Forgotten Soul

I DON'T own Inuyasha; I own this OOC story though. I hope you enjoy the story, if I get good review, I'll go on with the story! Remember, this is in Kikyo's POV about everything she has been through. It may get OOC because of future curse words and Kikyo and Kagome become friends. Remember, you have been warned! Please review my story and please don't flame. (o)

I was inside a village house, it was about 2:00 a.m. and everything was sound asleep. I ordered one of my Soul stealers to get a journal and a pen. When it returned, I opened the crisp cover and stared and the blank page, the pen in my hand as I tapped my cheek with it. I began to write about my former life.

Dear Diary,

Hello there, my name is Kikyo. I am 68 years old, but I appear about 18 years of age. I was once a pure priestess given the duty to protect the Shikon no Tama, a jewel with a legend all by itself. While I was asked to protect it, I came against fierce foes which I eventually defeated.

During a battle with over 10 demons, I encountered a man in a red robe, he asked me if I was a priestess, and I answered yes and asked if he wanted the Shikon Jewel. He asked what it was, and I told him it were better if he didn't know. I continued on my way, and the next day, I met a similar voice, it was the Hanyou I met the night before, except back then, he was in a human state of being. He ordered me to give him the jewel, I suppose he found out about it during the night, and I shot him to a tree. My younger sister, Kaede, would ask why I never killed him with the Hama No Ya. I never answered her, until Inuyasha and I met under the light of the sun in the meadow. I told him it was because we were alike, we are both a being, but we cannot show our fears or weaknesses, for we would be killed. We could never show our true selves, we would risk our lives.

After the meeting, we slowly began falling in love, one day, we rode in a canoe and while getting out, I tripped and landed on his well built chest. Right there is when he told me he loved me and he would become human for my sake. It would purify the jewel, and I could live with him until we died. I promised him to give him the jewel under the Goshinboku around noon the day after, and he agreed, and there was when I had had my first kiss. Later in the night, I was praying and cleansing the jewel when I heard Inuyasha's voice and he asked for me to reschedule and meet him at the break of dawn. When I agreed and looked outside the shrine, he was gone.

When I woke up the next day, my younger sister Kaede, still recovering from the wound inflicted on her eye, saw me leaving and asked for me to stay. She didn't know Inuyasha was going to meet me on that day, so I had lied for the first time and said that I was going to get medicinal herbs for her wound. She looked at me and said that there were a lot right next to her. I panicked and said that I would try to find something better. So with that, I left. I was running thinking, I'm late! I'm late! As I approached the Goshinboku, I didn't see Inuyasha. I was wondering where he would have been, thinking that he overslept. As I walked into the middle of the meadow, I thought I would surprise him, and wear the lip gloss he gave me. He told me it was his mothers and he had no use of it. As a priestess, I wasn't allowed to wear make-up, but thinking it was my last day as a priestess, I broke another rule. Sliding my finger across the rogue, I felt a sharp pain on my right shoulder, Inuyasha slit my back open!

I hit the floor with a thud and Inuyasha caught the rogue and smashed it. I reached for the jewel, and he smashed his foot into my palm. I couldn't believe it, Inuyasha, my beloved husband to be, ran his claws down my back in the most painful way possible. He said he would massacre the village, and took the Shikon no Tama. I cursed him, and all I could think about was why my beloved Inuyasha would do this to me. Clutching my arm, pain engulfed my soul and all I could feel was heartbreak. As I approached the village, I saw the massacre Inuyasha had plagued it with. I took my bow and arrow, and cast the Fuuin No Ya. No matter how much I hated Inuyasha, I could never kill him; it would only pain me more.

I called out Inuyasha's name and released the arrow, it nailed him right in the heart, and he let go of the Shikon no Tama. He was stuck on the Goshinboku, the tree said to be immune to time. His body would never decompose. At the time, I didn't think about it, all I knew was pain, betrayal and twisted love.

I took the Shikon no Tama as tremors of pain ran through my body. I told Kaede it was up to her to either purify the jewel in my stead, or to cremate it with my body. The last words I ever heard were the cries of my name coming out from Kaede. After that, my mind went black, and all I knew was death, no more pain, no more suffering, no more Inuyasha.

I closed the journal, and tears ran down my face. I can still remember the lonely cries from my younger sister as I passed on to the netherworld.

'For 50 years, I left her all alone in the world, she must have hated me. But, even if she does, I could never hate her. She was the only one I could ever trust. Why was I so stupid? How could I have ever thought Inuyasha would have killed me? And, why did Naraku have to kill me to get his way?' I thought.

I must write more, I must give the journal to someone who can relate to my pain, they must never let anyone see my journal, if anyone does, it will reveal my real love. I know that Inuyasha still loves me, but I cannot have him carry this burden. He must reconcile and pick up from the love he lost. The only one who could ever know all the pain I have been through would be the one who is spiritually connected to me, Kagome Higurashi, my reincarnation.

Well, there you have it, chapter one of Kikyo's Diary. Please review! This was made with open-mindedness. I had to tell everyone what really happened to Kikyo and why she hates Inuyasha. The story will be OOC because she makes best friends with Kagome and there will be cursing from the two miko's, but that is later, if I get 3 good review to keep me going.

Ja Ne!

Rin a.k.a. KyoKunIsMine

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