Disclaimer: I never have KKJ, WHY?! Boo hoo.........
A/N: Hehe.....just ignore me. I finally update another chap. Hope you like it too! It's kinda short because I still have to make another fic. I'm making a new one for KKJ too. Hopefully I could post it within two weeks! Until then, please read this one! Special regard for:
Akuweaselgirl : My, if it never ends, aren't you bored already? Now I'm trying to update sooner. But my school won't allow me to do so. There are mounts of works. So please wait, okay?
WyrmVonSturm : I'm sorry. My grammar is really really bad. YOU WANT TO BE MY EDITOR?! YES! Finally I find someone! Please prereader! I'm really glad. You can mail me or anything to subscribe my mistake. Then I would be able to revise my chap. If you don't mind, would you also prereader these fic previous chaps? I'm sure there are lots of mistakes too. So, please inform me soon! And also tell me what is the mistake then I might improve my grammar. Thank you very very much!!
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The weather was even hotter than last year. There was no cloud hanging on the limitless sky. The sun was too powerful to emit its light upon the Earth. I wondered why Heaven never being this hot even summer came. The preparation of Festival was finished. I was too exhausted that I almost fell sick. During the summer, you had to wear Yukata which you never used to wear it before. You could imagine how it would work.
Natsuki was also busy. She had become very rare to face me. She also had to practice for her main role as princess. I couldn't wait to see her. She would probably reveal her inner beauty that enchanted every boy to her delicate feature. When night had greeted us, she had been asleep that I couldn't even call her. I was also too drained to talk more.
But! Finally the day of freedom greeted us in front of my face! I would never ever agree anymore to participate in a school play! I was distracted to my little world that suddenly I could feel a tap on my shoulder.
" Shinji. "
I turned my head and saw one of my best friends stood steadily on her dress. I smiled with praise look.
" Why, you're beautiful, Celcia. "
" Thank you. " She blushed a bit. She was always like that. When someone praised her, she would blush and became a slobby.
" Where is Toki? "
" I don't know. I am looking for him now. My friends have looked for him for a long time but still have not found him. "
" Oh, the most favorite place for Toki is..........."
I remained quiet with a sudden thought came across my head. It didn't take me a long time to make another move. Suddenly Celcia's silky hair swayed with a sudden gust. I dashed like an unexpected storm to one most suspicious place with a dangerous glare. My image right now was too far beyond the image of a cold calm ice maiden.
" TOKIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!! "
I opened the door with an enormous force. The door sounded hitting hardly the wall. It seemed that I made everyone jolted. They soon placed their curious and shocked eyes on me. I didn't bother their drowning gaze that I scanned around the class for one person in that crowd classroom.
" Shinji? "
A soft familiar tune touched my ears. I soon faced her with my best smile but soon vanished with a grimace on a certain face.
" Why are you here, Shinji? "
" I have the reason that goes same with you."
Toki gave me a half-hearted smile with why-should-he comes look. I glared at him as if I wanted to swallow him like a mad wave without mercy. I crossed my arms and challenged him secretly by leaned forward to confront him. He replied me by doing the same thing. A battle of glare started. Natsuki didn't seem realize it though. The visit of Celcia had taken her attention.
" My, Celcia, do you come to see your brother? "
" Yes. "
Soon she got passed Natsuki and took her brother's collar. She soon dragged him out of Natsuki's class with throwing him thousands scolds and advices. My sweat dropped, watching a family scene. Natsuki just waved Toki and Celcia, who were walking out the class a good bye. But I could see Toki was trying to return to Natsuki's side by freeing himself from his sister. But Kami-sama was so kind to me that he couldn't go from his dear sibling sister.
Soon she stared me with a pregnant silence. I just gave her a query look at her. She sighed in defeat, knowing that I didn't catch her mean. I knew what she wanted to say, but I wanted to be with her for a while. So I made a span of time for being together. It had been a long time since our last contact eyes.
" Okay, what do you want? "
" Watching you."
I gave her a simple pure smile that could make her flush. I knew the right way how to tease her. I didn't know the reason though why a simple word could make her feel uneasy. I just felt it was quite fun. Soon her cherry cheek was gone and as the exchanged she gave me a retorted glare.
