A/N: Pretty pointless drabble, just had to write my frustration down lol. It's stupid... but anyway, thanks to Mel for the quick beta. And I still hope you like it...

My name is Sara Sidle and I'm single

It's hilarious... I'm a grown up thirty-four year old woman, without a man. My life exists of work, going home to nobody, sleep, listen to my police scanner and more work. I've tried to break the circle a few times, but it's never worked.

It's been this way since high school, I've never been the beautiful one; I was always the one with the brains. Guys don't look for brains, the look for chicks, well I certainly wasn't. I had huge glasses back then, always with my nose in my books... and of course there's the gap. No matter how many braces I tried, it was always there.

I've got the attention every now and then, but always because they needed me to tutor. I didn't care that much, I wasn't even interested in boys back then. But when the few friends I had started talking about boys, and went out with boys, I've got to admit I felt a little lonely.

This continued in college, I flirted occasionally. Having thrown away my glasses and wearing contacts, I started to get more attention. It never lasted long, the guys still used me, for studying or to make their ex's jealous... either way I got dumped. Occasionally I dumped guys, because they were getting too serious too fast.

My relationships never lasted long back in those days. And then I was working in San Francisco, working... working... working. Still I dated every once in a while, but I wasn't really looking for something permanent. That's when I met him, a guest lecturer.

Gil Grissom, the man I've been madly in love with for a long time. It's pathetic, I know. I've had a lot of opportunities with other guys since I met him, I just didn't see it. I could've had Greg, if I'd only have asked him. Maybe I could've even had Nick.

But I didn't have any of them. In fact I still don't have the man I've been chasing a long time. He doesn't realize it... yet. I'm still waiting for him to come around; I'll wait forever if I have to.

My name is Sara Sidle and I'm single.

Okay, that was it... told you it was pointless lol. Just my frustration, and I'm not even 34 hehe.