Another short one-shot on another different topic, however, quite a similar style of topic to my last. I'd like to write something longer but I never seem to have time and these just come out of nowhere when I feel like writing down a thing or two. This is something I've only recently heard about and thought I'd do a short piece. Tell me what you think, it's brief and written from Seth's point of view. xox
Low Latent Inhibition: You've probably never heard of it, unless of course, you watch Prison Break and have heard it mentioned. I am a sufferer of this mind boggling thing. I don't know whether it's a mental illness, the sign of psychosis or whether it actually is a good thing for someone to have. Sure, the ability to remember finite moments in my life from a long, long time ago can sometimes be pleasant – but there are bad things about it too. If someone asked me what 'low latent inhibition' is, I'd start with telling them what I can easily research – the meaning of the more simple term, 'latent inhibition'. It's like, the thing that stops you from being too creative. It makes a person see a yellow lamp and just that yellow lamp. If, however, you have low levels of latent inhibition like me, I don't just see the yellow lamp. When I see the yellow lamp my mind thinks of a banana, then maybe Spongebob Squarepants, then maybe something else. It's like my mind never stops thinking. When I read a book, for example, I force myself to rush through it at speeds most others couldn't read. Why? Because it means that I can take everything in a flow in and then think about it right at the very end. If I let myself stop half way through, then my mind travels to places you couldn't imagine and I don't manage to get back to the book until about an hour later. I also have huge problems with falling asleep because my mind won't stop thinking. Yes, so annoying at times but I suppose there are bonus' that come with thinking. People with my problem often have very high IQs and can frequently become genius' in later life. Hey, maybe I'll be as well known as Einstein one day!
You know, this doesn't bother me too much though. Sure, at times it can make me pretty sad. Perhaps that's what caused my depression years ago. I don't know. I am the sort of person though who likes to keep to myself. It's easier that way – it's easier if I can just be let to sit and think and not be interrupted and become stressed over it.
But maybe all that is how I used to feel. Now, I hardly even notice it because I've taught myself to learn to live with it. Well, I didn't teach myself. Summer did. She, the one who means the most to me in the world, helped me to conquer it. No longer do I worry about my mental health. No longer do I worry that one day I will become a schizophrenic. No longer do I worry that I will never have someone cause I can't even manage to ever get out.
Sum fixed me. Sum cured me. Sum is not only the reason that I'm still living but also the reason for why I love this living thing!