" Don't play dumb with me, Shinji. "
" Is it wrong to see you? It has been a whole two weeks! "
"Yeah. Yeah. And now I have some business to attend, so would you get out of here? "
" Ow, I'm hurt. "
Her face fell with tiredness of my joke. I soon realized that maybe I had gone too far. I tried to cheer her up when she lifted her face suddenly.
" You're really annoying me now. Please go. I still have to practice, Shinji. "
" Ah, ummm.........oh, sorry. " I rubbed my head and went out as her command. I felt a twinge of pain inside my chest. She went angry because of me. What if she hated me? I wouldn't be this worried if she was Finn. But it was just a fragment of past that would become nothing in present. I wanted to know Natsuki's feeling toward me so badly that I would gladly offer my life for her answer. I sighed and returned to my class. At least there was no more Toki.
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I regretted for my words before. I really shouldn't let my emotion burst on him. I felt chilling air on my frowning face. Lately I almost didn't sleep. Besides the deluged of tiredness on my sore vines, I also couldn't sleep with a weird vivid image.
I didn't know why, Shinji's face mostly wandered every where I went, even into my dream. His smile, angry, playful, hurt, loving face flowed inside my mind like a movie. My heart wouldn't rest from palpitating that made me hard to go to sleep. This drove me insane.
Maybe I really should to apologize, but.........
I shook my head and concentrate on the play script. I should think about it later. This should go first since it was very very very urgent.
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" I am a snow maiden that couldn't love. "
" But I could feel you warmth heart. "
" You just see an illusion that is never existed. "
" Why are you denying your feeling? "
// Jeez, darn it. I'm really fed up with this entire joke. //
But still I continued the dialogue without any heart in it. With a quick move, I waved my head to the left, fleeing myself from an attack from behind. I had those kind of hits for hundreds times that I was really experienced with it to shun them.
"MINAZUKI!!! Use your feeling, you fool!! "
" I don't want this from the start anyway! This is nonsense, talking such rubbish....."
" WHAT DID YOU SAY?! "
" DO I HAVE TO REPEAT MYSELF?! "
It had been countless times to quarrel with the class leader. I was getting irritated with the story. IT made me felt as if I was going to fail in catching Natsuki's love. The story was very very unhappy and it bored me already.
The story was a bit simply but full of conflicts. An ice maiden who wandered during the white cold winter couldn't return to her race because she got lost on her way. She couldn't endure living alone in human world just by herself. Luckily she was picked up by a young man, who was a hunter. They in the end lived in the forest. Though the ice maiden had a very cold and solitude attitude, the hunter fell in love for her on the first sight.
After many obstacles intertwined, the ice maiden returned to her race without realizing her love at the first place. The hunter tried to meet her again. He could meet her, but went home disappointed. The ice maiden was ill and she needed an aquamarine icy snow flower which only grew on the top of eternal snowy cliff. People said no one would be able to return in one piece. Still for his love, he took a risk and climbed the mountain.
When he finally reached the snow flower paradise, he was countered by a God of White Mountain. The God was angry but that boy could melt his heart with his pure love. God of the Mountain gave him the flower but they would be exchanged with his life. The flowers were able to be picked if they were streamed with crimson fresh blood. The boy agreed and returned to the ice maiden with full hand of flower and soaked body with blood.
Just when he handed the flowers, he died on the ice maiden's lap. The ice maiden finally realized her feeling. She kept living with the aquamarine flower's help. But she died soon because of her love. An ice maiden had a cold heart. When she experienced warmth, she would melt into nothingness. That was the end of pure love. Nothing ended with happiness. The story looked like it wanted to tell that there was no eternal. It disheartened me. Wasn't it same with my past? In the end, I would never able to grab Finn's love.
" So what do you want? "
" Can you give me a break? "
" How long? "
" for three hours, please? "
" THREE HOURS?!!!!! You are just given one hour to go."
" Jeez. Fine. "
" You can have your way. "
I walked out of my class and pleased myself.
//Heh! See if they could find me. I won't return to that class anymore for today. Who cares about that performance! //
I took my feet under the green bamboo tree near the golden pool of sunflower. I smiled comfortably with the soft wind touching my hand. I could feel Kami-sama's sighed. I stretched my body and yawned in ease. But suddenly the wind changed and was alarmed. I couldn't move yet before suddenly I was assaulted from nowhere and driven to blackness.
