Update: I STILL don't own these guys. No I really don't know how that's possible, and yes, I can read your mind, isn't it great?
So It seems I've finished Chapter 3 already. Odd since I don't think I've ever gotten to a 3rd chapter of fanfic. But I digress. Thanks to those of you who have reviewed it so far. I've enjoyed writing it.
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Axel was alone. Maybe this is how it was meant to be. He was always alone, before Roxas. And now, he'd be alone after Roxas. This was, after all, how it all began.
Xemnas was after him. Luxord had overheard the conversation between Sai'x and Xemnas. Amused at the notion, he smirked. He had rarely been the topic of conversation before.
If Xemnas wants me gone, he can make it happen. That is what he told Luxord. What more was there to say?
That was, until Luxord told him that Xemnas was absolutely furious and would do more than cast Axel out into the night.
Axel knew at once what he meant. His amusement quickly turned to sadness.
Knowing he would have to get Roxas away from him. He had to keep him from getting hurt.
It would be easier this way. He couldn't let Roxas be there when it happened…if it happened. If, not when. He was going to fight with everything that he had. He would put every fiber of his non-being into that fight.
It was the only way he could possibly survive it. It was true, Xemnas was stronger than he; but Axel had youth on his side. That was the good thing about being a nobody. You remained the age you were at the time of your split.
Still, he knew Roxas would not give up that easily. Just as he knew there would be a time when Sora would come back to reclaim him. He would be here when that time came. He had to be.
At that moment, Sai'x came walking in. Axel didn't even look up.
"I'm not here to talk to you"
"Really, 'cause you know you might want to inform your larynx of that…"
"Do not be snide with me Axel. It is your fault you are in this predicament."
"Oh, is it? Cause I was all set to pin it on Xaldin." Axel was far too amused. He knew that Xaldin's death had affected Sai'x the most.
"Listen you insolent brat, I know you're broken up. I know it's my fault that you are. I take responsibility for my actions. Why can't you? It's not difficult."
"I guess the question of the hour is... is it as easy as ratting on your lovers' friend to their superior?"
"Demyx is not my lover. We can't have lovers."
"Oh, really? Than what would you call it?"
"I…He's...We…This is NOT About me!"
"Thank you once again for proving my point." He responded smugly.
"I'm not here for you."
"Then why are you here?"
"I'm here for Roxas."
Alarmed, he turned quickly. He knew his worry was clearly visible on his face, but he didn't care.
"Roxas, what about Roxas?"
"So you do still care for him. Demyx thought as much."
"What about Roxas!" he said. It was more of a demand than a question."
"Xemnas knows he means more to you than anything."
"Which is why I pushed him away, you know that."
"Yes. I do. And so does Xemnas."
"Meaning what?"
"Meaning you might not want to push Roxas away. Xemnas knows he is the only way to truly hurt you. To torment for your betrayal."
Axel couldn't bring himself to say the words. He knew what Sai'x was avoiding saying.
"Say it."
"What?" Sai'x asked him, acting as if he had no idea what Axel was referring to.
"SAY IT!" he yelled, barely aware of the overwhelming crushing ache he felt.
"Xemnas will kill Roxas. He will kill Roxas to hurt you, and he will do it in your presence. His death will be on your head. Is that what you want?"
"Do I want the person I care about more than anything to die? Well it wasn't exactly on my list of goals and aspirations…"
"Why do you do that? Why are you so incapable of having a serious moment, of giving a serious answer?"
"Because I hate this. I hate you. I hate everything about the organization. Why would you do this? His death, on my head? No. No Sai'x! It would be on YOUR head. YOU are the one who didn't have to tell Xemnas about Kairi or Roxas. You CHOSE to do that. You CHOSE to make him a target. And for that I will never forgive you."
"It is not your forgiveness that I need."
"I'll fix this. I'll fix everything. You…Just... JUST GO."
"How can you fix this? Xemnas has made up his mind. You could hide Roxas in the simulated twilight town, but you of all people know how effective that solution is. "
"I'll figure out something. I am not going to stand by and let Xemnas kill him. I LO…he's all I have."
Sai'x grunted. "Hm. So this is about you then? What you need? What you can handle? How un-selfish of you."
"That isn't what I meant and you know it. Please. Just leave me alone…"
"As you wish."
Closing the door quickly, he dropped down to the ground and leaned against the wall. He felt cold and lifeless.
So, this is what it felt like.
I guess you really don't need a heart to feel the lonely brokenness of lost…love. That's what it was, wasn't it? He had almost said it before, And Sai'x knew it. Was it possible? Was he capable of that?
He knew he didn't have the time to sit around and think about that. He needed a plan. But he didn't have one.
I've pushed him away, what more can I do? I guess I could hide him, like Sai'x said, or I could hide myself. Sai'x had said he would kill Roxas in front of him.
But if Roxas was never in front of him again….he would have no reason to kill him! The death would not be as satisfying. He was thankful he knew just how Xemnas thought.
His mind suddenly went blank. He would never see Roxas again. He would never be with him. Never hold him. He would never again wake up next to him nor would he be able to watch him sleep.
He was dead inside. Without Roxas, he…he was nothing.
His original plan, to push Roxas away would have at least allowed Axel to see Roxas. But now, he didn't even have that.
He was truly left with nothing.