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A/N: Hehe...actually I have more time than last month so I could update sooner than I expect. I hope I could update Undying Black Angel, my other KKJ fic next weeks. See U! Spoiler for previous chap!
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Rukato86: Thanks for your reviews all time!
NekoticChan: Hehe....actually you miss the guess. It's not snow white but the ice maiden. You know the snow woman story? It's totally not snow maiden. But don't be awful since I still use the story of the princess snow white. Well, actually this would be a mess. Of course I won't stop writing while there are still reviewers.^_^ That's why! Review please!
By Irisgem
I took a glance toward the cerulean sky where the doves were flying beyond it the unlimited regions. I gestured my tired body. I wondered why I had to quarrel with him this morning. I didn't like to admit that it was my fault, but it was, wasn't it. If only I could be more gently toward him and believed him more, maybe I didn't have to hurt him. Still my ego won over me.
" Nagoya-san!"
I looked back and saw Lisa, my classmate ran along the corridor toward me. I waited for her patiently. She huffed heavily when she was finally able to catch up with me. I greeted her but didn't smile like I always did.
" What's the matter?" She lifted her head and stared my eyes before asking me for help.
" Please, could you help us to bring some boxes to the Senior High School. We are borrowing their tools for our class that we should return it. But the boys are nowhere to be found! They ran from their task to the canteen and made the girls cleaning up the class! "
" But it's still noon. Have we finished with the decoration? "
" It's going to be a lunch break. The teachers ask us to tidy before we eat. They say that it would be dangerous if we keep this in a mess like haunted shipwreck. And the seniors lend these tools with one condition. We have to return it before lunch break. They will have to use them after the lunch for their class decoration."
" Oh, I get it. Who would accompany me?" I stared helplessly at three full boxes. It would be a hard work. I was exhausted already for the practice of the play. Maybe it wasn't so great to play as the main character. You had to practice more than anyone. I went curious since the girl remained silent. She just looked down at the floor.
" Please don't tell me that I have to lift this alone..." I glared menacingly. She denied it with her eyes.
" I wish I could help you, but the girls are so busy with their cleaning task already. I'm sorry, Nagoya-san. "
" Oh, fine. " I sighed heavily. I had confident on myself for this. It would be a piece of cake. If I wasn't this exhausted.....Why boys were so selfish? Lately the boys were not developed well to be a gentleman. How dare them to let the girl to carry heavy things!
I took them moodily and walked to Senior High School. I hoped I wouldn't meet him since we were just raged in a fight.
//I have to carry this to art room...I almost reached it.//
But my hands almost failed me. My arms could hold them any longer when suddenly a strong hand firmly made the boxes felt light. I couldn't see him since my sight was blocked with these burdens. I should thank him after all.
" Who is it? Thank you for...."
Suddenly he answered with the familiar voice that I knew. The one that I wished not to meet for a while was staring me with his dark amethyst eyes. His eyes were so blunt still glowing sweetly as if they stabbed me and swallowed me within them.
" Why are you crossing the Senior High School? "
He smiled sincerely. It seemed that he had forgotten about our fight. Well, he was that type of guy. He took every thing so lightly and never took anything to his heart. That was why I was so easy to fight and friend with him.
Mostly he was the one who forgave and forgot. I felt a bit uneasy and hoped he would hurt me like I hurt him. Then I wouldn't feel guilty as I felt fair. But he never did it. Though he sometimes hurt me, he would never hurt me as much as I did. I could see the anxious pain inside his eyes after I said blunt words that saddened me even more.
He was too much caring for me that he easily forgot about himself. That was why I tried to keep distance, but it only hurt him * even even * more. I totally forgot about the boxes that were now on his strong arms as I was drowned on my own La-la land. At least my arms had little break before I had to work with them again.
I glared at him and hurt him * again *. " Why should you concern? " He frowned for a while retorted sharply. Still his words were overwhelming me with some kind of soft feeling.
