"Selena, come with me", the young man pleaded. "Matthias you know I want to but I can't. What would your brother think of us?". Matthias took her hands in his, "I don't care what he thinks Selena. I love you". Selena turned away but Matthias persisted. "Please. I can't live without you". Selena turned to face him, "Matthias I love you to. But I can't leave your brother". Matthias brought his face very close to Selena's and kissed her lightly.
"Lust!". She was suddenly snapped out of her thoughts by Gluttony. "We're at Rizembol".
Lust suddenly became aware of her surroundings. She was on a train and Gluttony was tugging on her dress. She got up from her seat and walked off the train. Rizembol was a very, very small town Lust found out. The houses were small and widely spaced. Lust and Gluttony were the only two to get off at this stop.
"Well a guy has short has the seven dwarfs and a talking suit of armor shouldn't be hard to find here", Lust muttered to herself has they walked down the path.
"What about food?", Gluttony asked her.
"Go on a diet fatass".
Fortunatley, they passed no restaurants. So Lust didn't have to worry about Gluttony darting off towards the nearest meal. Has they walked, Lusts thoughts turned to Scar, and her dreams. The man named Matthias had been him. And Selena looked exactly like her. "Did I love him in my past life?", she thought to herself. The only person who would know that, was Scar. And she had no idea how to get in contact with him. "Wait a minute", Lust thought to herself. Scar was wanted by the state for murdering State Alchemists. Ed was a State Alchemist. It was logical to assume that if Scar had tried to kill him once, he'd do it again. All she had to do, was stick around without anybody noticing. Little did Lust know, was that somebody else was using that same tactic.
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Scar somehow got to Rizembol by train without anybody recognizing him. Before heading to Rizembol though, Scar had gone to the library in Dublith and looked up everything on alchemy. Though he didn't find what he was looking for. It had taken him a total of two days to look through all the books and another one to get to Rizembol. Luckily for him, Rizembol was an out of the way town that probably had no knowledge of Scar. His thoughts went to the woman he had met in Dublith. "It couldn't possibly be Selena", he thought to himself has he walked down the path.
He remembered Selena very well. How could he not, he had lover. He and his brother both. Scar had been very jealous when Selena married his older brother and not him. And then the disease had taken her. All that he had left of her was a picture and a locket with a few strands of her hair in it. Another thing that puzzled him was why had the other woman passed out when she saw the locket. Now, Scar was out to find her. And he figured that the best way to do that, was to follow Edward Elric. She also seemed to have a reason for killing him as well.
Eventually, Scar came to a house with a sign on it that said 'Rockbell Automail'. It was dark so Scar decided to ask for a place to stay. He went up to the house and knocked on the door. A small old woman answered it.
"Yes?", she said.
"I was wondering if you new of any hotels", Scar said to her.
"Sorry. But you're welcome to stay here for the night", the old woman answered.
"Thank you", Scar said stepping inside.
Concealed partly by the darkness of the night and by the bush that they were hiding behind. Lust and Gluttony watched the scarred man enter the house. Lust turned to Gluttony.
"I can take things from here. Go back to Sloth", Lust said to him.
"But Lust—", Gluttony started
"Just go", Lust demanded.
Gluttony waddled off has fast has he could. And when he was out of sight, Lust stood and walked towards the house. She wasn't here to kill Ed anymore. The memories of her past life kept coming and more frequently. She wanted to settle this once and for all. And Scar was the only one who knew who she had been. But before Lust even made it to the door noises could be heard from inside the house.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!", yelled Ed.
When Lust walked into the house nobody was in the living room. That meant that the action was taking place upstairs. Lust walked up the stairs and into the hallway. Scar had his back turned to her and was trying to avoid Ed's lance has well has a wrench that was thrown at him. Scar dodged the wrench and grabbed Ed's automail arm. Red sparks appeared and the arm was blown up from the inside. Ed screamed in pain and clutched the wound. Scar stepped toward Ed who was on his knees in excruciating pain. Al stepped in front of him.
