Chapter 30

My father was home for Erik's funeral. I didn't care if I showed my feelings around my father anymore. I couldn't hold my depression in any longer. On the way to the service, I held my head to the window and cried.

"I know dear, it hurts. It hurts to loose someone you love."

"I didn't just love him. I gave my soul to him."

"I know Christine, I know."

His funeral was beautiful. Not many people, but all the decorations were lovely. Meg and her mother were there, Nadir and his new wife Alice, and my father and I. The only friends Erik really had. Roses were everywhere; red ones to add. They surrounded his coffin and I just couldn't help but look at him one last time. As I walked up to look at my love, the tears filled my eyes as I realized he wasn't here. He couldn't tell me he loved me anymore. He couldn't kiss me anymore.

I bent my head down towards him and the tears rolled across his face.

"Erik...why...how could you do this to me? I loved you! I gave you everything I had. Please...come back...don't leave me alone..."

I closed my eyes to cope with the pain without making a scene. Once I had recovered, I placed a kiss on his cold lips one last time. As I whispered, "I love you", I turned back to my seat. My father put his arms around me and the minister began to preach.

My mind couldn't follow the entire time. I found myself singing the song I wrote about him in my mind. A song I wrote after I knew he had died.

'Does anyone have anything to say about Erik?" asked the minister.

My heart pounded, but I stood suddenly. As I walked to the pulpit, and looked out across everyone.

"My name is Christine and I was Erik's...music student." I paused. "But I was more than that. I loved him and he loved me. I was completely his; mind, body, and soul. I wrote something I need to sing to him, one last time."

"Somewhere in time I know, Darling you'll come back to me.
Roses will bloom again, But Spring feels like eternity.
In your kiss it wasn't goodbye.
You are still the reason why.
I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room, My heart still surrenders like the sun to the

moon. I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever" Were the last words you said to me.
And when the morning comes, My hands still reach out for you.
Some things remain the same, There is nothing I can do.
I can barely get through the day Ever since you went away.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,My heart still surrenders like the sun to the

moon.I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever" Were your last words to me...

Heaven help us cross this endless sea With starlight above to guide you to me.
Waves crushing on distant shores, They're calling our names forever more.

And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room, My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon. I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever" Were the last words you said to me."

Once I had finished, the tears streamed from my face as I turned to look at him once last time.

"Goodbye Erik, I will miss you."