" I concern because I care. "
I stayed quiet. His face went cherish and full of joy. "I have break time. I'll help you. " I couldn't allow him to get trouble for me. He should have more time for himself. He must be tired too since he was chosen for the main character. My heart tickled since I tried to hide a sly laugh. I wondered how he would play his role.
I raised my hand, trying to reach the boxes, but ended as a vain attempt. He was taller than me and also raised his hand to the air, not letting me to pick the boxes. I felt insulted and provoked.
" Give me the boxes, baka Shinji! "
My voice rose up and echoed into the corridor. The students were staring at us mischievously. I stayed on the same spot for a moment to watch the situation. He reminded me for my loud shout. I quickly shut my mouth with my hand. He took the advantage and left me with the boxes. I tried to catch up with his long pace.
" Wait! Shinji! What on earth are you doing!!"
" I'm helping you. " Simply answer. " Girls shouldn't carry heavy things when the boys take a rest. "
I was stunned for his kindness. Since when did he grow into a man? Time slipped easily as if he was still a young infant that spoiled me so much. Was he so far now? Why I could feel distance? But why I am not happy? I wanted for his freedom along the time, didn't I? I snapped out my mind since he stared worriedly.
" I don't need you, Shinji! Give me those fool things! "
" You shouldn't! You should take a break! You're tired already, right?! "
"I'm not! You're the one who said it! Give them back! "
" That's enough, Natsuki! It's dangerous to fight on stairs! Just leave it to me! "
" I said I don't need you! I am not that weak! Shinji, give those boxes to me now! Ah? "
I didn't look my step and slipped between the stairs. I winced as I saw the hard floor forward. I was going to hit my head when suddenly in rush I could feel a strong grip holding my hand safely.
" NATSUKI!!"
I couldn't believe my eyes. The boxes were falling behind him. His eyes were so determine that he seemed didn't aware of his surroundings. Everything seemed like an illusion. I wished they were.
I tried to sit up. It was so hard since he was lying on me, with his hand on my smaller body. I attempt to move his hand and watched him. His eyes remained closed. My eyes widen and blurred with welling tears. His friends got closer to see what had happened. Soon we became the center of attention.
" Shinji? " Some student tried to shake him hopefully he would wake. But he was knocked unconscious. He had hit his head heavily; still the tools in the boxes that scattered on the floor were also hitting his back. I hoped he wasn't hurt. Some of the teachers came, dismissed the students. They tried to carry Shinji's unconscious body to the clinic while they also took me to be asked.
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The teachers didn't hold me long. I walked to the clinic and sat beside him. The doctor was out. She said that he wasn't hurt that much beside light hit on his head and some bruises on his back. But why his eyes didn't open? How if his glittering amethyst eyes won't open anymore? That kind of thought had scared me to death. I could feel the chill on my body.
I covered my eyes with my hand to hold back my streaming tears. Not aware of my environment, I jolted as I heard a soft whisper.
" Natsuki? "
I gazed at his face. He seemed confused and watched me with blank face.
" Where am I? What has actually happened? " He tried to sit on the white bed sheet when he rubbed his head. He winced as the pain countered him. I waited quietly.
" I was helping you and......" It seemed that the truth had struck him. His eyes widen suddenly and grabbed my shoulders. I winced and moved back a bit.
" Are you alright? Are you hurt? "
" I'm fine." I swept my tears from my eyes and smiled gently. " Baka. You're the one who is hurt. "
" Eh? Oh..No wonder my head is hurt. "
" It's not a giggle matter. Why are you doing this? Hurting yourself this much...."
He mumbled something that I could only catch a little. " The reason is same like why you save Maron-san, Finn. "
" Huh? Finn? "
He laughed and sweat dropped. He shook his hand as if there was nothing. He concealed something behind me. I stared him sharply. He pretended not seeing me. Somehow my heart throbbed painfully as if there were knives stabbed it. This peculiar feeling depressed me. I tried to dismiss it but when I heard an unfamiliar name from his lips made me hurt.
