Title: How Things Seem (Sequel To Knights Reunited)

Authors: Jamie552 (writes Bosco) and Starbright (writes Faith)

Summary: Three years after the party at Haggerty's, Bosco and Faith are married and living happy and normal lives. But Bosco gets offered something he can't refuse...

Disclaimer: We, sadly, own nothing.

Chapter 4

All I could think about was what Bosco had just said to me. Why would he say that? After everything we have been through together, why would he tell me that I'm too old to have kids? For the last year, he has been telling me that he wants kids with me, and now that I'm finally ready...he isn't.

I shook my head as I walked towards the kitchen and saw the dinner that I made Bosco on the table. I grabbed the dinner and threw it into the trash can, it's not like I'm going to eat it anymore. I knew that Bosco could be a jerk, but it wasn't something he would have said to me, not after all the times he used to talk to me about what he would do with our kids. Then suddenly a thought come to me. What if he wants kids, just not with me? What if Bosco doesn't love me anymore and this was his way of telling me that he wants to leave me for a younger woman?

I then grabbed the phone. "Kim, it's me Faith. I need to talk to someone. Can we meet at the coffee shop?" I said, crying through the phone. I tried to not cry, but I couldn't stop.

"Faith, what's wrong?" Kim asked through the phone.

"I can't talk about it right now. Just meet me." I said.

"Okay, I'll meet you in 15 minutes, how's that?"

"That's fine. See you then," I said, as I hung up the phone. I grabbed my jacket, as I looked at the wedding picture of her and Bosco. We looked so happy that day, I can still remember the day that I married Bosco. It was the happiest day of her life, I never thought that I would ever get married again or would want to, but that before Bosco and I got together. I smiled to myself, as I picked up another picture of me, Bosco, Emily and Charlie at Christmas, I still remember how Fred didn't want to them to come over on Christmas Day, but Bosco said that they were old enough to make their own decisions. Of course they chose to be with me, and I didn't admit to anybody, but that made my day having them chose me over Fred.

Bosco is so good with Charlie and Emily, he treated them like his own kids, so why doesn't he want to have any with me?

I looked at the clock, and saw that I was going to be late if I didn't leave now .So I put the picture down on the table, and grabbed my keys and left the apartment.

As I entered the coffee shop, I already saw Kim sitting down. She run up to me when I walked inside. "What's wrong Faith?" was the first thing she asked me, she didn't even say hi.

"Hi to you too, Kim." I said, as I sat down on the chair. Kim looked at me. "Hi to you too, Faith, I was just so worried about you. What happened? Did something happen to Bosco? Did he get hurt again?"

"I wish it was that easy." I said, as I stood up to get a coffee. Kim looked at me. "I'll get your coffee, you sit down."

Kim returned with my coffee a few minutes later. "So tell me Faith, what is wrong?" she asked, looking at me with this sympathetic look on her face.

"Where should I start?" I said.

"The beginning is normally good," Kim said. I looked at her. "Well I made this really special dinner for Bosco, because I decided that I want to have kids with him."

"That's so great, I'm so happy for you," Kim said. She then looked at me. " Why aren't you happy about this."

I looked at Kim. "You didn't let me finished what I was saying."

"So when Bosco got home, I told him that I wanted to have kids, let just say that he didn't say what I thought he would say. He told me no, that he didn't want to have kids anymore, and get this… he said don't you think you are too old to have kids."

"You must have misunderstood what he said." Kim responded. "He wouldn't never say that to you, he has always said that he want kids with you."

I looked at Kim. "I didn't misunderstand anything he said."

"So what happened then?" Kim asked me. I smiled slightly. "I kicked him out."

"You did what?" Kim said, with a laugh.

"He deserves it, Kim. We talked about having kids for a long time, he always told me that when I was ready, he would be ready, and then when I tell him that I'm ready, he said no. You want to know what he told me, he said that he was over it. It was like we were talking about what we were going to have for dinner, not talking about bringing a child into the world. I always thought that he change, but I was wrong, he will always be the jerk. I should have never married him."

"You don't mean that Faith. There has to be a reason he said that to you." Kim replied.

"Because he is a jerk, plain and simple." I said. "Or he doesn't want a kid with me, because he wants to leave me for another woman."

