to end it? Have you met someone else?"
He didn't know how to answer her, technically he didn't "meet" anyone else, so he fibbed, "No Kat, there is no one else. I just think with how things will be, it would be best for both of us to end things."
"I don't get it Tommy. Yes it will be an adjustment, but we can do it, we love each other."
He didn't say anything.
"Tommy?"
He sighed, "I do love you Kat, but as a friend, I'm not in love with you."
He could hear her begin to cry, "You don't love me? Did you ever?"
Damn, "I don't want to hurt you Kat." He said, hoping not to have to answer that.
"I hate to break it to you Tommy, but you just did."
"I'm sorry."
"I thought you were different, but you are no better then her."
He shook his head, as much as Kat thought that would hurt him, it didn't. "I know."
"Good-bye Tommy." She said before hanging up.
He sighed; he hadn't expected Kat to not feel the same way he did. They were never really intimate, rarely held hands, and when they called, it was never as sad when they said good-bye as it had been when he would say it to Kimberly. He knew he couldn't compare the two, but he knew he loved Kimberly, and he could tell the lack of feelings he felt for Kat. Hopefully one day, they would be able to get past this and be friends again.
He shook his thoughts out of his head, grabbed his keys and wallet. Heading towards Mark's room, he only hopes that he did the right thing.
-8:00 pm: Ava's Place-
Kim sat patiently waiting in her car for Ava to arrive. She had been waiting for about five minutes now, giving a honk of the horn to remind Ava that she was outside waiting for her. It would only be a matter of minutes before her brother would be calling her wondering where they are.
She had to laugh, she and her brother had never really been close, but after what happened in Florida, they had been inseparable ever since. She laughed when she saw Ava running out of her house putting on her shoes. She opened the car door and sat down with a sigh.
"Sorry, my mom was having issues."
Kim laughed, "When is she not. You need to get your own place."
Ava nodded, "I'm working on it. Give me a month."
Kim shook her head as they headed for the bar.
"You sure you don't want me to hook you up with any hotties tonight?" Ava asked.
"No, I'm good thanks." she answered.
"Whatever you say."
"You promised." Kim laughed.
"Sure I did." Ava answered innocently.
"Anything done tonight will be reciprocated, just to let you know." Kim said.
Ava nodded, "What ever you say. By the way, if you didn't want to pick up, you shouldn't have worn that outfit."
Kim shrugged, "Whatever. I happen to like this outfit. It accentuates man tan."
Ava laughed, "Ya, cause all you are wearing is a black "bra" and a white bomber jacket."
"So? You picked it out." Kim responded, pulling into the parking lot.
"True." Ava said as she got out of the car.
Kim and Ava entered the bar and looked for Kim's brother. They saw him and some other racers sitting at a table in the far corner. She groaned when she saw Tony sitting at the table.
"Maybe your offer to find someone isn't such a bad one." Kim said to Ava, as she nodded at Tony.
"No kidding, he still giving you trouble?" Ava asked.
Kim nodded, "Ya, he's just not getting the hint."
Ava laughed, "I'm sure we kind find someone around here, so he does get the hint."
Kim nodded, "Give me a bit before you try something."
Ava laughed, "Alright."
They went to sit at the table. Kim sat beside Kenny who shook his head at her, she knew he didn't approve of her outfit, but he gave up a long time ago trying to get her to change her clothes. He said she was way to stubborn, so he would drop it as long as nothing happened.
Kim looked around the table, she had only known these people for a couple of months, but they had accepted her right away. They made her feel welcomed, especially Ava. She looked over at Tony who was making no effort to hid his appreciation of her outfit. She rolled her eyes and nodded at Ava.
Ava smiled before getting up. She disappeared for a few minutes before coming back to the table with a big smile on her face. Kim looked at her, "What did you do?" She mouthed. Ava just shook her head. A few minutes later Kim her the DJ call her name.
"Seems we have a talented young lady in the crowd tonight. So why don't we get her on the stage and sing a little something for us. Get your butt on up here Kim Hart." the Dj said.
Kim looked at Ava with a death glare. "You are so dead."
Ava laughed and shrugged.
"Go on Kim, you know you want to." Kenny said.
She shook her head before getting up. She knew she wouldn't be able to leave, everyone was watching her. So she got up on the stage before turning to the band letting them know what song she was going to sing. The band started up.
"This is for my jerk-off of an ex."
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Kim hadn't been paying attention to the crowd. She was to wrapped up in her song, that she didn't even notice two people sitting at a table staring at her with their mouths open.
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Mark turned to Tommy, "Isn't that your Kim?"
Tommy shook his head. There in front of him was his ex-girlfriend who was supposed to be in Florida. "What is she doing here?"
Mark shrugged. "Don't know. Do you think this song is about you?"
