Battlefield of Masks.
Authors: Evyl
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: Blah blah blah, the usual I don't own Gundam Wing blah blah blah
Pairings: Heero x Duo Trowa x Quatre
Warnings/classifications: shonen ai, angst
Death was all I Wanted.
Such pain of betrayal, the words and memories all swelling inside, emotions eager to escape and inform everyone of their existence. Deep hatred even towards loved ones filling and overriding everything else.
Darkness.
Death was all I wanted for a long time, for things to stop, for all the memories to escape, for all consciousness to fall apart and the thoughts, the thoughts to just disappear and never come back.
I've always tried not to break, tried to face life. But each time I fell and each time I had to try and get up. By myself.
Until one day, as I was falling, someone caught me and pulled me up.
Heero Yuy. The Perfect soldier.
But once I got to know him, he wasn't all that perfect, he was like me, hiding behind an image, but inside, he had the same problems, the same worries, the same emotions. He was the person I had wanted all my life. I didn't need him to go on living, I didn't depend on him for life. A lot of people mistake dependency for love. No, I never depended on him, I loved him, I needed to be with him but I didn't live of off him. Many people don't understand that and some, never will.
I used to think he understood, I used to think he loved, loved me and not that girl.
I though he would come.
But he didn't, he didn't come.
No, he broke a promise and he broke my heart.
When I was with him, I stooped being afraid and I started wanting to live again. I wanted to survive, so that I could be with him. I wanted to go on, to fight for peace, to achieve something pure. But most of all, I wanted him.
Darkness.
Why is it so dark?
Why is it always so dark?
I want to go out into space, it's also dark there…but at least there are the stars. Then I don't feel so alone.
But I am
All alone.
And all I want to do is die.
Heero…
Death was all I wanted.
Death was all I wanted
But suicide's a crime
Death was all I wanted
For the longest time
From this pain I want to run
To close my eyes and disappear
My mind to go black and numb
To banish all the hate and fear
Death was all I wanted
But war kept me going on
Death was all I wanted
My body's still alive, but my soul is gone
TBC
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Anyway, reviews inspire me to carry on and everything…
Yes this is terribly dark and kinda boring to read over and over but well…I promise soon…