After Natasha had cried herself to sleep Lust didn't know what to do. "What the hell am I supposed to do now?", Lust thought to herself. Lust decided to just improvise. She laid Natasha on her bed and pulled the covers over her. Has Lust did this she couldn't help but shake the feeling that she had done this many times before. "Goddamn it!", Lust thought angrily, "why do I keep having these memories! And why did I have to meet my family!".
After Lust had come down the stairs Scar immediately knew something was wrong. Her usually emotionless face was twisted into a mixture of anger and sadness. Lust walked over to Scar, and hugged him. Lust wished she cold cry. She wished that she could cry away all of her problems.
"It's ok", Scar said to her tilting her chin up. "You can tell me anything".
"Matthias", Lust said sighing, "I wish I could be human so badly. I want to be able to feel emotion".
Scar kissed her. Lust felt her arms wrap around his neck and his hands on her waist. When they pulled apart Lust rested her forehead against his.
"Your mother, Helen, wants to talk to you", Scar said after a few minutes of silence.
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Lust nervously walked into the room. The woman in it had her back turned to her but Lust could tell that she was sad.
"When I first saw you I thought the impossible had happened. I thought, that my little girl had come back from the dead", Helen began. "And then, I found out what you were, and you weren't my daughter".
Helen broke down into sobs and Lust found herself at her side. Lust saw something on the floor that the woman must've dropped and picked it up. It was a picture. A picture of Selena when she must've been eleven or so.
"I'm sorry", Lust said, "for causing you pain".
"It's alright", Helen said regaining her composure, "you know, you're more like Selena than you know".
"Me and Selena are two separate people", Lust said.
"Believe what you want Lust, but you share many of the same qualities that my daughter had. And it's not just in your beauty", Helen answered. "It's in your personality. Selena was stubborn too, as well has caring. I'm sure you don't believe it but in many ways, you are like her".
Lust didn't believe it. She thought she was a cold, and ruthless killer. "If I'm caring then why do I kill people?", Lust thought to herself. Has fare as she knew, she didn't care about anybody or anything. "Except Scar", Lust reminded herself. And when she thought about it, Gluttony to. Certainly not in the same way she cared about Scar but she did.
"I'm not human. How can I be anything like your daughter was if I can't feel or express any emotion?", Lust countered.
"That's not true", a new voice said.
Lust turned around to see Natasha standing in the doorway.
"You do feel emotion. I can see it in your eyes every time you look at Matthias".
"Natasha", Helen began but she didn't get a chance to finish what she was about to say.
"You love Matthias, I know you do. You loved him then, and you love him now. I can see it every time you look at him", Natasha said to Lust.
Lust was shocked to say the least. She didn't believe that it was possible for her to feel any emotion. But around Scar she felt, different. The emptiness inside her seemed to be filled whenever she was with him.
"Natasha that is enough", Helen said sternly. "Now go and prepare dinner".
"Yes mother", Natasha said before turning to leave for the kitchen.
Lust followed her bumping into Scar on the way.
"You're in a hurry", Scar said to her.
Lust brushed past him and walked into the kitchen where Natasha was preparing dinner.
"We used to brag that we had the best cook in Ishbal", Natasha said, "but ever since you died, well, the foods still good, but not as good has yours was Selena. I mean Lust".
Lust half smiled, "it's ok, you can call me Selena".
Natasha went back to what she was doing and Lust watched with interest. She watched has Natasha barley missed amputating her fingers.
"Here, let me help you", Lust said.
Minutes later, when Helen walked into the kitchen, she could see Lust and Natasha both cooking dinner. It brought a tear to her eye, to once again see her two daughters together.
"I remember how to do this", Lust thought to herself has she put the food into the oven. It was has if her hands automatically knew what to do with all the ingredients that were being added.
"Selena can I help you with the cooking?", Natasha asked looking up at her big sister.
"Of course you can. You can help me cook the bread", Selena answered.
"Selena?", Natasha asked after the bread had been put into the oven.
"Yes?"
"Where'd you get the locket? Did Matthias give it to you?", Natasha asked.
Selena clutched the locket that Matthias had given her. Selena knelt down in front of her little sister.
"I thought we agreed that you wouldn't talk about this?", Selena said to her.
"Selena if you love Matthias then why did you marry Alexander?".
The memory ended and Lust found herself back in the kitchen. Her memories were coming more frequently now, and it scared her.
"Selena", Natasha said snapping Lust out of her thoughts.
"What?", Lust said to her.
"We have to go set the table now", Natasha said to her.
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Scar watched the two women set the table. It brought back memories. Memories of Selena doing this very same thing, with her little sister who was only seven at the time, following her around. Children had adored Selena. Mothers would leave their children with Selena who would look after them has if they were her own. They had been devastated when she died, but especially Natasha.
"Since when are you a cook?", I asked Lust.
She smiled at me, "Ever since I remembered how".
After the table was set and the food was cooked everybody sat down around the table. After the prayer was said people began to eat.
"This is great", Natasha said.
"Thank you", Lust said.
Lust had never been complimented on anything. Except of course, the size of her breasts but that didn't count for anything. The only people who really did care for her were in this room. By now Dante had probably realized that Lust was gone. Somebody had probably told Pride that she was with Scar. "It doesn't matter anymore", Lust thought to herself.
After dinner Lust went upstairs with Natasha. She led her to an empty room, probably the guest room.
"We rarely have guests", Natasha said, "but the bed is still comfortable".
"Thank you", Lust said to her.