"If you want to kill my brother you'll have to go through me first", he said sternly.
"How touching", Lust said making her presence known.
Scar turned around and noticed that she was there behind him. His eyes widened with surprise.
"You again!", he said.
"Yes, me", Lust replied approaching him.
In the corner of his eye Scar saw Al helping his brother to his feet and carrying him away. Normally he would've chased after them but he couldn't. There was something about this woman that intrigued him. She looked exactly like Selena had. She saw Ed being carried away be Al but didn't care. She wasn't here for them. This man knew something about her past, and she wanted to know what it was. Lust looked at Scar for a moment. He looked exactly like Matthias from her dreams, aside from the scar on his face.
"Why do you look like her?", Scar said breaking the silence.
"Like who?", Lust replied.
"Don't play with me!", Scar said grabbing Lust's shoulders.
Lust pushed him off and slammed him against a wall. She pointed her index finger at him and extended it. Scar moved out of the way and her claw went into the wall instead. Scar grabbed the claw and blew off Lust's arm. Lust felt pain but only for a few seconds and then the arm began to grow back. Scar watched and took a step back.
"What are you?", he asked her.
Suddenly Lust froze. She was having another flashback.
His lips tasted like fire against hers. She wanted to stop but she couldn't find the strength to. When they did pull apart it was just to breathe. And Matthias brought his face in for another kiss but Selena turned away.
"Matthias we have to stop", she said to him.
"Selena please", he said to her.
She turned back around to face him. A look of sadness mixed with longing was on her face.
"I want to so much", Selena said putting a hand on his face, "but I love your brother to. And I couldn't bear to hurt him".
The flashback ended abruptly and Lust became aware of her surroundings. She wasn't in Rizembol anymore. Lust looked around. It appeared to be a tent of some sort.
"Where am I?", she said to herself.
"In an Ishbalan refugee camp", a voice answered.
"Who are you?", Lust asked him.
"My name is Thomas", the speaker said stepping out of the shadows.
Lust stood up and walked towards the tent flap. But before she left she stopped and turned around.
"How did I get here?", she asked Thomas.
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Aside from letting Scar stay here Thomas had also let him use some of his alchemy books. Thomas had practiced alchemy and for this had been exiled. The woman who looked like her had froze suddenly and then passed out. Scar had brought her here. "She looks just like her but it can't be", he thought to himself has he picked up another book. After looking through it he threw it back into the growing pile of books. Finally, there was only one book left to look at. It was black and had no title on it. Scar opened it and began to read. This particular book, turned out to be the most helpful one of them all.
After reading it, Scar understood why she, or rather it looked like her. She was something called a homunculus. She had no soul, or feeling. She was merely a shadow of what had been. Scar took out the photo he kept of Selena. She had been the prettiest woman he had ever seen. And it still angered him that she chose his brother instead of him. He wondered if this other her remembered being the woman that he had loved. He stood and walked out of the tent. He walked into Thomas's tent and found that it was gone.
"She left a little while a go", Thomas said to him.
When Scar didn't reply Thomas continued. "I couldn't help but notice that tattoo on her chest".
"I know", Scar said. "Now I know why".
"Why what?"
"Why she looks like my brothers wife".
After leaving Thomas Scar wondered for a bit. It seemed like he had no reason to go on now. When he had first seen the homunculus he had felt love. Something he had not felt in a long time. "But how can I love something that doesn't love me?", he thought to himself. He felt like he did when Selena had married his brother. Heartbroken.
"Selena", he said to himself, "I need you".
No one answered. Just the wind.
The next morning Scar was back to searching for Edward Elric. Though he didn't know why. He knew that if he did he was bound to meet her again. "But you want to", a voice inside his head told him.
"Am I going insane?", he said to himself.