// But it's not really unfamiliar. I could feel as if I know really close with Finn's name.//
" You're hiding something, aren't you? "
" Nope. " He tidied his uniform and got ready to the class. I knew that he would flee from this question and I would never get the answer if I let him go. When he was going to walk to the clinic entrance door, I grabbed his sleeve. He frowned and sighed contently.
" Please, Natsuki. The head class will haunt me if I don't return now. "
" He must have gone home. The sky is almost dark. "
" Huh?" He stared out of the window and saw the beautiful golden drowned twilight. He watched with amusement and touched the window to see closer. He beckoned me with his left hand while the other hand was opening the clear glass window. I walked and stood beside him.
" Nee, you always like the view, don't you, Natsuki? "
" Hmm...I would love to fly so I could see more clearly. " I smiled purely toward him. I could see a flash of red tint on his cheek that soon disappeared on the next second.
" But maybe I don't like to watch it with you. " I backed him and loudly played a hoax with him slyly.
" Ehh??? " He looked so disappointed and lowered his head. I faced him and laughed heartily.
" Of course not. I'm just joking! " Now he was really blushing that was so clear on his face. He seemed so determined about something that he wanted to speak it out loud. I couldn't presume anything yet since there was no clue. I just hoped that he didn't hate me though it might be the last option.
" Natsuki, I...."
" Yes? I'm listening. "
" Ummm....how do I say this...."
" Since I saw you at the first time, I...."
" Speak it out already, Shinji. You make me sleepy. " I answered dryly.
" I LIKE..." Suddenly the door was opened harshly that echoed loudly in the room.
" NATSUKI!! ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!!"
We saw the siblings in front of us. Shinji glared at Toki with the unknown reason. Well, they mostly fought unreasonably.
(A/N: It's not unreasonable!!! Natsuki just doesn't realize it....Oh, poor those boys. ^_^6)
" Natsuki-san, are you alright? " The beautiful maiden looked so worried when the boys quarreled.
" No, Shinji saved me. "
Toki winced and fought even more. I was just thinking, was I the one who provoked them? Celcia smiled seeing her brother and her close friend fighting by spitting sharp words to each other.
I was just realized. Shinji wasn't that harsh after all. He actually really cared more than anyone to me, though he showed his affection with his typical ways. Maybe he took me as his lovely sister since he had no other sister or brother.
We were so close like a family. Or something more that I believed it wasn't just a family bond, something that I didn't know yet. Maybe I would understand it after a few years. Shinji took his bag and dragged me away from Toki angrily. I thought he was insulted already that he couldn't take it anymore. Toki was shouting my name and tried to catch up while his sister trailed him from behind.
I giggled a bit. Shinji looked at me dully as if he was bothered. " Why are you giggling? "
" Ah? Sometimes I think you're at the same age with Toki-san. If you fight with him, you look younger two years. "
" Do you mean I'm childish? "
I remained silence for a second before I gave him my true opinion. " Uh-uh. I think you're so cute. "
He looked flattered and insulted on the same time. He gestured a bit and walked slowly, suiting my pace length. He just didn't know how happy I was if he was younger two or four years. I would never think about our distance because of our age. But it was fine now. At least he was still close and cared for me.
Soon Toki-san and Celcia-san caught up and walked home together under the drowning sun and vague moon that rose from east horizon of the crimson sky. I totally forgot about Finn's name. I just remembered it when I was on my slumber.
Maybe I would ask him tomorrow if I was prepared for the worst condition. A girl has taken him...My family, my "brother" for now. What future would bring upon us?
Finish! Peace for me! Actually it's not really a chapter (kinda short ^_^6). It's only review the story earlier but form Natsuki's POV. But I think that this chap is also important to see Natsuki's feeling at least. I just want to make her realized how she felt but I don't know how!! Aghhh! I'll just wait the perfect moment on the going stories. I hope I don't get writer block. Hehe....
