Something
do you ever feel like your doing the same thing,
as some else?
It happens to people.
but not me, never me, it couldn't,
imposable,
but I know who's it's happened to though.
I tried to call him,
but I didn't know what name he used,
so I had to stop,
I'm still a shadow, to some one walking alone,
but I still sit here writing,
in the quite of my room.
I don't know any more,
I guess I just write,
maybe it would lead the man walking alone,
down a new path.
Maybe I'll become a writer,
I will become a writer,
maybe it will make the man walking,
happy,
I know it will make him happy.
-
Kowaru sat on his bed alone happy with him self and his choices. He could write, he had a note book full of poems. Good ones as all his teachers have said to him. For the first time in a few years he smiled. Standing up he kicked his computer and it started playing back ground music, he snatched a microphone and started singing, another talent that he had, "Dearly beloved, are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying,
are we demented?
or am I disturbed?
the space that's in between insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
am I retarded?
or am I overjoyed?
nobody's perfect and I stand accused
for lack of better word and that's my best excuse." Kowaru had found the clip on the internet back searching something else and enjoyed the song very much. He thru on his school clothes. Today it consisted of jeans, a black under shirt and a white button down on top of that. He raced down the stares to See Shuichi for a few seconds, "I'm going to school" He said turning around and picking up his back pack.
Shuichi tried to catch him before he left, "Here eat this" Shuichi said, he had an scrambled egg sandwich. Kowaru took a bite out of it. Perfect.
"Thanks dad" He said walking out the front door and following some of his fellow school mates to school. When he reached school all his happiness had been drained again, he still had some left but not enough to make a difference. To day was Monday and it sucked why did school have to start on a Monday, why not a Tuesday. If it did less people would hate Monday.
"What happened to Yuki and him? I mean my Uncle Eiri and Mr. Shindo." Sakuya asked then took another sip of her coffee and said, "Were they-"
"An item?" Ryuichi finished for her his head down he was think of all the past things.
"Yes." Sakuya said nodding her head. Ryuichi sighed as he started to explain.
"Shuichi told me that he first met your uncle at a park. Since then there was a mutual attraction between the two." Ryuichi then chuckled and added; "I remember when Shuichi used to make up excuses just to see him. Shuichi was a very sensitive guy. Anyhow as you've already discovered Shuichi was the lead singer to the band Bad Luck. On the other hand your Uncle Eiri Yuki was a famous novelist. They were both very popular in Japan and continued seeing each other. Shocked the shit out of me when Yuki announced to the public that he and Shuichi were lovers." Ryuichi had a dreamy look on his face as he remembered all the stupid excuses as to why he had to go home and then he wouldn't return for three hours.
Sakuya raised an eyebrow and then said, "How do you find that funny? When someone loves a person they deserve to be with them despite gender." She slammed her hand on the table to get Ryuichi's attention.
Ryuichi stopped laughing, "See that's the thing. Someone threatened Shuichi about his and Eiri's son and unless his demands were reached. No one ever really knew this except Hiro and I but that person also threatened to have there son aborted… "
Sakuya covered her mouth shocked, "Why? Who was that man? and my uncle had a child?" Sakuya asked never hearing that part of any story.
"If my assumptions are correct it was my old manager... Mr. K." Ryuichi recalled, "And you'd have to ask Shuichi about the child I know very little about him" Ryuichi said trying to remember the child's name.
"Mr. K?" Sakuya asked, "who is he?" she asked tilting her head to the side.
"I guess you know him as Mr. Claude… Your father's personal body guard." Ryuichi whispered as he took a sip of his coffee. Sakuya's mind flashed back to the family picnic where Mr. K was acting the part of a bodyguard to Shuichi. Her eyes widened in shock. That must be him, Sakura thought.
"My father? He could be in danger right now! Please tell me that at least Mr. Claude has been tried in court! Please tell me that someone knows what he has done!" Sakuya whimpered.
"Nope. There was never any proof of what he did…" Ryuichi said as he looked out the window.