"Selena?", Natasha said looking up at Lust.
"Yes", Lust answered.
Natasha hugged Lust, "I'm glad you're back Selena. Even if you don't have a soul".
Lust was unsure of what to say. She responded to the embrace awkwardly at first, but then getting the hang of it. "All these people think I'm somebody else. I'm not Selena, I'm just me", Lust thought to herself.
That night Lust tossed and turned in her sleep. Every time she drifted off to sleep she'd be assaulted with memories of being Selena. She found that she couldn't sleep without Scar next to her. Lust got out of her bed and walked out of her room and into the hallway. She walked into Scars room and just stood in the doorway for awhile.
"Why do I feel so… different around him?", Lust thought to herself. He looked so peaceful in his sleep. Lust walked over to the bedside and took off one of her gloves. She put her bare hand on his face and he stirred in his sleep. Lust took off her gloves and boots and climbed into bed with him. She kissed him on the lips before drifting off to sleep…
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The next morning when Scar awoke he found that he was not alone in his bed. Lust was sleeping peacefully at his side. Scar smiled. Scar ran a hand down her back and she smiled in her sleep. Scar liked it when Lust smiled even if it was rare. Scar tucked a stray strand of hair behind Lust's ear and her eyes opened.
"Good morning beautiful", Scar said kissing her.
Lust responded to the kiss and put her bare hand on his neck pulling him closer. Scar put his hand on her hip and parted her lips with her tongue. They staid like that for quite awhile. That is until Natasha opened the door.
"I'm sorry", she said quickly before leaving the room.
"Well that was…embarrassing", Lust said to Scar.
"I don't think she was all that surprised", Scar said to her sitting up in bed. "Natasha's been trying to play matchmaker for you ever since she could talk".
"That explains a lot", Lust said getting out of bed.
Lust got on her gloves and boots and walked downstairs. Natasha walked out of the kitchen with a basket in her hand. She skipped over to Lust and took her hand.
"Good, you're awake", Natasha said excitedly.
"You seem excited", Lust said to her.
"I am", Natasha said replied. "Come on, there's a place I want to show you".
"Um, ok", Lust said has Natasha led her out the door.
Natasha led her through the crowded streets. It was amazing really, how many refugees had gathered together and formed this little town.
"This used to be all tents", Natasha said has they walked. "But not anymore".
Natasha led Lust out of the city and into the forest. Natasha led Lust down a path that took them up to a hill. Once at the top of the hill, Natasha stopped.
"Here we are", Natasha said.
It was beautiful. The hill overlooked the entire city. There was a small pond at the top of the hill that formed a stream that went all the way down the hill. "It's beautiful", Lust thought to herself. Natasha sat down next to the pond and put her feet into the water. Lust sat down next to her and for the first time in her life she felt at ease.
"I brought us breakfast", Natasha said opening the basket.
Lust was about to say something to the effect of 'help yourself, I don't need to eat', but decided against it. Lust took an apple out of the basket and bit into it. Natasha did the same and the two ate in silence.
"It's so peaceful here", Lust said.
"And romantic. You could always bring Matthias here", Natasha said grinning.
Lust splashed the younger girl with water. Natasha laughed and threw her apple core into the pond.
"Come on Selena you know you love him", Natasha said.
"Natasha I have no soul, I can't feel emo—"
Now it was Natasha's turn to splash Lust with water. "Don't give me that. If you couldn't feel emotion then you wouldn't look at Matthias the way you do".
"I don't love Scar", Lust said.
"Then why were you kissing him?", Natasha asked grinning.
Lust opened her mouth but no words came out and Natasha's grin widened. "But if I do love him, then that means I do have a soul and everything Dante told me was a lie", Lust thought to herself.
"You seem to be at a loss for words", Natasha said to her.
"I don't love him. I can't", Lust said suddenly clutching the locket that was around her neck.
"Matthias gave you that locket ten years ago Selena. If you're still wearing it then you're definitely in love with him", Natasha said.
"I'm a homunculus, I do not love", Lust said.
"Then why the strange feelings whenever you're around Scar?", a voice in her head said.
"Selena", Natasha said. "What did you mean when you said you remembered how to cook?".
"When a homunculus is created, the only thing that they have in common with the person that was supposed to be brought back to life is their appearance. The don't remember anything about their past life. But we do have flashbacks. People will just say that it's 'the desires of the creator', but they're memories. And ever since I met Scar, and you, they've been coming a lot", Lust said.
"Is that why you went to sleep with Matthias?", Natasha asked.
"Yes", Lust replied. "I don't know why, but when I'm with him I feel different. I feel all happy inside".
Natasha stood up to leave, "that's called love".
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Natasha left Lust alone to ponder her thoughts. She had taken her boots off and put her feet in the water.
"Do I really love him?", Lust said aloud.
Lust thought about what life would be like if she stayed here with Scar. She wouldn't mind, now that she thought about it. And Natasha certainly wouldn't care. She thought of what would happen if her and Scar married. She wouldn't be able to give him any children, so what would be the point?
"Why can't I just be human?", Lust said aloud.
"Because", a voice said, "you haven't done what you're supposed to".
The voice had seemingly come from nowhere. But then, out of the water came the figure of a woman.
"Sloth", Lust said when she appeared, "good to see you".
You people know the drill, read, review. And Forty Seventh Light if you're reading this update your story! And will somebody please write a damn ScarxLust fic! That's all I have to say. If you want to hear me rant, then ready my other story, A Roy and Riza Story.
Mr. Scarface