Charlie walked by, uttering "awwwwwww" rather sarcastically at Sawyer. Sawyer threw his book at Charlie who walked off in a fit of laughter. Sawyer gently ran his fingers through Kate's wavy locks of hair. She looked so at peace, so incredibly beautiful when she slept. The moon was nearly full, glowing bright in the night sky. Sawyer's eyes drifted to the bright stars surrounding it as Kate stirred in his lap, mumbling something in her sleep. His eyes shifted back do to her and he rested his hand over hers. He often wondered what she dreamed about, especially now...It seemed since she had been pregnant, she was often yelling or upset in her dreams, sometimes waking up in a fit of tears or nearly beating the crap out of Sawyer.
Tonight was no different...
To Kate they seemed so real, as if it was a glimpse into something yet to come...or looking back on the struggles of her past.
Sawyer often asked her what she dreamed about but she would never say, lately it was often the same thing...Her & her dream children, their faces and names so clear in front of her. Lilly Rose was her daughter in the dream, often yelling and angry at Kate, bringing up her father. The dreams grew longer every night. Now it seemed that Kate was divorcing Lilly's father, and the girl was furious, claiming her much younger sibling, known as Toby, a dark haired little boy, would join her in living with their father. They were in the kitchen of a small but nice little house. This time in the dream, Kate finally spoke up telling her daughter there was something she needed to know, and it had been killing her inside to keep it from her...but Jack wasn't really her father. Her father had taken off long ago, and never looked back.
Kate shot up from her sleep, tears streaming down her face. Sawyer held her face in his hands, wiping the tears from her cheeks. She threw her arms around him, trembling. She wanted to make him promise, promise he'd never leave. But anytime she ever even brought up the subject of their future together Sawyer never really said much. Instead, she held tight to the moment they were currently sharing, resting her head on his shoulder as he held her tightly.
She then looked up at him as he stared down at her, wondering what causes that pained look in her eyes. She kissed him, ever so gently, and he kissed her back passionately. And as they kissed it was as if the whole world stopped around them...at least until Jack walked up clearing his throat.
Kate nervously pulled away from Sawyer, who was more upset at Kate at that moment, then Jack. Though Jack interrupted, it was Kate's behavior that caused Sawyer to get up and walk away. He couldn't stand how she was afraid to completely let go and feel for Sawyer whenever Jack came around. Almost as if she was embrassed or afraid of hurting Jack's feelings. But there was nothing that could change the fact that she was carrying Sawyer's child.
Kate couldn't even look at Jack, who knew even apologizing wasn't the best idea at the moment.
"Just wanted to check up on you." Jack said, moving closer to Kate.
"I'm fine...just exhausted." Though she meant physically, she now felt emotionally exhausted as well. She drank some water before telling Jack about her sore muscles, aching back and constant urge to pee. Soon enough, the baby moved again and Kate grabbed Jack's hand and placed it on her stomach.
"Wow." Jack smiled. "Strong baby."
Kate smiled wide. "Its done it a few time today." She beamed.
"Right on track then, sounds like baby's developing at the proper rate." He said pushing on her stomach a bit. "This is where you thank me for forcing you to eat all that peanut butter."
"Ha, NO." Kate laughed.
"Try and get some sleep." Jack said, getting up. "I need to go do a quick check on Sun, she's been having some braxton hicks...at least I'm hoping its braxton hicks."
He gave Kate a gentle smile before walking off. Kate sighed, her mind racing back to Sawyer. She could tell his feelings were obviously hurt, but she knew he was talking shit on someone somewhere, making it look like he hadn't a care in the world. She wanted to let go of her fears, wanted to express her feelings freely, but then those pessimistic moments invaded her mind, and she'd think of herself in prison, as Sawyer abandoned their child, but she reminded herseld to live in the moment, and the more she thought about it, the more she realized that pushing Sawyer away wasn't the way to keep him. For all they knew, they could be on the island forever. But as much as it scared her to admit it, she loved Sawyer, and he needed to know.