Tommy cringed, "Probably, I would be her ex."
Mark nodded, "Man, the Gods must truly hate you. You just dumped your girlfriend for your ex-girlfriend." He laughed, "The irony is too funny."
"No it's not. I didn't know it was Kim. I mean God, I barely recognize her. She's changed so much."
Mark nodded, "Ya, sweet and innocent doesn't cover it."
"No shit. I mean look at her!"
Mark laughed, "Trust me man, I am. What are you going to do?"
Tommy sighed, "I guess talk to her?"
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
When she finished the song, she bowed and went to get a drink while the crowd was still cheering. She had to admit it felt good to be back on stage. As she was waiting for her drink she heard someone come up behind her. When she turned around she shook her head.
"What do you want Tony?"
"A date with you would be nice." He said placing a hand on her shoulder.
She shrugged off his hand. "Still not interested."
"Come on Kim, I know you want me."
She laughed, "Your kidding me right?"
He shook his head, "I know you feel the chemistry between us."
She laughed, "You wanna know what I want to feel between us?" she asked seductively.
He leaned closer, "What?"
"A few continents, now leave me alone!"
Tony shoo his head, but before he could say anything he was interrupted.
"The lady said No."
Tony turned around to see the guy. "what's it to you?"
The guy smirked, "You don't want to find out."
Knowing when to quit, Tony left Kim and went to sit back at the table. Kim had paled when she looked at her rescuer. She looked into his eyes, she saw hurt. She looked back at the stage then back at him.
"Oh my God." She said, before running out of the bar.
Tommy stood there confused. He thought Kim would be shocked to see him, but not run from the sight of him. He sighed, deciding he should go after her. He left the bar and looked around, seeing her sitting on the front of her car.
He took a deep breath before slowly making his way over to her. When he stood before her, she refused to meet his eyes, as she already knew who was there. He gave a small laugh before lifting her chin so she would look at him.
"You know, I'm supposed to be the one not wanting to talk to you, not the other way around." He said.
She nodded, but didn't say anything.
"Don't I get a Hello?"
She sighed, "Hi."
He laughed, "Come on Kim, talk to me."
She took a deep breath, "Your not supposed to want to talk to me remember."
He nodded, "True, but what can I say, I was never one to follow rules."
She laughed. "Point taken."
"What are you doing here Kim?" He asked.
She turned her head away, "Long story."
He sighed, "Fine, if you don't want to talk, we won't, but remember that I tried, and I'm the one who got dumped."
She sighed, "I'm sorry, it's just I was expecting to see you, and I sure as hell wasn't expecting you to be nice to me, after I dumped you through a letter."
Tommy nodded, "Lets just say, I could never stay mad at you for very long."
She gave him a small smile, "Ok. Look, I should get going. It was nice seeing you again." She said before moving around him to the drivers side.
"Your just going to leave it like that?" He asked, bewildered.
"What do you want me to do Tommy?"
"Give a damn maybe?"
She snorted, "That's rich coming from you."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" He demanded.
"Just how it sounds." She answered.
"Where the hell do you get off? I don't give a damn. I'm not the one that dumped their long-term boyfriend so she could get it on with someone else."
Kim just stared at Tommy, before moving closer to him and slapping him.
"You shut the hell up! You don't know what the fuck you're talking about!"
He just stared at her in shock.
"I have nothing to say to you, that you want to hear."
He laughed, "How the hell do you know? Did you ever consider to ask me, before making my decisions. You know I'm a big boy Kim."
She snorted, "Whatever."
"Don't whatever me Kim, I deserve better then that." He said.
She shook her head, "You sure?"
He nodded, "I deserved a hell of a lot better then to get a 'dear john' letter, I deserved to be told in person."
"Well we all have wishes Tommy, just a hint, they don't come true. Did you ever think that maybe I had other reasons behind that letter? Hmm? That maybe the reason I was dumping you, was because of you?"
He looked at her in disbelief. "What the hell is that supposed to mean?"
"It means, dear Tommy, that you were treating me like you would treat math homework. I deserved better then that."
He shook his head, about to respond, but she interrupted.
"You know what, I don't want to hear it, this is why I wanted to leave a few minutes ago. Like I said, it's been real." She said before getting in her car and driving away before he could say anything.
Tommy just cursed as he saw her drive away. Kim drove away, trying not to look back, trying to hold back the tears. Why did he have to be here? Why? I can't deal with him being here. Doesn't he know how hard it was to send that letter? How much it broke my heart. Why couldn't you just stay away Tommy, I don't know how I am supposed to see you and not feel how I feel.
When she got home, she ran into her room and shut the door, she wandered over to her bed, bringing her toy dragon, that Tommy gave her, to her chest before she burst out crying. It wasn't very long before she cried herself to sleep.
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