I know I haven't been able to update, I made this chapter short because I have other things on my mind. The song from the other chapter was Can't Go Home, by Jennifer Neddles and Bon Jovi, I couldn't think of the woman's name. I haven't thought of what the next chapter is going to be like, but people have been requesting for Raven to show up but I don't know how it's going to go. Could someone give me an idea I could try to work with?
From my spot in the ring I stood watching MNM approach. This was on a Friday show of Smack Down and this was for the Smack Down Divas Championship. I had an idea of how it was going to go; Melina and I talked about it before we came to the building.
When the match started I was match to match with Melina, both of us giving it our all. I didn't need to shift because I knew I wouldn't do my finisher but instead I had given myself a charm that would protect me from the Snap Shot. While Melina was yelling at the ref, who had almost disqualified her Johnny and Joey came in and gave me the Snap Shot move rendering me unconscious giving Melina the win. I didn't feel guilty because that was the storyline, but I saw a face that I didn't expect. For a brief moment as I walked away from the ring I could have sworn I saw Mr. Levy sitting in the audience watching me. Blinking I tried looking for him again but some of the stagehands ushered me off to get looked over. Come to think of it, my neck was sort of hurting.
Matt greeted me backstage, kissing me lightly on the cheek. "You did great."
"Yeah but I have to go, my scene with Melina is coming up. Meet me out back of the arena near the trucks, I'll be waiting." I called out to Matt as I ran down a hallway.
Just as planned I was walking towards an exit sign of the assigned corridor that the seen was in with myBo staff in hand adjusting my Niam-Lann. A cameraman followed me, evidently zooming in on my distraught face.
"Guess I am the better diva in the company. No spell can stop me from being the best."
I stopped at the voice and turned around. MNM were standing behind me, evidently playing the role of snobs. In real life, Melina and I had a cool understanding; she didn't say anything bad about my religion and I never mentioned how big her breasts were.
"That's not what the spirits say." I countered. "When one path ends another begins, and let me tell you I like the path that I chose. Because in the end I will still out do you in anything. At least I have morals, rather than someone who'll open her legs to just about anything."
A low growl emitted from behind me, a stray dog had come into the building and was looking up at the new Smack Down Diva champion. Giving the dog a command in the form of a bark him and I set off towards the back area of the arena. With that behind me I needed to think, about what I had seen earlier.
He's been doing it again, I thought looking up at the night sky. He's been plaguing my dreams. Goddess, I always dream about kissing him but then it's just a dream.
"Why, why can't you just admit it Amaris, he's not coming back." I told myself standing under one of those lamps.
My neck was still hurting from that snap shot maneuver Johnny and Joey gave me. I had decided to take a long hot shower once I got back to the hotel; actually, I needed someone to massage my neck.
Just then I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders, I didn't care who those hands belonged to I just needed release from my pain. From years ago when I was working in the WWF after a lot of the bumps that Jeff Hardy gave me Mr. Levy would do full back and shoulder massages on me, I was actually able to sleep that night and not wake up in pain the next morning. These hands worked just like Mr. Levy, firm yet gentle.
"Mr. Levy." I breathed.
"Yes?"
Spinning around I looked at my teacher, my old teacher. Was I dreaming or was he in front of me? Reaching out I pressed my hand against his chest, but instantly he changed. I mean, this wasn't Mr. Levy, this was a Vision and this Vision turned into Matt Hardy.
"What did you call me?" Matt asked.
I was beside myself as I stepped away from Matt. "Stupid Visions."
Matt looked at me. "Care to explain, I don't get it. Why did you call me Mr. Levy? Do you still have a thing for him, Amaris?"
How was I supposes to answer that?
"It runs more than a thing, Matt. Maybe this is the path I choose but my love is on another."
"So you're saying, you would rather be friends. That you want Raven back?"
"It would make things simpler. But Goddess, I have not seen him in six years or so and I don't think he would want to come back to me. He's forty-one right now and I'm almost twenty-one. Don't you think that's being a little strange?"
"You never had the conversations we had after you left."
I looked at Matt but didn't say anything so I just let him continue.
"He cared a lot for you, more than just like a daughter. He would describe you in ways that a husband would a wife. You never saw the ways he acted when Jeff would berate you right in front of him. It got to the point that he rarely talked to anyone at all. He started abusing drugs and alcohol, that's why he looks the way he looks now."
Looking at my feet I sighed. "Did Jeff ever tell you what he saw in that emergency room?"
"He never spoke about it."
"He saw the Triple Goddesses of the Morrigan, the death goddesses. He saw my faith, not his. Now he is sort of starting to get a handle on my religion. Mr. Levy was never like that, he never questioned my religion and I guess that's what linked us. I always thought he was cool, for being as smart as he was and yet got his head bashed in on an almost daily basis."
Matt laughed. "You really love him don't you?"
"I never thought of it, I enjoyed him, I enjoyed his presence and knowing he was there to stand up with me for all the crap that Jeff put me through I realized when he left me he left with a part of me; he stayed with me as I went through my training years."
I was looking at the dim stars overhead when Matt looked at me questioningly. "I mean, he was my influence to get into wrestling, to stand up for my beliefs against your brother. When I think about it, he loved me all the time and I didn't know about it."
"He was proud of you."
"He cried for me."
"Scott cried? The man could barely laugh."
"I know it sounds funny but when I went through my out of body experience I saw him, I saw him crying. I saw that then he truly loved me and that he would always love me. Why did he start abusing drugs? To get me out of his mind, to get the effect of us and our relationship behind him and I bet to beat himself up for not contacting me for all those years. I just wish and pray that maybe one day him and I could get together, to be what we had always wanted to be without worrying about what people would think about. I know now that this relationship gave me the opportunity that there was no one else out there besides Mr. Levy for me."
"I'm glad I was here for you to see that, though it doesn't give me much happiness. I'm still alone here."
"No you're not. You have your mother to talk to. I'm not pushing anything on you but try looking at the moon, no matter what phase she's in she can be your mother and know that no matter where you are she's looking down upon you and your brother from her starry heaven."
"This is the best break up I have ever been in." Matt smiled giving me a hug. "Are you up for dinner?"
"Now that you mentioned it, there's this Japanese buffet that I saw on the way to the arena. Let's go there."
"Cool, grab your gear, I'll grab mine and I will meet you our here." Matt smiled at me.
We bother ran back inside, a race to see who get our things and meet up out back. In the end I beat Matt by five minutes, he had to stop and talk to Mr. Long about the next house show. That night was fun but I still was plagued with those dreams of my old teacher, about how he smiled at me and how he was proud of how far I had come. But by morning he was gone and I barely remembered what some of those dreams were about.