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" Excuse me, do you see Shinji?"
" No. he has gone for five hours and hasn't returned yet. We are also looking for him."
" Oh.......thank you. "
I pondered a bit. It was kinda weird that he was nowhere. A whole class looked for him and he wasn't found out yet. I had visited to his favorite secret places and still found none.
Suddenly my gaze locked on the little garden of summer's flower. I could feel a call to come to it. I ran along the stairs that my heart palpitated fast with anxiety. I knew something had gone wrong which remained unknown.
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I finally arrived at the bamboo forest. This forest was going to be cut because a rumor of ghost had spread too widely. I took it was just a lie. After all I didn't like the forest to be cut.
Suddenly I hit something that made me fell. I turned my head with a painful moan.
" What was tha....... "
" !!!! " I gasped with surprise to see a glinting thing, lying silently on the ground. It was a silver watch that was Shinji's. I gave to him on his 17th birthday. Then he had to be around here before but he was still nowhere.
" What are you doing? "
I jolted and turned my head. It was his voice! I turned and smiled sincerely. But he didn't even reply. He just gave a cold look as if he had glassy doll eyes. There was no emotion, no pain, no love, and no heart in those amethyst pools.
" Shinji? "
I frowned at his face. He just remained quiet. He stared at me with emptiness. I shuddered with his still face.
" What? "
" What's going on? "
"..........Nothing. "
I tried to stand up. He didn't flinch or move. Usually he would offer his hand to help me with his best smile. Was he really Shinji? But if he wasn't, then where was the real Shinji? I even hadn't said sorry for my harsh words before. Though I apologized him now, he would just ignore me and walked passed me. He turned his back on me and started to walk.
" Who......are you? "
He stopped at his spot as his reaction.
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Whoops, it seems that this fic would be continued longer than two chapters. Sorry! A sudden idea comes across my head. Can you guess what is really happened to our dearly Shinji?! Hehehe.......Read another chap, okay? Review please! See you soon!
A/N: Hehe.....just ignore me. I finally update another chap. Hope you like it too! It's kinda short because I still have to make another fic. I'm making a new one for KKJ too. Hopefully I could post it within two weeks! Until then, please read this one! Special regard for:
Akuweaselgirl : My, if it never ends, aren't you bored already? Now I'm trying to update sooner. But my school won't allow me to do so. There are mounts of works. So please wait, okay?
WyrmVonSturm : I'm sorry. My grammar is really really bad. YOU WANT TO BE MY EDITOR?! YES! Finally I find someone! Please prereader! I'm really glad. You can mail me or anything to subscribe my mistake. Then I would be able to revise my chap. If you don't mind, would you also prereader these fic previous chaps? I'm sure there are lots of mistakes too. So, please inform me soon! And also tell me what is the mistake then I might improve my grammar. Thank you very very much!!
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The weather was even hotter than last year. There was no cloud hanging on the limitless sky. The sun was too powerful to emit its light upon the Earth. I wondered why Heaven never being this hot even summer came. The preparation of Festival was finished. I was too exhausted that I almost fell sick. During the summer, you had to wear Yukata which you never used to wear it before. You could imagine how it would work.
Natsuki was also busy. She had become very rare to face me. She also had to practice for her main role as princess. I couldn't wait to see her. She would probably reveal her inner beauty that enchanted every boy to her delicate feature. When night had greeted us, she had been asleep that I couldn't even call her. I was also too drained to talk more.
But! Finally the day of freedom greeted us in front of my face! I would never ever agree anymore to participate in a school play! I was distracted to my little world that suddenly I could feel a tap on my shoulder.
" Shinji. "
I turned my head and saw one of my best friends stood steadily on her dress. I smiled with praise look.
" Why, you're beautiful, Celcia. "
" Thank you. " She blushed a bit. She was always like that. When someone praised her, she would blush and became a slobby.
" Where is Toki? "
" I don't know. I am looking for him now. My friends have looked for him for a long time but still have not found him. "
" Oh, the most favorite place for Toki is..........."