A/N: Hehe...actually I have more time than last month so I could update sooner than I expect. I hope I could update Undying Black Angel, my other KKJ fic next weeks. See U! Spoiler for previous chap!
Words of gratitude:
Rukato86: Thanks for your reviews all time!
NekoticChan: Hehe....actually you miss the guess. It's not snow white but the ice maiden. You know the snow woman story? It's totally not snow maiden. But don't be awful since I still use the story of the princess snow white. Well, actually this would be a mess. Of course I won't stop writing while there are still reviewers.^_^ That's why! Review please!
By Irisgem
I took a glance toward the cerulean sky where the doves were flying beyond it the unlimited regions. I gestured my tired body. I wondered why I had to quarrel with him this morning. I didn't like to admit that it was my fault, but it was, wasn't it. If only I could be more gently toward him and believed him more, maybe I didn't have to hurt him. Still my ego won over me.
" Nagoya-san!"
I looked back and saw Lisa, my classmate ran along the corridor toward me. I waited for her patiently. She huffed heavily when she was finally able to catch up with me. I greeted her but didn't smile like I always did.
" What's the matter?" She lifted her head and stared my eyes before asking me for help.
" Please, could you help us to bring some boxes to the Senior High School. We are borrowing their tools for our class that we should return it. But the boys are nowhere to be found! They ran from their task to the canteen and made the girls cleaning up the class! "
" But it's still noon. Have we finished with the decoration? "
" It's going to be a lunch break. The teachers ask us to tidy before we eat. They say that it would be dangerous if we keep this in a mess like haunted shipwreck. And the seniors lend these tools with one condition. We have to return it before lunch break. They will have to use them after the lunch for their class decoration."
" Oh, I get it. Who would accompany me?" I stared helplessly at three full boxes. It would be a hard work. I was exhausted already for the practice of the play. Maybe it wasn't so great to play as the main character. You had to practice more than anyone. I went curious since the girl remained silent. She just looked down at the floor.
" Please don't tell me that I have to lift this alone..." I glared menacingly. She denied it with her eyes.
" I wish I could help you, but the girls are so busy with their cleaning task already. I'm sorry, Nagoya-san. "
" Oh, fine. " I sighed heavily. I had confident on myself for this. It would be a piece of cake. If I wasn't this exhausted.....Why boys were so selfish? Lately the boys were not developed well to be a gentleman. How dare them to let the girl to carry heavy things!
I took them moodily and walked to Senior High School. I hoped I wouldn't meet him since we were just raged in a fight.
//I have to carry this to art room...I almost reached it.//
But my hands almost failed me. My arms could hold them any longer when suddenly a strong hand firmly made the boxes felt light. I couldn't see him since my sight was blocked with these burdens. I should thank him after all.
" Who is it? Thank you for...."
Suddenly he answered with the familiar voice that I knew. The one that I wished not to meet for a while was staring me with his dark amethyst eyes. His eyes were so blunt still glowing sweetly as if they stabbed me and swallowed me within them.
" Why are you crossing the Senior High School? "
He smiled sincerely. It seemed that he had forgotten about our fight. Well, he was that type of guy. He took every thing so lightly and never took anything to his heart. That was why I was so easy to fight and friend with him.
Mostly he was the one who forgave and forgot. I felt a bit uneasy and hoped he would hurt me like I hurt him. Then I wouldn't feel guilty as I felt fair. But he never did it. Though he sometimes hurt me, he would never hurt me as much as I did. I could see the anxious pain inside his eyes after I said blunt words that saddened me even more.
He was too much caring for me that he easily forgot about himself. That was why I tried to keep distance, but it only hurt him * even even * more. I totally forgot about the boxes that were now on his strong arms as I was drowned on my own La-la land. At least my arms had little break before I had to work with them again.
I glared at him and hurt him * again *. " Why should you concern? " He frowned for a while retorted sharply. Still his words were overwhelming me with some kind of soft feeling.
