Fades to Black

Chapter 21:Driving Miss Gilmore

Disclaimer: I don't own the show or the characters; they belong to the mean, mean creators of Gilmore Girls.

Summary: My version of what happens after the screen fades to black…

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She stepped out of her car, shut the door and made her way towards the house. She couldn't wait to just fall asleep. She wanted this day to be over. She wanted all of this to be over.

But, no... No, she didn't want that.

She wanted it to be different. She wanted to be able to talk to Luke about this. She wanted him to reassure her. She wanted him to marry her. She wanted all of this to work out.

But she didn't know if it would.

She couldn't talk to Luke about this. What if it backfired? What if talking about it only made them both realize that this will never work out? That couldn't happen. She couldn't lose Luke. She couldn't.

That's why she kept quiet.

She unlocked the front door and stepped inside.

"Where have you been?" Luke asked her, standing up from the couch, surprising her.

She quickly tried to wipe away any make up that had run under her eyes. She didn't want him to know she had been crying, but it was too late. He saw.

"Are you OK?" He asked, walking towards her.

She smiled, trying to hide the fact that she was devastated inside. "I'm fine, Luke... What are you doing here?" She asked. She hadn't seen him since she had talked to Anna. Something looked different about him. He looked... worried? Mad? Upset? Tired? No. He looked... scared.

"I've been waiting for you for hours."

"Where's your truck?" She asked. It wasn't in the driveway.

"At the diner. I've been here since 5."

"Oh."

"Where were you?" He asked. He wasn't angry, but the look in his eyes scared her.

"I was at Sookie's." She told him.

"For 5 hours?" He asked, skeptically.

"Well, my mother just had eye surgery and she is sort of... blind... So, I had to do some errands with her." She told him, avoiding his face, while taking off her shoes.

"What about the staff meeting?" He asked.

"Staff meeting? Right. Well, I canceled it." She told him.

"Canceled it?"

"Well, you know my mother." Lorelai told her.

"Yeah..." He said. He knew she was lying. "What's going on, Lorelai?" He asked her.

"What do you mean?" She asked, heading towards the kitchen. He followed.

"I haven't seen you in a couple days."

"I know, I've just been busy. I'm sorry." She told him. She was doing a pretty good job avoiding his eyes.

"Lorelai." He said, putting his hand on her shoulder, so she would look up at him.

"Yeah?"

"What's going on here? I know you're lying." He told her.

"Luke, I don't know what you're-"

"Lorelai, c'mon, what's going on with you? You're not saying something. I know you. I know you're not saying what you mean, and I'm trying to figure out what you're not saying, but I can't... I'm lost here." He told her.

She sighed. He was getting angry now. She didn't want this. The last thing she wanted was for him to get mad at her.

"My mother wants to buy us a house." She told him.

He was surprised. She could see that. This was probably the absolute last thing he was expecting. "She's what?"

"She wants to buy us a house. It's right outside Stars Hollow. It's close to the Inn and the diner. It has a swimming pool and horses and it's beautiful. You would love this house." She explained.

"I don't get it." He told her, flat out.

"I don't know." She shrugged. "I was just... I was looking at the pictures and I was... imagining... us... living there, you know? With the horses and the fish... and... kids." She told him.

He smiled. He still didn't get it.

"And I just... I realized that it's... it's never gonna happen." She told him, before she could stop herself.

"What?" He asked.

"You, me, the house, the kids... all of it... the whole package. It's not happening. The universe doesn't want me to be happy." She told him.

"Lorelai, you're crazy." He told her. He still wasn't fully understanding.

"I talked to Anna." She blurted out.

"What?" He asked, completely shocked.

"I went to talk to her, apologize, you know? I just thought that if she met me and she saw that I wasn't some pyscho, everything would be OK."

"And it isn't?" He asked.

"She doesn't want me to see April."

"What?" He asked. It actually comforted her to see that he looked sad about this.

"She doesn't want me to see her until we're married."

"I'll talk to her. It'll be OK." He told her, rubbing her arm.

"No, Luke. It's completely understandable. If I was Anna, I'd do the same thing. You can't talk her out of it." Lorelai told him.

"Well, look, we're getting married, and then you'll know her... and she loved you... It'll be OK."

She shook her head. "Luke, we can't just... That isn't going to work." She told him, trying her hardest not to break down in tears.

"Why not?" He asked.

"It just won't. It won't." She told him.

He pulled her close to him. "It will be OK. This is going to work." He told her.

"Luke..." She began.

"I'll make it work." He told her, sternly. She could tell he wasn't changing his mind. That was OK with her.

"Okay." She told him, holding on to him for dear life.

She didn't know what would happen, but she was holding on to him, and he wanted to fix this. It would work out. It had to work out. She couldn't lose him. She wouldn't lose him.

"I love you." He told her softly.

She smiled against his chest and hugged him tighter. He kissed the top of her head.

"What's that smell?" He asked a few minutes later.

She laughed a little bit. "Marijuana."

"Okay." He said, and kissed the top of her head again.

Haha i loved the whole Jackson/Sookie/weed thing... especially the ending with Lorelai. This was a pretty good episode. I liked Paris and Doyle and the penguin movie thing... They are pretty funny. Poor Logan. He looks like he's in pain. I liked Luke helping TJ, I just hope he can take his own advice and see that Lorelai isn't saying something... That's basically why I wrote this... hoping that Luke would realize Lorelai isn't saying what she means. Liz is preggers. aww... I liked Lorelai driving that huggeee car. I liked Emily. The house thing was cute. I was expecting that from the begginning tho. I doubt they'll buy it... but the idea is nice. It shows Emily and Richard approving of Lorelai's marriage. It's nice. They see she's happy... but Lorelai was heartbreaking. It will work, damn it! If it doesn't... well, I don't even want to think about it.

Basically... I'm dreading the last couple minutes of the finale... BTw, if you are taping or Tivoing the episode... ITS GOING TO RUN AN EXTRA 2 MINUTES! So yeah, make sure you set it right... Don't wanna miss those last two minutes... Unless you are like me and you do... Ughh...

I'm gonna to go write chapter 15 of Poker Faces. Look out for it...

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Gracias. Happy Sunday everyone... just a few more days...