"What are you talking about?" Sakuya raised her voice astounded.
"From what I hear Shuichi ran away. and later he sent a letter under an unregistered mailing address. He dumped him worse than trash. Lemme tell you. Not a pretty picture." Ryuichi said infuriating Sakuya more.
"Then, why?" Sakuya trembled as she stood up and slammed her fist on the table causing attention from the other customers in the coffee shop.
"I thought for a long time that Mr. K had something to do with Shuichi's disappearance but there wasn't any proof." Ryuichi explained as he took another sip of his coffee.
"So until this day no one knows what happened?" Sakuya concluded looking into Ryuichi's eyes searching for answers.
"Correct-o." Ryuichi said staring deep into Sakuya's eyes.
With the silence that followed Ryuichi found Hiro's address. Taking out a pen and paper out of his jacket as well he wrote down the address. As he wrote down the address, he shifted his hat so that the people passing by in the window wouldn't see his face. After all, even if you're a retired legend like Ryuichi, fan girls can still mob you.
"I take it that you're doing this against Touma and Mika's wishes." Ryuichi said handing her the address.
"Oh! Please don't tell my father what I'm up to!" Sakuya pleaded putting her hands together in prayer.
"Don't worry. You're my favourite girl! I wouldn't tell, though Touma might get suspicious when he finds out that you've been gone for awhile away in Kyoto." Ryuichi said rubbing the back of his head thinking of al the different things that could happen considering this was Touma they were talking about.
"You mean that Mr. Hiro lives in Kyoto!" Sakuya asked, her jaw dropping, that was a long drive not to mention the gas prices.
"Yep!" Ryuichi laughed, "four hour drive if I'm correct." He slapped her on the back laughing as she ha a sweat drop on her face.
"You really suck you know that?" Sakuya said sourly.
"AW! Come on Sakuya!" Ryuichi said putting his arm around Sakuya, "I was just poking some fun that's all!"
Sakuya smiled and said, "All right!" Just then one of Sakuya's maids pulled up in front of the coffee shop, drawing her attention to her silver Porsche convertible, "I better go." Sakuya said walking out of the shop. Ryuichi started jingling something. Sakuya looked back and saw that he was holding up her purse, "Forgetting something?"
"Thank you!" Sakuya exclaimed as she embraced Ryuichi and walked off to her car. Getting in the driver's seat Sakuya found that there was a suitcase with clothes and other necessities in it. Good old maids, Sakuya thought, they know me better than anyone else. Guess they figured that I was going to be gone for a while. No wonder it took longer than usual.
"See ya later kiddo! Be safe!" Ryuichi laughed as he handed Sakuya his kumagorou. It was a pink bunny but its name was Mr. Bear. That thing meant a lot to Ryu and in giving it to Sakuya, she felt honoured. Rolling down the window Sakuya shouted, "You're the best Ryu!"
With that Sakuya made the long journey to Kyoto. After about an hour on the highway Sakuya yawned and decided to pull over for gas. While the tank was filling up with gas Sakuya pulled out the picture of her Uncle Eiri and Shuichi. In the picture his eyes weren't the least bit cold and menacing like they were now.
Loneliness, Sakuya thought, no one deserves to be alone. Especially him. I might not know anything of his past but I want to help...
Sighing Sakuya paid for her gas and walked out to her car putting the picture on the dashboard of the car. She took out the faded white box and looked at the butterfly necklace inside. Sakuya carefully put it on and smiled. Its green eyes matched hers. It's wings were pink, which was Sakuya's favourite color. "I'll find you Shuichi." Sakuya promised herself, "and that's a promise."
Shuichi sneezed. Some one was talking about him. He sat up to see Kowaru in his face, "Um..." Kowaru said, he had a bag of strawberry pocky, Shuichi looked from the bag to Kowaru, "uh... here" He said offering his father one of the bags, "I thought you mite like some" Kowaru said sitting on the couch next to Shuichi.