" I concern because I care. "
I stayed quiet. His face went cherish and full of joy. "I have break time. I'll help you. " I couldn't allow him to get trouble for me. He should have more time for himself. He must be tired too since he was chosen for the main character. My heart tickled since I tried to hide a sly laugh. I wondered how he would play his role.
I raised my hand, trying to reach the boxes, but ended as a vain attempt. He was taller than me and also raised his hand to the air, not letting me to pick the boxes. I felt insulted and provoked.
" Give me the boxes, baka Shinji! "
My voice rose up and echoed into the corridor. The students were staring at us mischievously. I stayed on the same spot for a moment to watch the situation. He reminded me for my loud shout. I quickly shut my mouth with my hand. He took the advantage and left me with the boxes. I tried to catch up with his long pace.
" Wait! Shinji! What on earth are you doing!!"
" I'm helping you. " Simply answer. " Girls shouldn't carry heavy things when the boys take a rest. "
I was stunned for his kindness. Since when did he grow into a man? Time slipped easily as if he was still a young infant that spoiled me so much. Was he so far now? Why I could feel distance? But why I am not happy? I wanted for his freedom along the time, didn't I? I snapped out my mind since he stared worriedly.
" I don't need you, Shinji! Give me those fool things! "
" You shouldn't! You should take a break! You're tired already, right?! "
"I'm not! You're the one who said it! Give them back! "
" That's enough, Natsuki! It's dangerous to fight on stairs! Just leave it to me! "
" I said I don't need you! I am not that weak! Shinji, give those boxes to me now! Ah? "
I didn't look my step and slipped between the stairs. I winced as I saw the hard floor forward. I was going to hit my head when suddenly in rush I could feel a strong grip holding my hand safely.
" NATSUKI!!"
I couldn't believe my eyes. The boxes were falling behind him. His eyes were so determine that he seemed didn't aware of his surroundings. Everything seemed like an illusion. I wished they were.
I tried to sit up. It was so hard since he was lying on me, with his hand on my smaller body. I attempt to move his hand and watched him. His eyes remained closed. My eyes widen and blurred with welling tears. His friends got closer to see what had happened. Soon we became the center of attention.
" Shinji? " Some student tried to shake him hopefully he would wake. But he was knocked unconscious. He had hit his head heavily; still the tools in the boxes that scattered on the floor were also hitting his back. I hoped he wasn't hurt. Some of the teachers came, dismissed the students. They tried to carry Shinji's unconscious body to the clinic while they also took me to be asked.
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The teachers didn't hold me long. I walked to the clinic and sat beside him. The doctor was out. She said that he wasn't hurt that much beside light hit on his head and some bruises on his back. But why his eyes didn't open? How if his glittering amethyst eyes won't open anymore? That kind of thought had scared me to death. I could feel the chill on my body.
I covered my eyes with my hand to hold back my streaming tears. Not aware of my environment, I jolted as I heard a soft whisper.
" Natsuki? "
I gazed at his face. He seemed confused and watched me with blank face.
" Where am I? What has actually happened? " He tried to sit on the white bed sheet when he rubbed his head. He winced as the pain countered him. I waited quietly.
" I was helping you and......" It seemed that the truth had struck him. His eyes widen suddenly and grabbed my shoulders. I winced and moved back a bit.
" Are you alright? Are you hurt? "
" I'm fine." I swept my tears from my eyes and smiled gently. " Baka. You're the one who is hurt. "
" Eh? Oh..No wonder my head is hurt. "
" It's not a giggle matter. Why are you doing this? Hurting yourself this much...."
He mumbled something that I could only catch a little. " The reason is same like why you save Maron-san, Finn. "
" Huh? Finn? "
He laughed and sweat dropped. He shook his hand as if there was nothing. He concealed something behind me. I stared him sharply. He pretended not seeing me. Somehow my heart throbbed painfully as if there were knives stabbed it. This peculiar feeling depressed me. I tried to dismiss it but when I heard an unfamiliar name from his lips made me hurt.