I remained quiet with a sudden thought came across my head. It didn't take me a long time to make another move. Suddenly Celcia's silky hair swayed with a sudden gust. I dashed like an unexpected storm to one most suspicious place with a dangerous glare. My image right now was too far beyond the image of a cold calm ice maiden.
" TOKIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!! "
I opened the door with an enormous force. The door sounded hitting hardly the wall. It seemed that I made everyone jolted. They soon placed their curious and shocked eyes on me. I didn't bother their drowning gaze that I scanned around the class for one person in that crowd classroom.
" Shinji? "
A soft familiar tune touched my ears. I soon faced her with my best smile but soon vanished with a grimace on a certain face.
" Why are you here, Shinji? "
" I have the reason that goes same with you."
Toki gave me a half-hearted smile with why-should-he comes look. I glared at him as if I wanted to swallow him like a mad wave without mercy. I crossed my arms and challenged him secretly by leaned forward to confront him. He replied me by doing the same thing. A battle of glare started. Natsuki didn't seem realize it though. The visit of Celcia had taken her attention.
" My, Celcia, do you come to see your brother? "
" Yes. "
Soon she got passed Natsuki and took her brother's collar. She soon dragged him out of Natsuki's class with throwing him thousands scolds and advices. My sweat dropped, watching a family scene. Natsuki just waved Toki and Celcia, who were walking out the class a good bye. But I could see Toki was trying to return to Natsuki's side by freeing himself from his sister. But Kami-sama was so kind to me that he couldn't go from his dear sibling sister.
Soon she stared me with a pregnant silence. I just gave her a query look at her. She sighed in defeat, knowing that I didn't catch her mean. I knew what she wanted to say, but I wanted to be with her for a while. So I made a span of time for being together. It had been a long time since our last contact eyes.
" Okay, what do you want? "
" Watching you."
I gave her a simple pure smile that could make her flush. I knew the right way how to tease her. I didn't know the reason though why a simple word could make her feel uneasy. I just felt it was quite fun. Soon her cherry cheek was gone and as the exchanged she gave me a retorted glare.
" Don't play dumb with me, Shinji. "
" Is it wrong to see you? It has been a whole two weeks! "
"Yeah. Yeah. And now I have some business to attend, so would you get out of here? "
" Ow, I'm hurt. "
Her face fell with tiredness of my joke. I soon realized that maybe I had gone too far. I tried to cheer her up when she lifted her face suddenly.
" You're really annoying me now. Please go. I still have to practice, Shinji. "
" Ah, ummm.........oh, sorry. " I rubbed my head and went out as her command. I felt a twinge of pain inside my chest. She went angry because of me. What if she hated me? I wouldn't be this worried if she was Finn. But it was just a fragment of past that would become nothing in present. I wanted to know Natsuki's feeling toward me so badly that I would gladly offer my life for her answer. I sighed and returned to my class. At least there was no more Toki.
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I regretted for my words before. I really shouldn't let my emotion burst on him. I felt chilling air on my frowning face. Lately I almost didn't sleep. Besides the deluged of tiredness on my sore vines, I also couldn't sleep with a weird vivid image.
I didn't know why, Shinji's face mostly wandered every where I went, even into my dream. His smile, angry, playful, hurt, loving face flowed inside my mind like a movie. My heart wouldn't rest from palpitating that made me hard to go to sleep. This drove me insane.
Maybe I really should to apologize, but.........
I shook my head and concentrate on the play script. I should think about it later. This should go first since it was very very very urgent.
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" I am a snow maiden that couldn't love. "
" But I could feel you warmth heart. "
" You just see an illusion that is never existed. "
" Why are you denying your feeling? "
// Jeez, darn it. I'm really fed up with this entire joke. //
But still I continued the dialogue without any heart in it. With a quick move, I waved my head to the left, fleeing myself from an attack from behind. I had those kind of hits for hundreds times that I was really experienced with it to shun them.
"MINAZUKI!!! Use your feeling, you fool!! "
" I don't want this from the start anyway! This is nonsense, talking such rubbish....."
" WHAT DID YOU SAY?! "
" DO I HAVE TO REPEAT MYSELF?! "
It had been countless times to quarrel with the class leader. I was getting irritated with the story. IT made me felt as if I was going to fail in catching Natsuki's love. The story was very very unhappy and it bored me already.