"Thankyou" Shuichi said as he took one of ht packets inside the box, "Where did you find this" Shuichi asked as Kowaru cleared his throat, "the international store" Shuichi and Kowaru both said "ah" at the same time as they munched on there food. They were a happy family, together and happy. They were surviving and living life the way they wanted to, "Kowaru lets skip work and school and go to the beach" Shuichi smiled and Kowaru agreed.
"I'm finally here!" Sakuya shouted a cry of happiness she stretched her arms into the air. Without another word Sakuya got out of the car letting the sun's rays touch her face. The sun feels so great! Sakuya thought as she pulled out Mr. Hiro's address from her purse. She then wandered down the vast, rocky, stone streets of the beautiful countryside city Kyoto.
The air is so clean here, Sakuya thought as she admired all the beautiful cherry blossom trees on the block. She also found that she was very close to Kurama hill. It was said that if you walk on that hill and pray at the little shrine, it would bring you good luck. The sidewalk that Sakuya was walking on was entirely made of brick and stones. Vender's trying to sell their merchandise crowded the streets. She found a man with long, red hair and shouted, "Excuse me sir!"
He was wearing a white shirt and blue jeans. When he turned around his face seemed somewhat familiar, "Yes?" he responded.
"I was wondering where I could find this address." Sakua said showing him the piece of paper. He looked at it and eyed Sakuya suspiciously, "What do you want with him?"
"Please sir!" Sakuya begged, "It is absolutely crucial that I speak with him." She gave him her best puppy eyes.
"He's not home." he said casually. There's something about this girl that makes her so familiar but what is it? She looks an awful lot like Touma Seguchi. Could she be related to him? The man thought. Sakuya's face dropped as she whimpered, "I came all the way from Tokyo to see him…"
"He's not home." he repeated, "but I can tell you where he is." The man said deciding to tell her the truth. Sakuya looked up into his face and said, "Please tell me!"
"You're looking right at him." the man said pointing to himself.
Sakuya's eyes widened in shock as she asked, "You're Mr. Hiroishi Nakano?"
"I don't know how you got a hold of this address or how you know my name but you can start by introducing yourself." Hiro said calmly.
"Mr. Hiro don't you remember me?" Sakuya laughed, "It's me! Sakuya Seguchi! Touma's daughter!"
"Well I'll be damned." Hiro said in shock. Sakuya gave him a puzzled look and smiled, "Come're kiddo!" Hiro laughed hugging her, "long time no see! However I don't think you came all the way from Tokyo to visit me. Now tell me, what's on your mind?"
Looking away Sakuya said, "Indeed. I have come all the way from Tokyo against my father's wishes to ask you many questions. If you have any information on Mr. Shuichi Shindo I would be most honoured if you told me."
Hiro raised an eyebrow and said, "In fact I do, but when your father finds out you've come all the way to Kyoto just to see me… He'll be pissed as hell." Hiro rolled his eyes typical Touma.
Hiro then started to laugh as Sakuya said, "This is not a laughing matter. The well being of my uncle depends on this. This isn't exactly fun and games to me. Don't you know that the truth about all of you has been kept hidden from me? Now I've come here seeking the truth but the question remains; can you give it to me?"
Hiro sighed then said, "Exactly like your father. He always got this face, you know when he's serious about something."
"Will you please stop comparing me to my father? I am a different person from him. Yes, true, that I look a lot like him but believe me I'm not a scheming bastard like him."
"Woah! Sakuya! I'm sure your father would be very upset if he heard his own daughter say that." Hiro said shocked.
"You know as well as I do how my father really is. He's greedy. He keeps the good groups around and drops the ones that are just taking up space and not bringing in the pay roll." Sakuya said.
Just then her cell phone rang. On the caller I.D. was her mother's phone number. Rolling her eyes she took out her cell phone and answered it, "Hello?" an annoyed Sakuya answered.
On the other line she heard the sobbing voice of her mother saying, "Eiri's in the hospital! He's not doing very well. The doctor's say that he has only a week…"
Sakuya dropped her phone and fell into darkness.