Chapter 5

--Draco Malfoy--

As I walked down the halls with Pansy, I kept thinking how could she be such a whore?

She's pretending to be with me, but then she's going out with Weasel, that girl has got to sort out her brain.

"Draco? Are you alright with me going out with Ron?" Pansy asked me, as we turned the last corner towards the dungeons.

"Yeah, sure, whatever" I mumbled and walked through the double doors to the potions classroom.

"Draco, what do you mean whatever? You don't care?" she asked, I stopped and turned around to face the girl that was pissing me off.

"BINGO! You got it Parkinson! I. Don't. Care. I don't care if you go with that weasel, I don't even care if you marry the prat!" I spat at her and turned around and walked to my seat at the back of the room.

I think I got that through her thick head, why should I care if she chooses to go out with some gryffindork weasel.

I thought about that, and I wondered how she would think about my thing, I never really thought about it. My problem with Potter was just as equivalent to hers with Weasley, but I just shook the thought away and got out my potions text and my homework and began to finish the last questions to make it complete.

--Harry Potter--

I walked down the halls with Hermione to our first class with the Slytherins and tried to stop thinking about who I was going to see this early in the morning.

I cried almost all night, the thought was unbearable, I knew I shouldn't have told him; it would have only ruined anything that we ever had together.

Did we even have anything together? Besides all those horrible duels and fights and words of hate we exchanged to each other? I suppose not.

As we approached the doors to the dungeons, Hermione paused in front of me and turned around.

"Are you sure you can do this Harry?… I mean…we could skip this class," Hermione suggested. Is this Hermione? Clearly she must be out of her mind. Hermione? 'Skip' a class? No. Way.

"Hermione…are you the one that's okay? You? Skipping? You have got to be joking me" I asked her with wide eyes and mouth hanging.

"Of course I'm okay, I just thought about you, Harry, you're my best friend, I think I should be a good one, do you really feel up to doing this?" she asked me.

I never really thought about this, all night I was just thinking on how frightened I was to go to this class, I thought that he would tell everyone and I'd be humiliated in front of the entire school.

Harry Potter. The-boy-who-was-gay.

I don't think I could bare it. But then again, I inside, I wasn't really ashamed of it, I wasn't ashamed of being gay, I wasn't scared. But this was all just in my head, heck in my head Draco is mine, in my head everyone would be okay with it, even Ron.

But I knew that I couldn't face him just yet, I had made my choice for now, I'll have to wait awhile before I can see him again.

"Um…I don't think I can…Hermione, you go to class, I'm just going to walk around the grounds till next class, alright?" I told her as she nodded and told me that she'd meet me later for Transfiguration.

As I walked down the halls of the school, I could sense something inside of me, like I shouldn't be feeling this way, like it was okay, and that I should not be afraid of Draco.

--Draco Malfoy--

I saw Granger walk in, but there was no sign of Harry. Where could he be? Did I make him miss class? Was he afraid of confronting me? I don't know, but I wanted to find out, for this could be my only chance of getting away from Riddle.

Was what I've done last night wrong? Should I had stayed and confessed like he did? I wish I could change the past, I wish I could go back and say I love him, I wish I could hold him in my arms and tell him all the things I've been wanting to say all these years.

That I was hurt the first time we met, that he chose Weasley over me, that hurt my pride.

I thought I could be Harry Potter's best friend. Instead I got the role of Harry Potter's arch nemesis. It shouldn't have ended up this way, I loved him, and I knew he was different from the day I laid eyes on him in the robe shop.

Why have I been such a bitch to him? Why couldn't I have been nicer? Been sincere? I was the snotty, wealthy, powerful, feared, and stuck up slytherin boy of the school.

I changed now, I am not the boy I used to be, and last summer had changed my entire life.

Last summer, oh how I wished to forget the days that I spent under a unforgivable, I could only faintly see what I was doing, but I knew I was doing things that I would have never done now. I had been under the curse by my own father, Lucius Malfoy.

It was early August, and my father had decided to do a very powerful spell that could awaken the dead and the paralyzed to life again.

He had chosen to mend the diary of Tom Marvolo Riddle and cast a powerful spell to wake the dark teen once again. This task needed all the Death Eaters to participate, for this spell needed at least 8 powerful wizards to properly work.

I had been picked to be the chosen, the young one who would have to teach the young Tom to use his magic once more, for Tom had been locked up in that old diary for fifty years, and had forgotten to use his powers, and also to teach him to grow evil, just as how my parents wanted me to.

But instead I had taught him nothing about evil and the dark side, I never told him that all witches and wizards around the world feared him. I wanted him to grow normally, away from the dark side, away from my father and the death eaters. I wanted him to not mess up this one last chance he had on life.

Later, my father had found out about us, found out that I had been teaching him nothing about his future self and about how he could be powerful once again and reign as the most feared wizard ever to live.

So, I had been put undo the Imperius spell, my father had told me to teach Tom evil things, tell him evil thought, his evil plans he did in the past, maybe even frighten him a bit.

My father's plan had worked. Tom began to turn dark, he began to be his normal self again, and once he was satisfactory, Lucius let me free of the Imperius and sent me away to Hogwarts for the last time.

I knew he was abandoning me. He and my mother had gone to America, but I knew that they were searching around for a new manor to live in, and I'd get the Malfoy manor all to myself, and to Tom.

Ever since then, I was terrified of Tom, he grew this sort of 'obsession' with me, it was scaring me, and I thought I wouldn't ever get to live my own life again.

That's when he told me he loved me, I was shocked, I ran out of the manor and out of the area for about 3 days and he had found me in the forest out cold, and he took me back to the manor, that was the last that I heard of him, he must have gone to stay with one of his death eaters, I could never know. I was too afraid to ever see him again.

Now, I only have two weeks to ask Harry to accompany me to the Manor, I can't be left alone with Riddle, He'd probably take advantage of me somehow.

I know Harry's afraid to see me, I made it look like I turned him down, and I made him look like a fool. It's not that, I was shocked, I was scared, and I was confused.

I thought he was kidding me, I couldn't take this once more, even from the boy I've been in love with for years, this wasn't really something I needed right now, I needed time to think over things.

That's what I'd done last night, all night I thought about what he'd said, I thought about ways to ask him if he was telling me the truth.

This was no lie, if it had been a lie he told me, then he would have showed up for class, I know this from a fact.

Harry Potter is always late for class, but never misses a single one.

I thought over my plan and confirmed it, after class I was going to tell Granger that I needed to talk to Potter and privately. If she was the good hearted gryffindor we all thought she was, then she'd tell Harry.

I know this was taking a risk, but this was the only plan I had for now.

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