Beautiful Disaster

By Robin Gurl

Chapter 1

Disclaimer: Own nobody well except Jack Dogeart:D Hahahaha!

(Um this is my first CSI fic. I'm a real big Grissom fan and I like to pair him up with Sara xD)

"I don't understand you." Her words were still in his head after for years. "If you and I didn't work so well together how come I've been working for you for so long? You know it's fine if you don't love me- but stop leading me on."

He hadn't been able to defend himself either way so as usual he just went silent and stared past her.

"Sara? What's wrong?" It was Nick. He glared at Gil who was staring blankly at an unknown spot on the wall. "Your yelling can be heard all over the lab."

"Don't worry- I finally see where I stand. Excuse me."

His heart was yelling at him to call her back and prove her wrong. His mind was telling him to just ignore her and she was just going on like usual. His mind rode over his heart and he watched her leave.

Nothing went back to the way it had been. Since that conversation was Sara ignoring him like the plague and the other members of his team just stared at him.

It wasn't his fault. She had done it. People don't fall in love with him. He was just Gil Grissom- the Geek- The Nerd. Not the lover.

He leaned back in his chair taking his glasses off and putting his fingers to the bridge of his nose groaning.

Grissom had always said that social and work life never mixed. In order to keep that rule he just didn't have a social life. He preferred it that way- until he inspired a young girl- no not girl- woman, to follow his path.

His efforts to change only had resulted in a fake love front for her.

"Gil- that case you put us on- you may want to look at the report."

"Catherine- I'm a little busy here"

"I can see that. Studying the insides of your eyelids. Must be exciting."

"Ok, what have you got again?"

"The abuser case. This man's sick." She threw the file down on his desk. "He's gotten away with this for 20 years."

"Catherine- I'm not impressed. This is like every mad serialist in Las Vegas."

Her blue eyes iced over. "Look at the names of the victims."

Just so she wouldn't decapitate him right there he smiled uneasily and then went serious and picked up the case folder. His eyes scanned the list and his heart literally stopped when he saw her name.

Sara Sidlar

He was out of his office in a flash. Case folder in his hand, he didn't exactly know where he was going until his legs stopped in the breakroom. Nick, Warrick, Greg and Sara were all sitting there talking.

"Everyone except Sara, out." On his command the other three were up and out in seconds.

"Oh so now I can't mingle with the other 99 of the male population?"" She stood up and started to leave.

"Sit down. I know about you and this Jack Dogeart."

She froze and clenched her fists together

"How come you didn't tell me? You shouldn't be on this case."

She turned around glaring. "Gil, why would I tell you anything? You don't care. It's just a legal matter to you."

"No- you're wrong. It's not." He stared up at her just as meanly. "I care about my co-workers."

"Then show it. What's your dumb reason for me not being on the case if it's not legal?"

"You could be hurt again. When did this happen."

"This is why I didn't tell you." She walked over and leaned on the table staring him in the eye. "I'm not going to be treated as one of your victims."

"Sara, sit down. tell me for your safety and the safety of the other 2 million girls in the USA what he did. "

Sara huffed and strode to the door opening it slightly before he continued.

"Either I do it or one of the police men do it. They won't be as caring as I will- but I'll let you choose."

When she turned around two tears slid down her cheeks. "No, I already tried. I'm sorry. You just don't get it. That night I came to you crying and messed up- I had been raped. I needed comfort from the one male in my life who wouldn't flirt with me. You didn't give it to me period. You've had your chance- now leave me alone."

The door slammed loudly and he sat there in silence- one tear slid down his cheek and smeared her name on the list of victims.

End Chapter 1