Chapter 4

Kairi glared in my direction, but I paid her no mind, my eyes glued to the door where I had last seen Sora. I felt my mouth drop open a bit, and in the back of my brain I cursed at myself in every different language I knew for being so stupid. So what if Sora was fucking straight, that didn't mean I had to be like that, that didn't mean I had to push him away. We could have been good friends. We could have had a good life together. And now I would have been surprised if he ever spoke t me again.

" You didn't have to say that." Kairi hissed." He was only trying to help you y'know."

I kept my mouth shut.

" Are you listening to me Riku?" She growled.

I turned my eyes over to look her in the eye, and I saw her jump in a bit of shock. She steadied herself and walked over to the edge of the bed where my head was, making me move my head a bit to keep our eyes locked. She glared down at me and I wondered why she looked so cute when she was mad. Perhaps that was why Sora liked her. I couldn't account for his taste in the pink clothing, being a bit of a punk dresser myself, but here she was standing up for him. She was being a good girlfriend to him, and I couldn't even be a good friend to Sora. I turned my head away from her and glared at the wall instead.

" Sora told me about how you helped him with the boxes." Kairi whispered.

" Yeah." I murmured." I figured I might as well help out. You guys are my neighbors."

" Sora is a nice guy and he wanted to help you out and you shoved it back in his face!" Kairi shouted at me.

I winced in shock at her sudden out burst then I heard the door slam downstairs. I sat bolt upright in my bed to go after Sora but before I could even bring one of my feet off the bed my head exploded in pain and I fell right back onto the bed. I pushed my face into the pillow and cried out Sora's name in hopes that he might hear me. I could feel tears well up under my lashes and before I knew it I was sobbing quietly on my bed. I drew my hands up from my sides and pushes then under my face to stop from crying into the pillow. I knew that the little bits of eyeliner I had been wearing the day before and had not removed were going to run, but I didn't stop it. I just lay there and cried, cried over being a fool, cried over hurting Sora, and cries over the fact that I had wanted him so bad but could never be like that for him now.

I felt a bit of weight on the bed and a hand touched my back.

" Easy Riku." Kairi said.

She rubbed my back slowly; telling me that if I said I was sorry she just knew Sora would forgive me. I slowly began to calm down, my sobs becoming quiet whimpers. She rubbed my back for a few more moments, before she stood up from the bed and walked to the door. I pulled my face from the pillow and I turned a bit to look at her. She was standing in the doorway, looking down the stairs with a sad look on her face.

" He likes you y'know." Kairi whispered.

" He what?" I asked in shock, pulling my shoulders off the bed.

" He likes you." Kairi said calmly.

I watched her for a moment then I looked over at the window where I had smashed my face in. There was blood on the center of the windowpane, the bit that hadn't been broken my Mr. shoe thrower. I'm a moron. I thought to myself. On a freaking suicidal person would crack their head into a window like that, the fuck was I thinking. So what if Sora's straight, shit I didn't have to do that.

The pain in my head only served to increase my feeling of self-loathing. I could feel Kairi's eyes on me, but I simply placed my head back into my pillow and sighed. I then heard the sound of a door slam shut next door followed by shouting and many questions. The person yelling was obviously Sora, and as for the second person I took a wild guess and placed it as Leon the guy who ditched Sora when he was lifting the boxes. I pulled my head from my arms and looked out the window again. I could feel such an urge come over me and before I could stop myself I was off the bed and running toward the window.

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I jumped out of the opening in the window and I heard Kairi shrieked my name, but I ignored her. I caught the side of the building then made the short drop to the grass in Sora's side yard. I dashed to the side door and kicked it open. There, standing in the living room was Sora and a guy dressed in black and red belts that crossed every which way. Sora looked like he had been yelling and crying at the same time, but now as the two of them stared at me, Sora with a look of shock and Leon with a look of anger, I knew my face was just soaked in tears. I gripped the side of the doorframe to stop myself from collapsing and I looked Sora right in the eye.

" Riku?" Sora finally whispered, taking a single step back.

I felt my eyes fall into a slight glare, but I wasn't really mad, not at Sora, just at myself. I forced myself to step toward him, watching as he took a step back, and before I knew it I had rushed toward him and pulled him into an embrace. I held him to me, not letting him squirm away, and I could hear Leon tell me to let him go, but I didn't. My hands fell down to Sora's hips, crossing over each other on his back. I nuzzled my nose into the crook between his shoulder and neck. I breathed in his scent slowly, allowing my slow breath to be heard by Sora and Leon. I didn't care if he heard.

" I'm so sorry Sora, please forgive me." I whispered right in his ear.

I felt him shudder, but before I could figure out if it was a good thing or not Sora's brother ripped me away from him and threw me right into the glass door. My head smashed against the glass and I was sure it had cracked a bit. I heard Sora shout in shock, but all I could see was Leon advancing toward me. I was in no condition to fight back, and quite frankly I really didn't want to. I felt I deserved such a punishment for treating Sora the way I had. I found my feet just as Leon socked me in the jaw. I staggered back by about an inch and found my back pressed against the cold glass of the side door.

" Go ahead." I whispered, the taste of blood coming into my mouth." I deserve it."

Leon drew his fist back once more; I closed my eyes, and waited. Moments went passed, but the silence continued and nothing happened. After a few more seconds I opened my eyes and I saw Sora standing right in front of me, his arms out stretched in a protective pose. He was so close I could feel his body heat radiating off of him, and he was much warmer then I would have guess. After looking over Sora's shoulder I noticed a look of the purist surprise had come over Leon's features.

" Leave him alone Leon, Riku's my friend." Sora growled.

I looked at Sora's back in shock as Leon moved back a bit.

" Isn't this the prick that just told you to fuck off?" Leon asked angrily.

" I know he didn't mean it." Sora said.

Suddenly I realized what was happening; Sora was defending me! He was standing up for me even after what I did to him. My heart soared; rising right out of me and it left me with a feeling of light-headedness. I placed my head gently on Sora's shoulder, and allowed my arms to move around his waste. Sora shifted a bit against me and I could almost see him smile.

" How can you say that?" I whispered softly.

Sora turned around in my arms and hugged me back. I felt him nuzzle his face into my chest, me being much, much taller then him. (Me: 6.8 Sora: 5.2) I was flying in my mind, and as far as I was concerned I could die right here and now as long as they put "He hugged me back!" on my gravestone. This was perfection, even if he was straight. Sora had forgiven me.