"How are you feeling?" Sayid asked, softly, approaching Kate and Claire. Kate shrugged. He handed her a bottle of water and she smiled softly at him.
"I guess I feel a little naseated still."
"I'm not too knowledgeable in pregnancy, but should you feel nauseated still?" He sat down next to the two females. "Have you spoke with Jack?"
Claire piped up, "No, and she wont. I asked the same thing."
"There could be something very wrong with you, Kate. Infection, complications. I do know that losing a child is not easy on you physically..." He watched her eyes drop to the sand. "Or, emotionally."
Kate sighed, and then nodded. "I'll talk to him." Claire looked at her in disbelief. "I promise." She looked over at Aaron, sleeping sweetly next to Claire. It broke her heart to see him, but at the same time, watching him smile and listening tohim coo helped her as well. She pushed herself up to her feet, dusted the sand off her hands and followed Sayid to find Jack.
He wasn't too hard to find, he was at the Hatch fairly often now.
"Kate needs to talk to you," Sayid said, as Kate walked up behind him.
He could see the worry in her eyes. Instantly he touched her lower stomach. "You don't look so good," he said. Then his eyes filled with confusion. "Nor do you FEEL good."
Kate looked worried. "I've been naseous."
"How long has it been since you stopped bleeding?"
Kate thought for a moment. "A week."
"You uterus is still hard," He said pushing her lower stomach some more.
"Kate, do twins run in your family?"
"Not that I...Jack, what are you saying?"
"It happens more often then people would think. A woman is pregnant with twins and only carries one to term."
"Whoa," Kate said backing away from him. "I am just now starting to come to grips with losing a baby, after I had just barely come to grips with being pregnant, now I find out, I'm possibly STILL pregnant," she sighed. "I need to talk to Sawyer," she said, starting to walk off.
"Kate, this isn't a for sure. We need to keep an eye on your over the next couple of weeks you need-" And before he could finish. She was gone.
Walking through the jungle, thoughts invaded Kate's mind like a plague.
She couldn't help but think back to the day she originally told Sawyer of her pregnancy suspicions...
"Hi Sawyer," Kate said, walking up behind him as he fiddled with some rocks in the sand.
"Ah, look who it is, the traitor."
"Sawyer, we need to talk."
"Talk? Talk to you? What you feelin' a little down in the dumps for what you did? I'm not your backup buddy when Dr. Feelgood won't give you the time of day."
Kate sighed. "Sawyer, you KNOW I..."
"No Kate, I don't know anything. You told him I manipulated you. You jumped on me like a lioness in heat, I thought for a brief moment you were over him and...Fuck, forget it."
Kate sighed again, "Listen Sawyer you can hate me all you want, but I came here with something very important to say."
"You and Jack gettin' amrried, inviting me to the wedding? No thanks."
"Sawyer..." She sat down next to him. "I think I'm pregnant."
"Wait, wait..." He said waving his hands. "Rewind. You think you're..." He laid back back in the sand and brought his hands to his head, "You're speakin' chinese to me here."
"Sawyer, I'm...I'm not joking."
"Well, how do you know?"
"Claire and I track our...you know."
"You CAN talk to me like an adult, we only had sex..."
"We keep track of our periods and mines two weeks late."
"Thats nothing, you're fine."
"Sawyer, no I'm not...I've had some light spotting and I've always been regular and...you didn't exactly you know use protection."
"ME? This is my fault now, don't pin the tail on this donkey, sweetheart." Sawyer said. "Had you have not LEAPT on me..."
Kate started to cry. Sawyer sat up. He sighed and thought for a moment. "I uh...I'm sorry."
Kate wrapped her arms around him and he held her close. "I never wanted to be a father. Now I'm sitting her faced with this and I don't know what the fuck to do or say. I've fucked up my own life, I don't need to fuck up some kids life either."
"All I've done is thought about how I'd be bringing a child into this world on an island, and if I get off this island...in prison. I'm scared, I...I just don't know what to do."
Sawyer slipped his hand down and gently touched her stomach. "We do what we have to do...I guess. We make best with what we've got and ride on into battle. But we need to know for sure."
He got up, helping Kate up and they went back to dig through his tuff. He knew he had another pregnancy test somewhere, other then the one he gave to Sun. He found it and handed it to Kate. "You know what to do, right?" She nodded. "I'll be right back." She said. Within moments she was back. She handed him the plastic strip and nervously looked away.
"Now we wait," he said. Those couple minutes seemed like hours. Kate couldn't stay still and Sawyer was counting down the moments in his head.
"Look at it," he said handing it to her. She pushed his hand away.
"No, you look," she softly said. He took a deep breath and then let it out in a sigh.
"Looks like the two most underqualified people in the world...are going to be parents, Momma."
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Kate reached Sawyer's shelter where he was going through his things.
"Hi," Kate said softly.
"Hey," Sawyer replied. "How you feeling?"
"Pregnant."
Sawyer looked confused.
"I may still be pregnant Sawyer. I've still got the full on symptoms and Jack says my uterus is still hard, he thinks I was pregnant with twinsa nd just misscarried one of them...he said it happens often and..." She sat down. "I'm an emotional fucking rollercoaster."
Sawyer sat down beside her. "Shit, room on that ride for me?"
"Do you have anymore pregnancy tests?" She asked.
"I can look," He said, digging through his stuff again. He pulled out a little white vacuum sealed package.
"I do know that you still have some hormones if you misscarry...but not enough after a few days to make a false positive," Kate stated.
"So...take it..."
She shook her head. "Not yet, I wanna wait...you know, just to be safe. This is...this is the rest of our lives Sawyer...I just want to be sure. One hundred percent sure," she stood up, and Sawyer grabbed her hand before she could leave, thinking back on what Jack said to him on the beach.
"Whatever the outcome Kate...I'll be here," he said, squeezing her hand. She gave him a somber smile. "Stay with me tonight. You know, I gotta act like the tough guy and protect you and..." She kissed him before he could finish. She pushed him down and he stopped her. "I don't think its such a good idea in your..."
"Sawyer...in all honesty...do you ever NOT think about me in a sexual way?" She laid down next to him, cuddling up close and resting her head on his chest, listening to his heart beat. It was beating fast as she breathed in deeply and closed her eyes, wrapping her arm tightly around his waist.
And after days of barely sleeping, she was finally fast asleep on his chest. He ran his fingers through her hair, and held her close, and soon enough, they were both deeply dreaming.