This Love
ThislovehastakenitstollonmeShesaidGoodbyetoomanytimesbeforeAndherheartisbreakinginfrontofmeIhavenochoicecauseIwontsaygoodbyeanymore
Sakura
Abortion seemed to be the only way out. I had no other choice. I only hoped Katsuya and Naruto-kun would understand. I managed to creep away from Katsuya while he slept early the next morning, get dressed, and meet Ino out the door. She agreed to go and support me while I did so. We walked quickly to the village nurse. The sun was barely up. To save time, we took a shortcut through the forest. We came to a clearing where roses stood weak in the ground. They hadn't bloomed yet but I couldn't tell what they were. They seemed to be fighting to grow and live to bloom into their full beauty. As Ino and I walked past them, I wondered who planted them, why they were growing here, and how they growing since the ground was dead.
Ino had to pull me along because I kept staring at the weak roses. "Why the hell would someone plant anything out here of all places?" Ino asked in a huff. "Nothing has been able to ground in that spot for years!" "I don't know." I replied. "I just don't know." I secretly hoped that they would grow up strong and beautiful as their gardener intended for them. It gave me hope that my life could get better after all.
We made it to the nurse. She wasn't ready yet, so Ino and I had to wait. I swallowed hard and paced around a bit. Suddenly, abortion didn't seem like a good idea anymore. How would I face Katsuya and Naruto-kun afterwards? I also realized I would giving the villagers what they were praying for, the death of my unborn child. And then what? What if I caught an infection and died from it? What if something goes wrong? Could I do this and live with myself afterwards?
Finally, the nurse came out to us. My body became stiff. The nurse looked me dead in the eyes. Her stoic look sent me into silent panic. I broke out into a cold sweat. Suddenly, I couldn't do this. Abortion wasn't a great idea anymore. "What do you want?" the nurse asked me. I finally broke down. "Ino!" I cried out. "I've changed my mind! I'm keeping my baby!" Then I ran away in tears of fear. I couldn't do it. I just couldn't do it!
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