"He wouldn't do that." Kim responded.

"Fred did that, so why wouldn't Bosco do that. I'm old remember, that is what he said, maybe he wants a younger woman."

"Bosco loves you, Faith. You know that he would never leave you for another woman. I don't know why Bosco said what he did. But maybe he is scared about having kids, you have two kids already, so know about having kids, but Bosco doesn't. If Bosco is anything like Jimmy, he never tells you how he feels, he rather be a jerk, than admit to you that he is scared about something."

"But he was always so happy when he was the one talking about having kids, but when I talk about it, he starts to be a jerk."

"Have thought that he was okay about talking about having kids, when you didn't want to, as he knew that it wasn't going to happen, but as soon as you said that you wanted them, he started to get afraid about it, that it could actually happen" Kim responded. "Faith, call him. Don't let a little thing like this ruin your marriage. I know the both of you love each other, everybody knows that."

I smiled at Kim. "You're right." I said, as I stood up and hugged her. "I'm going to go and call him now."

Kim smiled at me. "Good." I then started to walk away when Kim called me. I turned around. "What?"

"You forgot your jacket."

I smiled slightly, as I grabbed my jacket. "Thanks." Kim then hugged me again. "Everything's going to be fine."

"Thanks," I said, as I walked out of the coffee shop. I grabbed my cell phone out of my bag, and dialed Bosco's cell phone number.

"Hello?" Bosco said.

"Boz, it's me Faith."

"Faith…" Bosco said. I didn't know what to say next to him, I was still mad at him, but Kim was right, I need to talk to him.

"Faith are you still there?"

"Yes, I'm still here, Bosco. I was wondering if you want to go to our diner we use to go all the time when we were partners, as I am hungry, and well the dinner that I made..."

"I don't think that is a good idea, Faith."

"Why not," I asked.

"You are still mad at me; I can hear it in your voice."

I sighed. "I'm not saying that I've forgive you for what you said, but I love you, Boz. I need to know why you said that, I think there is more to is than you are telling me."

"I just don't want kids anymore,"

"I know there is more to that, Boz, because for a year now, you told me that you wanted kids, and then when I tell you that I want kids, you don't want them. Is it because you are afraid of having them? You are going to be a great father one day, Bosco; I have seen the way that you are with Emily and Charlie."

"I'm not afraid to have them, I just don't want them."

I was started to get annoyed with Bosco, but I needed to know why he was acting like this.

"You don't want them period, or you don't want them with me? Are you leaving me?"

"No I'm not leaving you, but I think we need some time apart." Bosco replied.

"We don't need to be apart, come home, and we will sort out whatever is bothering you."

"I can't."

"You can't? You know a marriage takes work, Boz. It was just one little fight. We have had bigger fights than this when we were partners and we've dealt with it, but we can deal with this.

There was a silence over the phone.

"You know you haven't changed one bit, Boz. I thought when I married you that you wouldn't be the insensitive jerk that you always were, whenever there was trouble in your life you just run from it. I thought you learnt from all the mistakes that you made in your life, that you can't run from your problems. But that is what you are doing right now with our marriage, you are running from it."

"I don't run from anything."

"Then come home." I said.

"I can't do that… I just can't."

"Why, Bosco. Tell me why you can't come home to be with your wife. I know that I kicked you out, but I was just angry at what you said. You can come home, Boz, I love you, I should have never kicked you out like that."

"I just can't come home, Faith. You wouldn't understand."

"Then make me understand. If you don't talk to me, I can't understand. Don't do this to us."

"I have to go," Bosco said.

"Boz, don't go." I said, but he had already hung up the phone. Tears started to fall down my cheeks, as I put the cell phone back in my bag; I was more confused than ever.

Kim then walked out of the coffee shop. "Faith, did you talk to Bosco?"

I looked at Kim. "I can't talk about this right now. I just can't," I said, as I walked away from Kim.

Later,

I was sitting on the couch in my pajamas when there was a knock at the door. I jumped off from the couch and run towards the door. "Boz?" I said, as I opened the door, but it wasn't Bosco standing in front of me, it was Kim, Sasha, Monica, and Holly.

I was so disappointed that it wasn't Bosco at the door, I was so hoping that he decided to come home, so we could sort everything out together, but he didn't.