// But it's not really unfamiliar. I could feel as if I know really close with Finn's name.//
" You're hiding something, aren't you? "
" Nope. " He tidied his uniform and got ready to the class. I knew that he would flee from this question and I would never get the answer if I let him go. When he was going to walk to the clinic entrance door, I grabbed his sleeve. He frowned and sighed contently.
" Please, Natsuki. The head class will haunt me if I don't return now. "
" He must have gone home. The sky is almost dark. "
" Huh?" He stared out of the window and saw the beautiful golden drowned twilight. He watched with amusement and touched the window to see closer. He beckoned me with his left hand while the other hand was opening the clear glass window. I walked and stood beside him.
" Nee, you always like the view, don't you, Natsuki? "
" Hmm...I would love to fly so I could see more clearly. " I smiled purely toward him. I could see a flash of red tint on his cheek that soon disappeared on the next second.
" But maybe I don't like to watch it with you. " I backed him and loudly played a hoax with him slyly.
" Ehh??? " He looked so disappointed and lowered his head. I faced him and laughed heartily.
" Of course not. I'm just joking! " Now he was really blushing that was so clear on his face. He seemed so determined about something that he wanted to speak it out loud. I couldn't presume anything yet since there was no clue. I just hoped that he didn't hate me though it might be the last option.
" Natsuki, I...."
" Yes? I'm listening. "
" Ummm....how do I say this...."
" Since I saw you at the first time, I...."
" Speak it out already, Shinji. You make me sleepy. " I answered dryly.
" I LIKE..." Suddenly the door was opened harshly that echoed loudly in the room.
" NATSUKI!! ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!!"
We saw the siblings in front of us. Shinji glared at Toki with the unknown reason. Well, they mostly fought unreasonably.
(A/N: It's not unreasonable!!! Natsuki just doesn't realize it....Oh, poor those boys. ^_^6)
" Natsuki-san, are you alright? " The beautiful maiden looked so worried when the boys quarreled.
" No, Shinji saved me. "
Toki winced and fought even more. I was just thinking, was I the one who provoked them? Celcia smiled seeing her brother and her close friend fighting by spitting sharp words to each other.
I was just realized. Shinji wasn't that harsh after all. He actually really cared more than anyone to me, though he showed his affection with his typical ways. Maybe he took me as his lovely sister since he had no other sister or brother.
We were so close like a family. Or something more that I believed it wasn't just a family bond, something that I didn't know yet. Maybe I would understand it after a few years. Shinji took his bag and dragged me away from Toki angrily. I thought he was insulted already that he couldn't take it anymore. Toki was shouting my name and tried to catch up while his sister trailed him from behind.
I giggled a bit. Shinji looked at me dully as if he was bothered. " Why are you giggling? "
" Ah? Sometimes I think you're at the same age with Toki-san. If you fight with him, you look younger two years. "
" Do you mean I'm childish? "
I remained silence for a second before I gave him my true opinion. " Uh-uh. I think you're so cute. "
He looked flattered and insulted on the same time. He gestured a bit and walked slowly, suiting my pace length. He just didn't know how happy I was if he was younger two or four years. I would never think about our distance because of our age. But it was fine now. At least he was still close and cared for me.
Soon Toki-san and Celcia-san caught up and walked home together under the drowning sun and vague moon that rose from east horizon of the crimson sky. I totally forgot about Finn's name. I just remembered it when I was on my slumber.
Maybe I would ask him tomorrow if I was prepared for the worst condition. A girl has taken him...My family, my "brother" for now. What future would bring upon us?
Finish! Peace for me! Actually it's not really a chapter (kinda short ^_^6). It's only review the story earlier but form Natsuki's POV. But I think that this chap is also important to see Natsuki's feeling at least. I just want to make her realized how she felt but I don't know how!! Aghhh! I'll just wait the perfect moment on the going stories. I hope I don't get writer block. Hehe....