The story was a bit simply but full of conflicts. An ice maiden who wandered during the white cold winter couldn't return to her race because she got lost on her way. She couldn't endure living alone in human world just by herself. Luckily she was picked up by a young man, who was a hunter. They in the end lived in the forest. Though the ice maiden had a very cold and solitude attitude, the hunter fell in love for her on the first sight.
After many obstacles intertwined, the ice maiden returned to her race without realizing her love at the first place. The hunter tried to meet her again. He could meet her, but went home disappointed. The ice maiden was ill and she needed an aquamarine icy snow flower which only grew on the top of eternal snowy cliff. People said no one would be able to return in one piece. Still for his love, he took a risk and climbed the mountain.
When he finally reached the snow flower paradise, he was countered by a God of White Mountain. The God was angry but that boy could melt his heart with his pure love. God of the Mountain gave him the flower but they would be exchanged with his life. The flowers were able to be picked if they were streamed with crimson fresh blood. The boy agreed and returned to the ice maiden with full hand of flower and soaked body with blood.
Just when he handed the flowers, he died on the ice maiden's lap. The ice maiden finally realized her feeling. She kept living with the aquamarine flower's help. But she died soon because of her love. An ice maiden had a cold heart. When she experienced warmth, she would melt into nothingness. That was the end of pure love. Nothing ended with happiness. The story looked like it wanted to tell that there was no eternal. It disheartened me. Wasn't it same with my past? In the end, I would never able to grab Finn's love.
" So what do you want? "
" Can you give me a break? "
" How long? "
" for three hours, please? "
" THREE HOURS?!!!!! You are just given one hour to go."
" Jeez. Fine. "
" You can have your way. "
I walked out of my class and pleased myself.
//Heh! See if they could find me. I won't return to that class anymore for today. Who cares about that performance! //
I took my feet under the green bamboo tree near the golden pool of sunflower. I smiled comfortably with the soft wind touching my hand. I could feel Kami-sama's sighed. I stretched my body and yawned in ease. But suddenly the wind changed and was alarmed. I couldn't move yet before suddenly I was assaulted from nowhere and driven to blackness.
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" Excuse me, do you see Shinji?"
" No. he has gone for five hours and hasn't returned yet. We are also looking for him."
" Oh.......thank you. "
I pondered a bit. It was kinda weird that he was nowhere. A whole class looked for him and he wasn't found out yet. I had visited to his favorite secret places and still found none.
Suddenly my gaze locked on the little garden of summer's flower. I could feel a call to come to it. I ran along the stairs that my heart palpitated fast with anxiety. I knew something had gone wrong which remained unknown.
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I finally arrived at the bamboo forest. This forest was going to be cut because a rumor of ghost had spread too widely. I took it was just a lie. After all I didn't like the forest to be cut.
Suddenly I hit something that made me fell. I turned my head with a painful moan.
" What was tha....... "
" !!!! " I gasped with surprise to see a glinting thing, lying silently on the ground. It was a silver watch that was Shinji's. I gave to him on his 17th birthday. Then he had to be around here before but he was still nowhere.
" What are you doing? "
I jolted and turned my head. It was his voice! I turned and smiled sincerely. But he didn't even reply. He just gave a cold look as if he had glassy doll eyes. There was no emotion, no pain, no love, and no heart in those amethyst pools.
" Shinji? "
I frowned at his face. He just remained quiet. He stared at me with emptiness. I shuddered with his still face.
" What? "
" What's going on? "
"..........Nothing. "
I tried to stand up. He didn't flinch or move. Usually he would offer his hand to help me with his best smile. Was he really Shinji? But if he wasn't, then where was the real Shinji? I even hadn't said sorry for my harsh words before. Though I apologized him now, he would just ignore me and walked passed me. He turned his back on me and started to walk.
" Who......are you? "
He stopped at his spot as his reaction.
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Whoops, it seems that this fic would be continued longer than two chapters. Sorry! A sudden idea comes across my head. Can you guess what is really happened to our dearly Shinji?! Hehehe.......Read another chap, okay? Review please! See you soon!