Kim looked at me. "I thought you could use a few friends right now."

I shake my head. "I don't need anybody here, I'm fine." I said, as I walked away from them.

They all followed me inside. "You need us, Faith."Sasha said. "Carlos and Ty are looking after the kids, so we can stay as long as you need us."

I turned to Holly. "You come all the way from your house?"

Holly smiled. "We are visiting Ty and Sasha for a few days."

They all sat down next to me. "I can't believe Bosco did this to you." Sasha said. "You finally decide that you want kids and he did this."

"I think it is more than that." I said, as I started to cry, I didn't want to cry in front of them, I want to be strong, like I always am, but I couldn't.

Kim put her arms around me. "Oh Faith, what happened?" I looked at them. I wasn't one to tell my problems, but the way that they were looking at me, there was no way that I could not tell them.

"I called Bosco like you said, Kim, and let's say it didn't work out how you thought it would. I told him that he could come home and we will sort everything out, and you want to know what he said to me, he can't, and that I wouldn't understand. How the hell does he know that I wouldn't understand if he doesn't talk to me?"

"Jerk." Sasha said. "How could he do this to you?"

"Now, don't jump to conclusions, Sasha. Maybe we don't know the whole story." Monica said, softly, reaching over and resting a hand of my arm. "Bosco's not the type to behave like that without reason."

"Oh, yes he is." Sasha said, raising an eye-brow. "That guy...has been a first-rate jerk since the day I met him."

"Sasha-" Holly said.

"Well it's true." Sasha replied. "You never had to work with him."

"I don't think this is helping Faith any, Sasha. Bosco might be a jerk right now, but we all know that he loves Faith." Holly replied. "There has to be a reason,"

"Oh maybe he doesn't love me anymore, and he wants a younger woman." I replied. It was my greatest fear that my marriage to Bosco was going to end like my marriage to Fred.

Holly looked at me. "There is no way that Bosco would leave you for another woman. Look how long it took the two of you to admit how you feel about each other; he wouldn't ruin that for a fling."

"Maybe not. But he is still a jerk no matter what, I have been through everything with him, and he thinks I wouldn't understand the reason why he can't come home. If he's in trouble, I want to help him." I said.

" Bosco wouldn't ever ask for help, Faith." Kim replied.

I smiled slightly. "I know that, Kim, but I'm his wife, I'm supposed to be there for him."

"I don't know why you ever thought he would change, Faith. He was a jerk when you meet him, and marrying you isn't going to change him."

"Stop it, Sasha. We're trying to help Faith through this, not make her feel worse." Monica said.

Sasha looked at me. "Monica's right, I'm not helping much. I know that Bosco loves you, but he still hurt you, the one person that always been there for him."

I stood up, as I walked over to the window. "I thought he was going to be so happy that I wanted kids. You don't know how hard it was to decide that. It's not easy having kids."

Sasha and Kim both laughed." We know." they said.

I then turned around. "But when I really thought about it, I realize that I did want kids with Bosco. Little Boscorelli running around the place, I know I'm not as young as I was when Emily and Charlie were young, but I knew that it wouldn't matter because Bosco and I would love our kids. So when Bosco come home and told me no he didn't want any, it shocked me so much. But I guess I just have to deal with it."

"If that was the reason why isn't Bosco coming home?" Sasha asked.

"Because he said that we need time apart, and I actually think we do, because if he come home right now, all I would do is argue with him, and that wouldn't do any of us good."

"So are you saying that you agree with him?" Sasha asked.

"I don't know anymore." I said, as I looked at them. "You know it was really nice of you all to come over, but I really need to be alone."

"You shouldn't be alone right now." Kim replied.

"I need to be alone, please. I'll be fine." I said, as I walked over to them. "I call you all tomorrow."

Kim looked at me. "Fine. Just call us if you need us." I nodded. "I will." I then hugged everybody and waved goodbye to them. I sighed, as I closed the door behind me. How did everything turn out like this, yesterday Bosco and I were so happy, and now we are so far apart.

I walked in the bedroom, and walked over to the bed, and climbed into the bed. I lay my head on the pillow; I then turned and looked at the empty space where Bosco slept.

I felt so alone without him sleeping next to him, with his arms around me, it was going to be a long night.

To be continued!