A memory of Selene came to him suddenly. It was the first time he had ever kissed her…
Her lips tasted sweet like strawberries. He knew that this was wrong but he couldn't stop himself and he didn't want to. He knew that if his brother found out he would never trust him again. But he didn't care. His lungs demanded air and he broke the kiss. He took a breath of air and went back in for another kiss. But she turned away.
"Matthias we have to stop", Selena said to me.
"Selena please", Matthias said to her.
She turned around and the look on her face was one of longing mixed with sadness.
"I want to so much", Selena said putting a hand on his face. " But I love your brother and I couldn't bear to hurt him".
Matthias took her hand in his and kissed it. "I don't want to hurt him either", Matthias said to her. "But I can't stand to be without you".
Selena smiled and her face lit up. "You've been reading some of my romance novels haven't you?", she said.
Matthias smiled and reached into his pocket. He came out and a locket was in his hand. "I want you to have this", he said to her.
Lust woke up with a start. She was in a run down apartment somewhere. And then she remembered. After she had left the camp she had found out that Ed had gone to Eastern.
"This is crazy", she said to herself getting out of bed.
It was like she couldn't do anything anymore without having a memory of her. And even more annoying was that Scar was in every one of them. Lust walked through the streets aimlessly. She came to a bar and walked in. She went to the bar and sat down on an empty bar stool.
"Hey pretty lady", some guy said to her. "Wanna ride in my car? I can get you where you need to go".
"Go fuck yourself", Lust said to him.
"Ooh, you gotta dirty mouth for a whore—".
Lust jabbed her elbow into the mans stomach and he fell off of his barstool and to the floor. Lust stood up and kicked him in the stomach.
"You should take advice more often", Lust said to him before walking out of the bar.
She walked into an alleyway and slumped against the wall. She was tired of this. If she ever became human the first thing she would do was kill herself. Life was simply no fun anymore.
"I expected to see you again", a familiar voice said.
Lust looked up and saw Scar. For a moment she saw the kind, caring young man from her dreams. But only a moment. Lust stood slowly and stared at him.
"What do you want?".
Scar took a step towards her. He reminded himself that his thing was not Selena. She was just the result of a human transmutation by his brother.
"Matthias", Lust said to him hoping that would get his attention. "I'm not Selena. I have no soul, I can't love you".
"I know that", Scar said to her. "And it pains me that you don't feel".
Lust turned and started to walk away. But he followed her. Scar didn't know why he was following her. He knew he couldn't kill her.
"Stop following me!", Lust said to him turning around.
"Selena…", that was all Scar could say.
"I'm going to make sure that this is the last time we meet", Lust said to him extending her claws.
Lust charged at Scar and slashed at him. Scar sidestepped her and grabbed her wrist, and then pinned her to the wall. Lust became aware of the fact that their faces were very close. So close that she could feel his breath on her lips. And suddenly, another flashback happened.
"Matthias—", Selena began. He put a finger to her lips.
"Ssh. Nobody's here", Matthias said to her, "nobody's here to see us".
"I want to but I can't", Selena said to him. Matthias put his hands on her hips and pulled her to him.
There faces were close now. So close that Selena could feel his breath on her lips.
"Matthias…". Those were the last words she spoke. Before their lips met…
Lust was lost in this new sensation. She felt hands on her hips pulling her closer. She didn't care. She felt her arms wrap around his neck and pulled him in closer to her. Scar was in a world of his own. He knew that this thing wasn't Selena but her lips tasted the same, like strawberries. And then suddenly Lust opened her eyes and realized what she was doing. She pulled away, a horrified expression on her face.
"Selena…", was all Scar could say.
Lust slapped him across the face hard.
"No!", she yelled. "Selena is dead! Deal with it! You can't bring her back, no matter how much you want to. And even if I do become human I'll never be her!", Lust yelled at him. If Lust knew how to cry, she would've. Instead, she turned and ran out of the alleyway leaving Scar behind.
"Selena…", he said again. "I love you Selena".